starrygreen. **

2009-03-08T23:20:00.006+08:00

I'm not collecting the O Levels certificate tomorrow 'cause I have extra evening lecture for H1 Chemistry till 7pm!! I'll go on Tuesday instead... But don't think can meet PoPo they all since my lessons end at 5.40pm =( So forget it then.

**Editted: Collecting on Thursday after lessons end at 2.40pm with Besties.

By the way, I went for NMA's ExCo (Executive Committee) interview during the camp on impulse hehe.

**Editted: I wish to get into ExCo! ~~

Congrats to my group Banana Split for being the Overall Best Group!! YAY! :)

-ZUANY-

2009-03-05T23:18:00.003+08:00

zzz I wanted to sleep!! *sob sob*
(Until LaySee reminded me of H2 Econs tutorial to hand up tomorrow morning.)

NMA camp is from tomorrow till Saturday's 10pm!! =(
So that means I only have Sunday to finish up my homework and everything...
+++ I haven't managed to replace my decomposing bags T_T
Hmm maybe next week? Okay, pathetic.

I shall continue zzz-ing... ZZZ

ANYWAY, hope NMA camp will be fun! :)

-ZUANY-

2009-03-02T18:28:00.004+08:00

ZZZ.

-ZUANY-

2009-03-01T20:18:00.018+08:00

Hihi :)
Just wana update that I have managed to change my CCA! YAY~~ My appeal is successful! It is no longer English Drama; now I belong to Innova's New Media Arts of Film Production! Hope it won't be the same case. No more 90% experienced. The one and only big problem is my deficiency in self-confidence! Having all experienced is dealing a great blow on me. I should have drilled that into you all by now. Yep I must learn to love my CCA! Jiayous ^.^

Highlights of the week:
- I passed Econs test! 8/15 which is kinda awesome huh.
- I got called during Econs lecture to answer a question. Survived thanks to the help from classmates around me. I only revised whatever I highlighted. And the answer happens to be what I copied - not highlighted! Already had sixth sense of it in the morning anyway.

"24A." Everyone in my class stoned. Only I know that it'll be me. Thanks or not to my sixth sense in the morning. "Jing Juan." That's what she pronounced. Stood up and got the hundred people's eyes onto me. I am on my own; scary thought. "What ... the market demand curve ...?" [Lost due to overwhelming stress.] Pause. Heart is struggling to come out from mouth. Listened to murmurings of 'Horizonal Summation' and added a few more words that I can recall. "Horizontal summation of an individual good or service." "Okay very good." Heart dropped back down with relief. Sat down and ex-Unitian Sufyan who coincidentally sat in front of me made a comment. "Wow Jing Zuan..." "Yes, I know."

- I gave up on Chem's lecture. Too depressed to catch up.
- Our Maths lecturer has been changed.
- My PW group is not bad. A1, B3, B4, C6.
- PE is embarrassing again 'cause I have to go to the gym and paddle like some idiot. Countless times I wished that I can join them in running and all that sweats.
- I attended PTC with parents. Dad emphasised on my back issue to my CT. Principal said that we have to wake up at 8.30am on Saturdays and self-study for at least three hours every weekday and five hours every weekend. Sounds crazy.
- I hereby announce that the path of nunnery has ended for me. Hehe.

&&& I am in love with the drama Hot Shot XD

Things to get for the week:
- Blu-tack to paste important notices.
- New backpack to replace my decomposing green sling bag.
- Some more notebooks for subjects.
- Shorter ankle socks.

P.S Haha yep I am currently self-indulging... GP project topic: "Blogging is nothing more than idle chatter and self-indulgence. Is this a fair comment?" Whatever I or you are doing now will be supporting the statement; which is not good =X

-ZUANY-

2009-02-25T00:59:00.003+08:00

SIGH...

I MISSED THE REGISTRATION FOR PRE-U SEMINAR'S ROAD USHERS!!

If only I had been more decisive and firm in my decision...

-ZUANY-

2009-02-19T23:11:00.004+08:00

It has been freaking embarrassing for me T_T

My stress overwhelmed me during the H1 Chemistry lecture test and I blanked out immediately... The feeling was absolute trauma. Plus I was completely lost during the lecture!! I didn't manage to catch what Mrs Yap was saying throughout the whole one hour unlike the previous lectures. Once again stress took over me when she told us to do the examples, afraid that she might ask me to answer. Thus I did not know any of the next steps in every example, all I did was copy whatever that is on the screen. I do agree that I understand after going through what I've copied, but I don't have enough time for that during lecture... CONCLUSION: I AM SLOW IN LEARNING. So as it goes on, I only gotten more lost and lost.

So what's embarrassing? Okay, the guy who sat beside me is sort of a chem pro - simply because he did the examples in the speed of light (to me it is) and he was teaching his friend. Thus, I believe he must have seen this pathetic sight of me not knowing how to do the simplest questions! I was unable to do anything while everyone was busy pressing their calculators. Mrs Yap said to us, "This is very simple logic already. I don't know how to make it simpler. If you don't get it, I don't know what to do with you ah." There are other people on the right who stoned too, and the tutors went to help them. You know, Zuany is not made for chem... I really hope it is a correct choice for me to take H1 chem. Well I have to MAKE it a correct choice also.

Anyway the point is - I have to seriously go through my H1 Chemistry notes again and again!! DEMORALISED.

--

My Literature tutor managed to inspire me with something she shared... What she did is a bit like what Ms Lim would do. May this be a form of encouragement to you too ^.^

It's about her colleague's or friend's son, who is a RJC student. He got C grades for his lit and his teacher always called him the dummy because he didn't get the interpretation that the teacher wants. His worried mother approached my tutor to give his son tuition for a fee of $200/1.5hr! (My costly emaths/amaths/bio/chem tuition is $70/2hr. ) My tutor told us that her leisure time is very important to her, but this rate was too hard to resist =P

During those tuitions, she realised that the boy isn't an idiot; as in not stupid at all. His only problems were that he is slower in thinking and answering the questions and had lesser self confidence in what he answers (probably due to his teacher who keeps calling him dummy). His language was great, his writing was beautiful and his interpretations were definitely unique and something that you will never thought of. My tutor commented that it was an easy tuition for a $200 as the boy didn't really need any tuition; just someone who is there to say, "Yes, you're right, this poem is about life... Go on, go on..." However, he continued getting Cs (again maybe because of his teacher's marking). My tutor then told her colleague that there is no need to worry as that boy didn't really had any problem and he'll do fine. Guess what? In the end, the boy aces his A Levels!!

I think I am similar to this boy; not in terms of the talents but in terms of the problems. Some people learn slower than the others... Some people have personal preference in how they study. Yeah I am just the slower one, further more I had low self confidence too. Do I have to get a $200/1.5hr tuition just for encouragements every week too? I hope not... I need to learn how to believe in myself and in my answers :)

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Been emo-dized all the way.
Inevitably this has to continue, and it shall.
The life of no-life long begun... Till end of A's.
At least for Zuany it is, NO LIFE.

-ZUANY-

2009-02-14T10:42:00.003+08:00

Just here to wish everyone a;

Happy Valentine's Day! :)

Zuany has no one to celebrate it with T_T
But never mind, I should study 'cause it's more important =P

By the way, I can't make it for Guides Thinking Day =(
What coincidence to have things on the same day & time =.="

-ZUANY-

2009-02-12T22:29:00.009+08:00

[ZUANY IS GOING TO BECOME A NUN.]
So be it, I am joining English Drama :)

Though worried about some things,
I believe they will clear up sooner or later.
Gambatte minna & gambatte Fukamidori! ^.^
Hope you all can get into your desired CCAs!

Looking forward to Saturday 'cause
I will be attending my first Malay wedding ever!
Just right down below my apartment =P
It's my neighbour's; and I wonder when will be my DaGe's turn.

P.S Thanks senior Sebastz for the long tags~~
And pardon me for not joining shooting =X

-ZUANY-

2009-02-08T14:01:00.005+08:00

Hihi! :)

IJC orientation was quite alright, and I have to say that the seniors are really great ;D

Even though we weren't very enthusiastic or have enough courage, they still continued to lead us with a positive attitude - screaming every cheer at the top of their lungs and striving to win all the games for our own group.

They're not obliged to do these you know; they can jolly well heck care and just give a quarter of what they have so that they won't have a sore throat or be so tired at the end of the day. They have to manage their studies too. Do they really get anything when we win or lose? I think not. I would have thought that we would earn a few scoldings from the leaders when we're uncooperative - but they gave none.

My fleet Berquellion in crew Bruni led by Satia (not sure about the spelling), had only the pathetic SIX of us as compared to other fleets with at least 12 or 15 people. All he said were; "Guys, even though we only have six people, I know you all can do it.", "It doesn't matter whether we lose or win. Just do your best." Wana know the result? Badges will be given to the first three groups out of four in each game. We have earned badges in ALL the stations. Meaning, we've got a mixture of gold, silver and bronze - but never nothing. Can you imagine how the smallest group in orientation actually manage to get this result? Yes, pathetically my group was the smallest and in several stations compromise have to be made specially for us. On the last day, we had only five people!

I stilll remembered the first time I saw our OGL. I noticed his styled hair, the ring on his fourth finger and his bloodshot eyes. My first impression was that he probably studied too much =X Well that I'll never know. Anyway our crew Bruni has really nice leaders. The girl leaders tried to lead us too; but their voice didn't really work. Your ears can basically hear how hard they tried to make sure they can be heard. Anyway what I want to say is - THANKS ALL OGLS FOR THE HARD WORK AND EFFORT! (including those from other crews) Our crew Bruni emerged as second overall. CONGRATULATIONS! (a late one) But too bad I wasn't there for the finale, I was in NUH having the stupid post-surgery body check-up.

Repeating, I am in Innova JC arts stream.
And my confirmed subject combination is;

H2 Mathematics
H2 Economics
H2 English Literature
H1 Chemistry
Compulsory;
H1 General Paper
H1 Project Work
H1 Chinese Language

For your information, my combination class has only 12 people instead of the minimum 15. Don't ask me, I don't know why too. Furthermore, there're only three boys I think.

Okay I am too wuliao, so I shall post up my timetable for next week =P

Monday 09/02
8.10-9.10 Mass Talk
9.10-10.10 H2 Maths
10.10-10.40 Break
10.40-11.40 H2 Lit
11.40-12.40 Lunch
12.40-2.40 H1 CL

Tuesday 10/02
8.10-9.10 H1 GP
9.10-10.10 H2 Econs
10.10-11.40 Break + Free Period
11.40-12.40 Civics
12.40-1.40 H2 Maths

Wednesday 11/02
8.10-9.10 H1 Chem
9.10-10.10 H2 Maths
10.10-10.40 Break
10.40-11.40 Civics
11.40-12.40 GPS
12.40-3.00 Free Period + Break
3.00-5.00 CCA Fair

Thursday 12/02
8.10-9.10 H2 Econs
9.10-12.40 Free Period + Break
12.40-1.40 H2 Lit
1.40-3.40 Assembly (TDD)

Friday 13/02
8.10-9.10 Civics
9.10-10.10 H2 Lit
10.10-10.40 Break
10.40-11.40 H2 Econs
11.40-12.40 H1 PW

I have never regretted entering Innova JC. There are a few reasons.

1) Professional teachers from various JCs. Yes, this has been 100% verified. All lecturers that I have seen are experienced. VJC, RJC, JJC etc. Whatever I've heard is true.
2) Focused objective of staff. If you have listened to the Principal's talk, you would understand. They are clear of what they are doing to go where they are going. I was nodding my head (in my heart) throughout. If you slept, oh well.
3) Great seniors. Need I say more?
4) A Level results. Yep, their top scorers are better than the other JCs despite that they are new. Their results compared with other JCs: O Levels < A Levels. Meaning they took in worse O Levels scorers than others but they had better A Levels scorers than others.
5) I like how they THINK. Their programs, policies, lessons etc. Like how they believe that each and every student is a star. Opportunities will be given equally. The top JCs don't think like that.
6) Facilities are the top latest. Principal has explained to us that IJC was built when the economy is at the best. Thus the government can afford to invest more heavily.

However there're some flaws as well.

1) BOOKSHOP. Oh man. How can you ask the whole JC1 cohort to queue at ONE counter for notes? The path will also be blocked.
2) Main gate. Just the reason that it is too far and inaccessible.
3) Canteen food. Hehe because the picky Zuany only had two stalls to choose from.
4) Toilets! Sigh. Out of the whole school I only know how to go to two toilets.

By the way, the motto of IJC is ad astra, which means 'to the stars' in Latin. The name Innova, means very (in) new (nova) in Latin. The name, motto, crest, college song are chosen by the first batch of students just like Unity ^^ (except for the name) Also, Innova's basketball came in second last year. Just like Unity too.

-ZUANY-

2009-02-03T23:19:00.006+08:00

Man. There's one thing I want to do so badly;
Watch Vacation again before JC term starts.

*prays* Spare me some time to watch it tomorrow!
I guess I need more Hero Jaejoongs hehe ^.^

-ZUANY-

2009-02-02T22:07:00.007+08:00

F**K OFF, DAD.
SHUT THE F**KING HELL UP YOU IDIOT NOOB.

IF I DIE, IT'S NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS.
DON'T JUDGE ME WHEN YOU DON'T F**KING UNDERSTAND.

I AM NOT ANY CHILDISH NEAR YOU.

CHILDISH.
+ STUBBORN, UNREASONABLE AND ALWAYS DON'T LISTEN TO OTHERS.
THINKS HE'S THE ONLY CORRECT ONE FOREVER.

SO WHAT IF YOUR REASON IS TO CARE FOR ME?
YOU'RE JUST MAKING THINGS HARDER AND NOT HELPING AT ALL.

F**K F**K F**K.
LIFE'S A BIG SHYT.

ASSHOLE LAR, ASSHOLE.

Don't know how many times I have said it seriously.

-ZUANY-

2009-02-01T22:45:00.003+08:00

THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR TREATING ME LIKE A JOKE.

THANKS MAN.

I can't believe I liked a person like you too.
I am so unbelievably stupid.

To tomorrow -
here comes a new beginning. ;)

Innova JC arts.

-ZUANY-

2009-01-15T23:22:00.009+08:00

Yoyo! It's been a long time, anyone miss me? =X This holiday has been downright disappointing - with me stuck in bed after surgery; including my underperformed O level results... But I shall let the past pass, just like how I am going to leave DaiSuki as a fairytale. Yes, after so much it still ended. Maybe if there is enough fate between us, we might meet again; at Psychology in university.
(There, DaiSuki you know it now. Finally, I LIKE YOU - that I've never got the chance to say.)

Dad often referred my surgery to an escape from death, thus I felt the need to restart my life, renew my thinking and perhaps give a little change to my personality. DaiSuki belonged to the old me, so to the new me DaiSuki is just a piece of memory. There are no words to describe how crazy the surgery is - if I have the mood, I will blog and explain about it. Anyway it is over, I gained height and removed my hunchback problem. Despite my beautiful back now, my 29cm scar is still visible. I will get over it since I won't be wearing any bikinis or sorts.

Late post to specially thank these people. But anyway, you guys deserve it okay. All of you helped me in some way to make sure I don't die of my suffering in hospital. A visit to a patient is definitely invaluable. Don't believe? Then I should throw you in a hospital one day.

ARIGATOU GOSAIMASU;

MY FAMILY - PARENTS, DAGE, ERGE, ERGU
WHO WAS ALWAYS THERE FOR ME WHEN EVERYONE LEFT

FRIENDS - OPA, HARU, ZILING, XUANY, SAMSAM, GERALDINE, SHIYUN
WHO MADE THE EFFORT TO VISIT ME WHEN I WAS ALL DOWN AND ALONE

&&& ALL DOCTORS IN OPERATION ROOM
WHO HANDLED MY LIFE AND DEATH

&&& ALL NURSES IN WARD
WHO TOOK ABSOLUTE CARE OF ME WHEN I WAS 99.9% PARALYSED IN BED

&&& PHYSIOTHERAPISTS
WHO TAUGHT ME HOW TO WALK LIKE A HUMAN AGAIN

WITHOUT YOU, I WON'T BE HERE RECOVERING ALL WELL. THANKS FOR EVERYTHING.

My results are pathetic; with no distinctions & one failed subject. Thus, it is B3 x 6 = 18. I am the number one all-rounder ever. But no, I didn't cry. There are so many reasons not to. My parents are relieved that I am eligible for JC. For this cny, they are glad they don't have to say that their daughter has the same ending as her two bros.

I am going to submit my choices soon. Most likely I won't be in the same class as any of you. First choice of mine is Pioneer JC arts stream. I already have a subject combination in mind.

Whatever fate gives.

-ZUANY-

2008-12-24T16:14:00.012+08:00

Highlight if you wana read my childish rant.

It is because I am THIS angry to blog.
I've got an asshole dad as we all know.

Supposedly fact: I am too stupid to go JCs - only can go Polytechnics.

Reason: Just because; according to this IDIOT who said, "Only Polytechnics sent letters to you, but no JCs did so. So maybe they knew your results can only enter Polytechnics already."

^ For goodness sake, of course JCs don't need to send those!! People are dying to go in to the extent that such invitations are not needed. By the way, we will only know our results on the day itself. The earliest and first persons to know will be our teachers, in that morning.

Thus, because of my dad's hypothesis, it seems like the whole '08 cohort is doomed - none of us can go JCs because we all received letters from Polytechnics. LOL-ness.

Then, he made a 'clever' conclusion that the results will be released before 8 January since their open house are on that date. Yes, the whole '08 cohort knows that it will be in early January; probably the first week.

He is clever, riight.
He can go on cursing me, and pouring cold water on my dreams; if it really become a reality, we can see who cries first.
You know, if you keep on saying (or wishing) something, it might really come true.
Now I have to beg the Polytechnics to stop sending the letters to me - to make my dad's curses come to a stop.

[I wana let people know how asshole-ly stupid my dad is.
Tell me who else has a dad who's THIS ignorant.]

-ZUANY-

2008-12-13T12:22:00.000+08:00

I cannot even tahan sitting in front of com!!
So can't use laptop till I can tahan it...
TIRED & SWEATING!!

-ZUANY-

2008-12-04T13:04:00.009+08:00

Okay, guys.

Zuany is gona go for her physical ordeal.
Guess the day is finally here for me.

Needless to hide anymore; I am going to have a spinal fusion surgery, for my idiopathic scoliosis.
Sounds scary, but have to get over it anyway.
(Sorry to ShiTing, whom I lied that I am going for a holiday T_T Anyway, if you managed to see this.)

The hospital is National University Hospital.
The operation will be tomorrow morning; today is just the check-in. Visiting hours are 12-2pm, 5-8pm.

If you want to visit me, you can contact Opa or Haru for my ward.
You can also contact me through my phone, which I am trying to smuggle in. I should be discharged on 8 December, Monday.

Visit at your own discretion. It's alright if you can't come.
I have to say beforehand that I may fall asleep when you're here.

Yes, I am bringing regrets with me. My DaiSuki regrets.
"DaiSuki, 我很喜欢你。"

A big thanks to all the given well wishes from everyone.

I know; when I come back, I will be a different person.
A person with metals in her body, also accompanied with six months of immobility.

P.S My long distant cousin from China managed to view my blog ^^

-ZUANY-

2008-12-02T12:03:00.002+08:00

Bad things happening.

Can't get a job. Failed DaiSuki plan. Upcoming physical ordeal. Third time getting scammed. Quarreled with friends. Bro not helping & rubbing wound with salt.

SIAN.

Time is running out.
Maybe I should just rot at home till the end of time.

I wana escape when bad things happen.
This is how weak I am.

I enjoy being weak because it is me.

-ZUANY-

2008-11-27T10:55:00.004+08:00

Good morning! (:
(Even though it's kinda late =.="
I was too tired you see)

The long-awaited prom pictures are here~~
I have included those who sent me them as well.
I carried the same expression in some; the typical 'Zuany' face.
Opa often hit me for always making that expression in photos =P

Anyway enjoy ^.^

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(From Xuany)

(From Xuany)

(From Xuany)

(From Xuany)

(From JunRong)

(From ShiYun)

(From PoPo)

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All below are from my camera.

(PoPo and me)

(ShiYun and me)

(ShiYun and me)

(Haru, me, Opa)

(Haru, me, Opa)

(Besties)

(The hairstyle before prom night)

(The difference in hairstyle after prom night)

(Mum took this for me)

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Lastly, you may look forward to this.
My collection of only four self-taken photos.
No comments are allowed to be made, seriously.
If not my kawaii PiaPia will slap you all the way to Pluto.

(In hairdresser's house)

(In hairdresser's house)

(Home)

(Home)

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Last prom night photo in the camera is...
Green pen, ticket 157 and my 14 hair clips.
Marks the end of prom night 2008 (:

-ZUANY-

2008-11-26T23:34:00.005+08:00

Good for me.
I don't know what's this.
Haven't even try den fail le.
Looks like I fail everything...

I have really been thinking too much;
fantasizing about a stupid love story.
DaiSuki.

I am tired...
I know I am stupid and crazy.

It is the end for me,
because 99.99% of my life is gone.
I've always believed in the fate -
but now it's just my hormones acting up.

Friends cheered me on...
It is amazingly ridiculous of how it turned out.
Even if I go with regrets,
this is inevitable.

I don't know what's this.
Probably I thought too much about how I felt,
maybe there was no fate at all in the beginning,
or perhaps you treat me as a pure joke.

I will try my best to survive with only 0.01% of my life.
I don't know what I can do anymore either.

Definitely, I know -
no more miracles for me.

Prom pictures next post again... Hehe (:

-ZUANY-

2008-11-24T12:35:00.007+08:00

zzz. Tired!!
Finally managed to get my sleep after so many days~~
My schedule since the start of holidays was;
- Wake up; usually 0830 or 0900
- Play RO with Opa and Haru; sometimes also with ZiLing kor
- Bathe; didn't have time to eat anything
- Late because I miss buses; happens every time
- Begin our plan for interviews; with ShiTing, Samsam and sometimes PoPo about 1300
- Interview and signing of forms everywhere; probably 1900 or 2100 reach home
- Grab dinner and slack on sofa; usually too tired to play RO already
- Sleep; most likely 0000 or later

Anyway, we had many eye-openers during our trips ^.^
Some of the departments were friendly, while some were not.
Nevertheless, we had the luxury to look at the early Christmas lightings at night and take photos XD
You guys may want to try doing that - walking down the Orchard road with your friends at night, enjoying the Christmas night scenery ;D
There are also different Christmas trees in various shopping centres, so remember to take a look as well.
Lolx I am becoming a tour guide for the Christmas Orchard road =X

ShiTing, PoPo and SuetLian have gotten their jobs in Guardian; with ShiTing and SuetLian at the same branch and PoPo at West Coast area.
(But they still came out with us to fight with us you know =.=")
Good gracious 'cause poor Samsam and watashi didn't get in this easy-peasy job.
Samsam had holidays from 28/11 to 06/12, while I had my personal stuff from 04/12 to 12/12.

So for now, we had run out of ideas of where to go...
Even yesterday, we watched the sneak preview of Wild Child after a failed interview.
The movie was so-so, with some really fake parts of the main character.
But there are still some parts that were more real =X
Lolx what am I talking about @_@
Very lihai hor, and now I owe PoPo $10 T_T

Thus I am currently 'rotting' at home, 24/7 standing by at my handphone - waiting for any miraculous call from anyone.
(But at the same time I will be RO-ing or watching animes/dramas hehe)

By the way, the very-late prom night pictures will be up in next post!
I have them all in my laptop already.

-ZUANY-

2008-11-19T08:28:00.004+08:00

This post is specially dedicated for the tagged quizzes by Xuany & ShiYun (:

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Q1. The person who tagged you was?
Both Xuany & ShiYun.

Q2. Your relationship with them were?
Xuany - Besties, Classmate
ShiYun - Longest-time friend, Guide

Q3. Your fifth impression of them?
Huh? Do you mean the first?
Xuany - My friend de friend; happened to be in the same class =X
ShiYun - I was five so couldn't remember. Known as my 'K1 Friend'~~

Q4. The most memorable thing they did for you?
Xuany - Part of the DaiSuki gou zai dui and the formidable nightmare she had ^.^
ShiYun - Every time during Guides to accompany watashi (:

Q5. If they become your lover, you would?
Nonono T_T I am straight & only going for DaiSuki hehe XD

Q6. If they become your lover, they need to improve on?
Xuany - Become DaiSuki lor =.="
ShiYun - Become DaiSuki lor =.="

Q7. If they become your enemy, you would?
Touch wood T_T One more friend is better than one more enemy.

Q8. If they become your enemy, they need to improve on?
Xuany - See first?
ShiYun - See first?

Q9. If they become your enemy, the reason would be?
Some misunderstanding perhaps? In which no one wants to explain anything?

Q10. The most desired thing you want they to be?
I don't know? Maybe keep in contact after we graduate?

Q11. Your overall impression of them?
Xuany - Sociable, blogger, loves drawing anime, loves teasing people.
ShiYun - Helpful, easygoing, blogger, loves hanging out.

Q12. How do you think others would think of you?
Negative & easy-emo Zuany.

Q13. The character you love about yourself?
Whatever the others probably love about me.

Q14. The character you hate about yourself?
Most likely is always seeing people's bad points instead of good ones.

Q15. The most ideal person you wanna be?
Mrs DaiSuki =P

Q16. For person that care and love you, what would you wanna say to them?
Thanks for caring and loving me ;D

Q17. Pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel about you.
In no particular order.
1. This
2. quiz
3. ends
4. here
5. 'cause
6. Zuany
7. don't
8. have
9. friends
10. already

Q18. Who is no.6 (Zuany) having a relationship with?
Hehehe. I have a relationship with myself lor.

Q19. Is no.9 (friends) a female or a male?
Both lolx.

Q20. If no.7 (don't) and no.10 (already) are together, would it be good?
Don't + Already = dontalready

Q21. What is no.2 (quiz) studying about?
How idiotic this quiz is.

Q22. When was the last time you chatted with no.3 (ends) ?
I don't chat with someone called 'ends'.

Q23. What kind of music genre does no.8 (have) likes?
Dot dot dot...

Q24. Does no.1 (This) have siblings?
Have... This and That ^.^

Q25. Would you woo no.3 (ends) ?
'Ends' is not a human nor a guy.

Q26. How about no.7 (don't) ?
'Don't' means no.

Q27. Is no.4 (here) single?
No, Here and There.

Q28. What's the surname of no. 5 ('cause) ?
Be-'cause.

Q29. What's the hobby of no.10 (already) ?
Being all ready.

Q30. Does no.5 ('cause) & no.9 (friends) get along well?
Dot dot dot again...

Q31. Where is no.2 (quiz) studying at?
blogger.com

Q32. Talk something casually about no.1 (This).
It has a letter T, letter H, letter I and letter S.

Q33. Have you tried develop feelings for no.8 (have) ?
Have so have lor.

Q34. Where does no.9 (friends) lives?
Spread out across Singapore.

Q35. What colour does no.4 (here) likes?
Black and white 'cause here is here.

Q36. Are no.1 (This) & no.5 ('cause) best friends?
zzz-ness to answer this.

Q37. Does no.1 (This) has any pets?
Half asleep.

Q38. Is no.7 (don't) the sexiest person in the world?
Real asleep.

Q39. What is no.10 (already) doing now?
In dreamland.

--

1) Each player of this game starts off with 10 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself.
2) People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 10 weird things/habits/little know facts as well as state this rule clearly
3) At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged & list their names
4) No tag back.

~I love Pibi-chan! (if you know who he is)
~I started online shopping way back in June 2007.
~I have phobia for swimming.
~I kick my PiaPia in bed every night.
~I get the luck to miss buses.
~I am still using my pathetic spoilt green pencil case.
~I don't like to keep long nails, I cut them.
~My bedsheet is green and dreamcatcher is green too; except blanket.
~If you don't know, I am the last grandchild of the big family.
~If you still remember, my risk is on _ December.

-ZUANY-

2008-11-15T01:38:00.003+08:00

Prom night is over...
I had many versions of illusion for this day,
but never expected it to end just this way.

'Oh well, it has ended', I told myself.

*Note: Pictures will be up after the camera has been settled.

-ZUANY-

2008-11-13T22:40:00.005+08:00

BACK FROM THE SUPER SHOPPING!
(For prom, not for my leisure actually.)

Yes, it is a tiring day...
The day started at 6am when I woke up;
8am to 9am for last paper,
12pm to 8pm for shopping,
till now for blogging~

Have managed to find my heels & clutch-similar ^.^
But I lost my appetite for the whole day.
Too excited for my body to be hungry le.
Hehehe.

--

I have spent about $220 overall for prom night!!
Including ticket, lens, hair, make-up and what's-nots.
Excluding my ezlink card fares and tomorrow's taxi fares though.
Yeah... I am being a sort of a spendthrift...
Not to the highest extent but to some extent.

I think most of us won't be able to sleep well tonight...
I am already suffering from over-excitement =.="
The dinner is just four hours; but I wished it would be a bit longer.

Anyway, I'm sure we'll be seeing a lot of strangers that we know =P

--

Alamak... Forgot something very important =X

LET'S EXCLAIM;
GCE 'O' LEVELS IS OFFICIALLY OVER!
YAY YAY YAY! HURRAY HURRAY HURRAY!

-ZUANY-

2008-11-12T21:42:00.004+08:00

I can't find the words to say.

Samsam said she's not free on Saturday that time.
Besties said best not to join me.
ShiYun said she had to go Lavender with Geraldine.
ShiTing said she need to go church.

ShiYun & ShiTing just backed out today.

Now...
It's only left with PoPo and watashi.

Heels. Clutch. Necklace.
It seems like I want to pick one anyhow and go home.
But I can't; because I have to meet another person for bangles in the evening.

My mood for prom night is suddenly diminished.
Mei you yi si le.

On a side note, minna gambatte for the last paper tomorrow ^.^
Freedom awaits - but is it happiness after all?

-ZUANY-

2008-11-09T11:30:00.009+08:00

='(

I'm chiong-ing my biology tys mcq till I want to cry already...

@_@

Especially that transport in humans; with so many stupid arteries, veins and capillaries!!

T_T

Sigh, I guess I can't complete in time for tuition again~

zzz-ness for me.

=.="

I know I can never become a doctor.
I have never seen human flesh before...
By watching a surgery video makes me throw up.
And to think I am going to go through one soon.

Great.

--

SamSam just called me! She was learning how to wear contacts ^.^ But it didn't go smoothly after one hour... I jiayou-ed her; after all the first time wearing contacts will definitely take some time.

Our last minute prom shopping has been postponed to - THE VERY LAST DAY OF O'S! All due to Zuany's fault whereby her tuition teacher screamed at her for putting prom shopping in front of her last two papers. Hehe.

I said I have to change tuition time because of...

"Huh shopping??? Pls girl which 1 more impt huh??? Shop after exams lah"

Reluctantly, I agreed. She won...

"Hahaha of cos mah wait till exams over then go shop more shiok also haha"

I can't wait till then for PoPo to teach me... I might be dumb enough to drag till prom night. Thus I am going to try under the guidance of my pro ErGe later. I can imagine him saying, "Just put in lor."

-ZUANY-

2008-11-07T14:47:00.004+08:00

I've changed my blogskin!! Hours of headache for me... T^T Errors keep on popping up here and there; have to double-check the codes repeatedly. zzz-ness. Anyway it's done, hopefully it looks nice ^.^

This week is over with Social Studies and Geography Paper 2~ I'm really hoping to get distinction for Combined Humanities & Pure Geography (: I don't know why, but it seemed like these 2 subjects' papers are more manageable to me than the others. Though I can also rely on E. Maths, I'm afraid of the moderation bell curve.

Here's a summary for the papers;

Chemistry Paper 2 - Bad: Never state the Either/Or question. 10marks at risk. Good: No problem with attempting most of the questions.

English Paper 1 - Bad: Wrote a made-up personal recount due to time constraint in finding inspiration, and ended up rushing through situational writing. Insufficient time to check. Good: Followed Ms Lim's instructions of emphasising on target audience and task fufillment.

English Paper 2 - Bad: Unsure of how to do summary. 25marks at risk. Good: No problem with attempting most of the questions.

A. Maths Paper 1 - Bad: Insufficient time to check. Good: No problem with attempting most of the questions.

Geography Paper 1 - Bad: Unsure of how to answer 'distribution' questions. Good: Completed in time.

E. Maths Paper 1 - Bad: Forgot how to draw perpendicular bisector. Good: No problem with attempting most of the questions.

A. Maths Paper 2 - Bad: There are three questions that I have never saw in my entire life. Hence 30marks confirmed gone. Good: Confident in other questions.

History Elective - Bad: Didn't finish one conclusion. Forgot to write cross-reference for testing assertion question. Good: No problem with attempting most of the questions.

E. Maths Paper 2 - Bad: Insufficient time to check. Good: No problem with attempting most of the questions.

Biology Paper 2 - Bad: Forgot the name of two processes. 2marks confirmed gone. Got the blood group genotype wrong. Don't know how many marks for that. Good: No problem with attempting most of the questions.

Social Studies - Bad: Unsure of source based questions. Good: Completed in time.

Geography Paper 2 - Bad: Unsure of the 'compare' and free response question on positive effects of intensive farming. Good: Completed in time.

After reading these, you would have understood why I have no confidence. Really pathetic mistakes... If I let my tuition teacher know that I have left 30marks of questions blank, I'm sure she will scream her lungs out. Distinction for A. Maths is after all, a pipe dream for me now. Even if I do very well for Paper 1; 30marks is still too much of a loss. Thus, I re-upated my wishes for o's results. All I really want for my o's results now is any number below 20, so that I am able to enter JC - although preferably also getting the desired subject combination.

Anyway, it's only left with two mcq papers and o's will be over! So looking on the bright side, some of my friends have already came up with the to-do lists. I'm going to come up with one too~ Anyone who has any recommendations please give them to me, thank you ;D

Zuany's list of look-forwards after o's

= PROM NIGHT!
= Massive shopping sprees!
= Watch movies; especially horror or NC16 genre
= Get back on anime otaku's track and also ULQUIHIME-ness
= New handphone as promised by dad ^.^
= Maybe an overnight party at someone's house?
= Accompany dear ShiYun for sunrise and sunset
= Accompany Haru and Opa in online games
= 'Exercises' like going Escape for the last time before I can't anymore
(Opa has promised to 'exercise' with me! Any of my close friends who are kind enough to accompany me, please join~ *sob*)
= Part-time jobs after that you-know-what
= Class outing at 9-11December!
(Even though I might not be able to make it at all because of you-know what)
= December birthdays of Xuany, Samsam and Geraldine

P.S Do you feel that it's easier to read now? =X
I've made changes to my way of typing and changed some emoticons.

-ZUANY-

2008-11-01T22:40:00.008+08:00

Yo pple~~ Zuany has a new target for stalking =P
This is very random XD

He is............. Lolx if u watch the 7pm Channel U kdrama den u'll know.
He is acting as ChenXin's bro & YuShu's plastic surgeon.
I told my mum tt he's shuai, den she said, "Your taste is different from mine."
T_T Is tt supposed to be an insult?

Anyway, he's sort of a newbie & I think he's also a singer.
His acting roles r very minor... But he's still shuai to mi =P
From dramawiki. He's the same age as my erge ^^
Not much of photos cos can't seem to find =.="

But tada cos there r a few pics of him in an album~~
To show tt I am not some crazy person, click on the links yourself =X
http://i115.photobucket.com/albums/n296/dramaok/GH140061206-23.jpg
http://i115.photobucket.com/albums/n296/dramaok/GH144061212-14.jpg
http://i115.photobucket.com/albums/n296/dramaok/GH145061213-31.jpg
http://i115.photobucket.com/albums/n296/dramaok/GH148061218-27.jpg
http://i115.photobucket.com/albums/n296/dramaok/GH148061218-26.jpg
http://i115.photobucket.com/albums/n296/dramaok/GH156061228-24.jpg
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Profile

* Name: 최원준 / Choi Won Joon
* Profession: Actor
* Birthdate: 1982-Aug-05
* Star sign: Leo

TV Shows

* Pure 19 (KBS, 2006)
* Rainbow Romance (MBC, 2005)

Btw there's no prob wif my taste okay...
Look, there's another person who has the same taste as mi XD
Visit this link & u'll understand;
http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20080103012359AAQhKXx

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I have came up wif 2 calculations this afternoon ^^
The worst o lvl results & the best o lvl results tt I can get...
Worst will be 20 smth; cannot go JC.
Best will be slightly over 10; can go to a desired JC.

Before chem paper 2, I haven't 看开 yet.
But before the english papers, I have done so le.
My mum also encouraged mi (:
"如果到最后还是进POLY，那也是没有办法的事实。"

Basically I go in, do my best & come out.
Even if it's badly done in the end, I'll juz accept it & go poly.
There's nothing I can do abt it if it's out of my limits.
Though I still realli yearn & aim to get below 20 & go JC ='(

I know the expectations of myself...
I also didn't expect I might do so badly.
No one in the world did, & I do not know the reason - up to this date.

I completely have no confidence.

Pple smile & step out of the rm exclaiming how easy the paper was,
I dun feel like smiling & saying how easy it was.
It might be easy; but I'm unsure abt the carelessness & moderation bell curve.
If I lose 1 or 2 marks, tt's 1 grade down for mi.
Pple love to discuss their ans after the papers,
I hate doing so; bcos the way I think is always different.
I will always think the other way in some alien form.
Which no one; even my family, can understand.
Hence the very unique ans = wrong ans.

Yes, tt means I have been suffering from the start of o lvls papers till now.
But there's no helping it cos there's no such thing as shutting up your ears.
So I've gotta endure it all the way & try to shrug it off by thinking;
"Hey u know, maybe your 'different' thinking may had some of these ideas.
Thus juz maybe, u might get some marks! So it's okay!"
Some idiotic optimism in the middle of this pessimism.

I am underperforming till this stage after all.

In other words speaking, this could be Zuany's most tormenting period.
For my internal environment of mind & heart.
Not possible to stop it. I aren't trying.

-ZUANY-

2008-11-01T11:44:00.006+08:00

The week ended wif emaths paper 2, history elective & bio paper 2...
Both emaths & history elective were okay.
Except for bio, which I dun even wana talk abt it.
All I can say is - passing is not a prob, but distinction is completely impossible.
I know I'm shyt @ science... Getting C5/C6 is likely.

Anyway it's 3 more down; 4 more papers to go!
Social studies, geo paper 2, chem paper 1 & bio paper 1.
Less dan 2weeks to freedom & prom nite ^^

--

Juz to share a song; not DaiSuki-related, but it's 1 of my all-time-fave.
Shockingly to say, this song is introduced to mi by my bro gf (:

Let's hear the original version - English first...

(I had to upload it cos the other unclear version had the stupid MV sound!!)

Now listen to the original Mandarin version they sang & compare =P
Btw, they r Norwegians, their first language is neither English nor Chinese.
So they're realli great~~

Lyrics!! =P
The ones in (brackets) is the English version.
The Chinese lyrics in front is the original Mandarin version.
The Chinese ones in the back is edited by mi, for a better translation =X

偷偷看你的臉 (I lie awake at night) 夜深了睡不着
心情变成睛天 (See things in black and white) 双眼面对黑白
我向著窗外默默想念 (I’ve only got you inside my mind) 满脑里全是你的影子
希望你能听的見 (You know you’ve made me blind) 确实变瞎因为你

你的好你的壞 (I lie awake and pray) 在黑暗许个愿
全部我都想愛 (That you will look my way) 希望你看这边
你明不明白說不出來 (I have all these longing in my heart) 心里有这种无数祈祷
心中對你的依賴 (I knew it right from the start) 从一开始就知道

Oh my pretty pretty boy I love you
因為窈窕美眉不會假装愛 (Like I never ever loved no one before you) 好像从来没有像现在这样
Pretty pretty boy of mine
對你說聲嗨 (Just tell me you love me too) 只要说你也爱我
Oh my pretty pretty boy I need you
Oh my 窈窕美眉只想愛 (Oh my pretty pretty boy I do) 真的非常非常需要你
說你不走 (Let me inside) 让我靠近
要你別走 (Make me stay) 并且留下
請留下來 (Right beside you) 在你身边

看別人手牽手 (I used to write your name) 总爱写你的名
我越看越寂寞 (I put it in a frame) 把纸挂在床头
我想要你說只對我說 (And sometimes I think I’ll hear you call) 有时能听到你呼唤我
說你心中只有我 (Right from my bedroom wall) 在房间里的角落

你明明很愛我 (You stay a little while) 你留了一下下
明明不想要走 (And touch me with your smile) 用笑容打动我
為什麼不敢付出太多(And what can I say to make you mine) 应该说些什么才好呢
是不是怕真愛上我 (To reach out for you in time) 让彼此距离减少些

Oh pretty boy, pretty boy, pretty boy
說你也愛我 (Say you love me too) 说你也爱我

Surprise! There's still another version in another language XD
It is not sang by them though. Enjoys! (:
It's by Jang Nara in Korean, I think the meaning here is also different.

Here's the lyrics they had for the Korean version; not translated.

Cheoh-Um-En Mol-Lat-Joh, Sah-Lang-Eeh-Lah-Nun Gul
Nul Gok Man-Nun Ot Cheoh~Leom Pyuh-Nhan Chin-Gooh-La-Goh Saeng-Gak Hat-Joh

Noon-Moo-Li Man-Tah-Goh, Nul Cheoh-Li Up-Dah-Goh
Um-Mah-Cheo-Leom Geok-Jeong-Hae-Jooh-Deon Nan Gu-Dae Mam Mol-Lat-Seoh-Joh.

oh my sweety sweety boy I miss you really
Nae-Gah-Meon-Jeoh Mah-Um Yuh-Luh Dool-Gae
Booh-Gu-Leob-Gin Hah-Ji-Man Nae Dooh Soh-Nul Jah-Bah-Yoh
oh my little little boy I love you so much
Oh-Lae Chah-Mah-Wat-Deon Mal, Sah-Lang-Hae, Young-Wah-Ni Gyuh-Tae It-Doh-Lok

Mi-Ahn-Hah-Dah-Nun Mal, Goh-Map-Dah-Nun Gu Mal Woe Gu-Lun-Ji Hang-Sang Uh-Sae-Ke
Han-Beon-Doh Mal Mot Hat-Joh

Nae-Gah Him Dul Dae-Myun Sal-Myuh-Si Dah-Gah-Woah Ah-Eeh-Cheoh-Lum Jang-Nan-Chi-Deon Neoh
Un-Jae-Nah Woot-Gae Hat-Joh

oh you're my friend, you're my friend, you're my friend,
until the end of time

-ZUANY-

2008-10-28T21:26:00.003+08:00

Today is not bad...
I managed to see DaiSuki & paper was okay.
Didn't manage to finish one of the conclusion...

I went to lot 1 to enquire abt the contact lens.
They realli do sell one pair de!! I bumped into Jessica as I went in =X
Confirmed pple joining mi r SamSam & ShiYun (:
PoPo shall teach us when we go for last min prom shopping next week!

After tt went to post office to post my blogshop parcel~~
Den returned to lot 1 & search for daddy's present; but futile.
I did many merry-go-rounds around the storeys =.="
I still duno wat to give him leh!! Arghh!!

On my bus ride home, I saw my neighbour aka ex-kranjian.
He walked very fast all the way from bus stop & rushed into the lift =.="
zzz I live on the second storey leh, I won't fight the lift wif u lor haiyo.

& later in the nite, a mini fire brigade was called to our blk...
No water was splashed; den a police car came next.
The curious Zuany ran to the lift & stared @ the moving digits.
She ran back & reported to her mum tt the 'fire' is on 11th storey.
Not long later, the police returned & drove away. End.

Ytd, I've asked my mum if we can sue the ones playing 'bombs' & fireworks.
She told mi we could, but ytd was deepavali so there is some leeway.
Hoho, today isn't deepavali - so someone else, wanted to sue them as well.
They may be kids, but seriously when I was a kid I dun do tt.
Damn it, I could have thrown countless curses of words @ them.
I heard a loud 'oooooi' coming from the other side, & I echoed it too.
Living on the second storey, I'm sure mine was clearer dan anything.

--

Juz finished spamming all the pple~~
Den made a final spam @ my own tagboard ^^
Hehe I'm too wuliao le =X

Anyway, hope u all like the spam tag XD
It's an effort from dear Zuany =P
Minna gambatte for the remaining papers!

NOW BACK TO STUDY!! (:

-ZUANY-

2008-10-27T14:13:00.002+08:00

Haiya...
I am sorri for eating one more pao.
How am I supposed to know tt my bro haven't eat?
He woke up before mi & happily sat on the sofa watching tv leh.

There r onli 3 pathetic paos =.="
Furthermore there're no more bread left or watsoever.
Thus leading to this food shortage tragedy.
Everyone is too lazy to buy food...
I think mi myself is also included.

Next time I should juz skip my breakfast...
Must get rid of more fats...

I think my erge needs more fats dan mi.
My legs seem to be abit bigger dan his.

A hungry man is an angry man.
Pple, nvr forget this.
Do not start a food shortage tragedy like mine @ home.
DANGEROUS.

-ZUANY-

2008-10-25T18:57:00.004+08:00

I duno wat to say.
I've got nothing to say.
Nothing.

I'm not tt special for u to go all out.

Sorri, 对不起。

Jiayou for o's;
dun think anymore le.

--

Minna-san,
let's all focus on o's!
We can do the what's-nots business later.

Dun distract yourselves.
& neither will I, yet.
We have all the time to do them after tt;
before my risk in winter tt is.

7 written papers down,
7 more written papers to go.
Jiayous & dun fall sick;
especially to ShiYun =P

LET'S ALL TAKE ONE LAST STEP FOR THE FINISHING LINE!

-ZUANY-

2008-10-20T17:27:00.010+08:00

YAY I THINK IT'S OKAY LE.
JUZ HOPE IT'S TRUE BAH =X
THANKS SHIYUN! (:

Gambatte for remaining papers!!
Abit more to go & it'll be over~~
C'mon gogogo!! ^^

-ZUANY-

2008-10-20T07:44:00.003+08:00

LAST JIAYOU FOR MYSELF!!

I know I'm feeling damn stressed...
I know I'm gona die le...
But despite all the probs, juz do my best.
Can or not, is not a qns.
Whether will try or not - tt is the qns.

I hope by looking @ some DaiSuki pics I can do better =P
Jiayou even if it's a failure in the end.
U nvr know till u try, juz rmb not to cry yet.
I know I'm in deep trouble; juz can't cry, yet.

MAY THE DAISUKI-NESS BE WIF MI.
GAMBATTE MINNA-SAN!!
GAMBATTE FUKAMIDORI & DAISUKI!!

"So let's, Forget
The words the thoughts they put into your head
Don't give up just yet"

"If it's real we'll make it through"

"Hold on tight, I'll hold on too"

"'Cause all I need is you"

-ZUANY-

2008-10-18T23:21:00.003+08:00

TIRED!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Haiya... I juz forced myself to wake up leh.
I hated doing this most cos it will be very uncomfortable de T_T
I was doing up an email of qns for Ms Lim - think it used up most of my energy.
All I did was to type out a compo & come up wif all English-related qns.

My body is damn weak leh!! Onli finish a simple task den need to rest liao.
Haiyo, I expected alot more!! Recently I need @ least 8hrs of slp zzz
How I wish our human machine can run 24hrs & be more efficient.
I am feeling damn terrible bcos I haven't did much & it's tuition tmr!!

ZUANY, 你完蛋了。

-ZUANY-

2008-10-17T23:23:00.003+08:00

Hehe many pple complaining liao =X
So I'm gona dedicate a post for everyone (:

THE BEST OF JIAYOUS FOR O LVLS TO;
(in no particular order)
Opa <3
Haru <3
Xuany <3
ShiYun <3
Geraldine <3
Samsam <3
ShiTing <3
Jollie <3
RuiLin <3
LV 4/7 <3
Ex-LV 2/5 <3
Guides <3
Unitians <3

NOT TO FORGET!
PeiYen <3
Geraldine <3
ShunLi <3

&&&
DAISUKI <3

I think I've listed everyone le...
Hehe I still wana add DaiSuki in, cannot stop myself =P

-ZUANY-

2008-10-16T23:11:00.008+08:00

Haix I've alr told u all I've committed alot of sins...
I've got to spill this all out bcos of the tightness feeling I'm having.

Again, I have to apologise to one more person.

*To a specific someone:

I'm sorri for hurting u. Realli sorri.
I'm also sorri for being a changed person; if u think so.

I duno wat else to say. My fault, totally.
I know I've nvr tht of your feelings.
I know when miracles happen I'd go all crazy.
I know I'm such an asshole sometimes.
I know u're deeply hurt by my stupid actions.
(If u're reading this, u know who u r.)

No sorri is enough, tt I know too.
I am completely guilty of this heartless crime.

If I am able to talk to u openly, it'd be easier to say.
We're both shy pple, I think.

On the other hand, maybe I've tht too much - maybe tt's not wat u meant.
Note: The above applies if I have interpreted correctly & if u r reading this.

I've went overboard wif the DaiSuki-ness.
Even Besties felt it, it's time for mi to stop.
Bad things r getting into mi.

-ZUANY-

2008-10-15T20:05:00.003+08:00

Omg... The date is drawing near...
Damn shyt, I duno wat to do now T_T

OH NO.
OH NO.
OH NOO~!!

HAIX...
OMG....
AH NOO~!!

--

I realise I've forgotten to do smth...

Gd luck & best wishes to DaiSuki's o lvls! (:

Also Minna-san, we MUST give our best shot for o's!

I hate saying this, but looks like we're in the last leap of the last leap.
Yes, this is shyt & I wana scream. This is juz OMG-ness.

HOW HOW HOW?? T___T

-ZUANY-

2008-10-12T14:07:00.002+08:00

Hohoho... Guess wat, I saw a shuaige in the bus juz now =P
Last time I saw de shuaige is half WuZun & half WangZi right?
This time guess who I saw~~ It's AoQuan from BangBangTang!
Lolx, I duno why I always c BangBangTang replicas outside =X
But hor, DaiSuki is still the most shuai in my eyes hehehe XD

--

Juz watched some parts of a random movie in scv (:
They was showing a ghost movie, but not tt scary.
I was struggling wif the 'lift stopping @ the 7th storey & not closing' scene though.
Imagine there r no lights outside & the lift door refuses to close; u're stuck on the same storey!

It's abt a ghost story writer who continued writing & had more paranormal encounters...
She recorded them down & ended up going into the world she created.
The world contained all the things tt have been abandoned. Abit fake for the zombies & stuff.
The show was similar to Spirited Away wif the bridge tt she cannot breathe when she's crossing.
Haix but the saddest part of all is the woman's aborted daughter T_T
She was the one who guided her safely to the portal & wanted to know why her mum dun want her.
='( The main char didn't get her daughter back to Earth; after all she's dead le.
The ending was dots. Cos it's a horror movie.

--

I'm a sinner! I wanted to blog this ytd but didn't.
Anyway, Zuany feels realli bad... She did smth wrong & she knew it. She broke two teachers' hearts.
One is a kind teacher who didn't scold her when Zuany should get it.
Zuany hurt her by leaving the class early, & not returning the kindness by staying.
The other is trying her best to teach Zuany but lazy Zuany got bad results.
Zuany hurt her by giving the parent's 'complaint' letter to her.

Committed too many sins... Not onli these.
This guilt is clinging to my heart. I regretted....
Saying sorri doesn't help. I am such a bad person T_T *slaps self*

THUS!! It's a back-to-work for mi.
I must, must gambatte & must, must do my best.
So tt the disappointment in the hurt will turn into their accomplishment in mi =P

Lolx nice words but we'll see... Actions sounds louder dan words.
BACK TO ACTION! FAITOU FAITOU FAITOU!

Juz to share a random fact - Vitasoy contains Calcium Phosphate~~

-ZUANY-

2008-10-08T13:15:00.005+08:00

Got back my $200 today, yay!!
Now my bank balance is back to normal (:
I shall not touch my bank anymore le.
All other prom nite stuff have to be spent by cash on hand...
So I need to save up!

[From now till prom nite: 5weeks]
Total allowance: 5 x $35 = $175
Top-up ezlink: $20~$30
Food for lunch: $60~$70
On hand: $20~$30
Approx I have: $100~$120

[Prom nite stuff]
Dress: -BOUGHT-
Earrings: -BOUGHT-
Bracelet: -BOUGHT-
Heels: $10~$20 (Search; Far East)
Clutch: $15~$25 (Search; anywhere)
Contacts: $5~$25 for 1 pair or borrow
Hair/Makeup/Nails: $40 (Designated hairdresser)

Juz called up the hairdresser. All the features seem attractive =P
Anyone who's interested to do hair/makeup wif our grp can let mi know.

As for contacts, all the opticians @ yewtee failed.
Waiting for response from Opa, Sam & ShiYun.
If realli can't, we have to go sembawang to search for tt store T_T
Tt info was extracted from 1 of my online peeps =X
Anyone knows where to get monthly contacts individually & not bulk?

Okay, all the excitement is getting mi high.
Back to work Zuany! Must study! =P

O Lvl Chem Practical Exam tmr!!
Minna gambatte again!!

"Onli cheat when neccessary!"
*Quotes from someone 4/7 knows*

Sigh~~ DaiSuki withdrawal symptoms r killing mi zzz

-ZUANY-

2008-10-07T21:16:00.006+08:00

OMG!! I was viewing DaiSuki pics when he signed in =X
Wat a coincidence hehe =P
& I received smth from DaiSuki yay!
But it's smth lame =.="
(After all it's better dan nothing)

It's getting harder & harder for mi T_T
It's like I'm suffering from withdrawal symptoms for some drug.
The magic word is: I am missing DaiSuki.
Ironic tt I used this word, given the situation now.
I will, will, will endure!! May all the willpower & discipline come to mi ^^

--

Dun wana talk abt bio practical T_T
There r room for improvement... Nothing else.
Gotta start working le ^^ Gogogo!!

Anyway, show u all a pic from sat de (:
I had this bowl of noodle for dinner for $3.50 =X
Forgot its full name, mini ukon or smth. Japanese noodles lai de.

--

Lyrics:

九十九次我爱他
少了头发会分岔
要他的想念每天准时打卡
爱像冰淇淋在嘴里溶化

*元若蓝 - 99次我爱他

-ZUANY-

2008-10-06T22:31:00.003+08:00

Hihi (: Dage came back to visit us today!
I missed him~~ He's bathing now XD
Err no, he's out le ^^

--

Yep sch isn't all tt nice wifout seeing DaiSuki.
I'd better get used to it soon for the next 1 month anyway.
Jiayou~~

--

O Lvls Bio Practical Exam tmr!!
Minna gambatte!!

I'm in shift 1, & I hope I won't be in the first row...
Haix if not realli damn suai le T_T

Things to rmb:
"Go in wif an open mind"
"Expect the unexpected"

*Quotes from someone we all know =P

-ZUANY-

2008-10-05T20:14:00.005+08:00

Feeling upset wif wat my mum did...
She was on the phone wif somebody I realli detested when I was a child.

--

Ranting lyrics for my mum. Written out of pure frustration.

*Compare - Lyrics by Zuany.

Stop comparing, Mummy
She was so gorgeously pretty that you'd drool buckets
While I was your disgrace of ugliness
Gosh, we were only primary six

She's tall and she's beautiful
While I'm short and I'm pathetic
You let me be a joke for them to make
You never fought for my pride

She was tall and she was beautiful
On first sight she frowned at me
Laughing and pointing at my 'vampire' teeth
Oh, how much did you know
That I've always wanted to be

Her mum joined in the fun
Glad that her daughter was the best
You didn't show any sign of hesitation
To stand on different ground as me

The boy who is my childhood friend stood beside
Vaguely aware of my heartbreak
But he could not do anything either

And after four years, Mummy
You're gona be heartless again
To start all these historical comparisons

Oh my god, Mummy
I can't believe it
I'm still so inferior
Both in reality and in your heart

Now the boy is not by my side
I stood alone
Not that it made much difference anyway

Didn't you know why her mum called you
Did you really think it was just an idle chat
Did you really think they were just your friends
Maybe to you, they are

You told me she became fat
But you didn't said I had a hourglass
She's fat but she got 74 marks
I'm not but I don't even get 64 marks

I admit this is shit
But I've told you I could only show you this shit
You said it was alright
Now it isn't alright, right?

I read between the lines
All I saw was an auntie, a sore winner
Who's here to announce achievements of the fat princess

We're like the commoners
Why did you have to make us so low
Why can't you just hang up the phone
Why can't you just believe your daughter like daddy always did~~

I went out of my room to watch the Superband
You sneaked in behind my back
So what if you touched the result slip
Can you even read the word 'overall'

Until this very moment
I've gave up on you
You're an auntie, a sore loser

Simply unbelievable
Ultimately disappointing
I tell myself, who cares man
As long as I try my best this time again

Who needs your praises
Who needs your faith
Who needs your anything
I'd give myself my own praises
I'd give myself my own faith
I'd give myself anything I can~~

Even if I fail in the end
Even if I die in the end
Yeah it's okay, it's okay
I'll just sleep for the night
And it'll be a new day

-ZUANY-

2008-10-04T21:03:00.006+08:00

Hihi I'm back =P
Finally managed to buy my prom dress today! Legs aching T_T
It's green/white/black, strap de. Not exactly wat I wanted, but it's okay.
Originally preferred the other green tube, but I was told it look cuter =X
Haru bought a black tube de, Opa bought a blue strap de.
No pics. No spoilers. Left the heels & accessories den I'm done.

Btw during the mrt trip, we saw a grp of aunties going shopping together (:
It'd be great if we can all do so in 30yrs down the road ^^
DISCLAIMER: THIS IS ONLI A JOKE, NOT TO BE TAKEN SERIOUSLY.

Let's see...
Xuany will be wif ___, her children will be top arcade-rs.
Opa will be wif Kuro, her children will be 'brown' & gym regulars.
Haru will be wif someone's bro, her children will be pro gamblers.
I will be wif DaiSuki, my children will be labixiaoxin & uniform grp's leaders.
This is how nice things can get =P

--

Hmm & regarding ytd, I've decided tt a touching speech is not needed ^^
I managed to have another DaiSuki exp, juz hope tt it won't be the last.
Moreover, there were possibilities for FukamidorixDaiSuki to come true.

Based on tt particular fact, it is enough.
I will endure all the way till the end.
Even though I know this 40days is gona take alot out of mi.

Gambatte~~
& thanks DaiSuki! (:

--

Lyrics:

九十九次我爱他
少了眼皮会乱眨
要他能心电感应我的想法
每天念着他的名字
哎咿哎咿一句不差

*元若蓝 - 99次我爱他

-ZUANY-

2008-10-02T14:44:00.006+08:00

Back from sch!
We finally have our first pon-ing in life =P
We pon-ed today's History aep ^^
As for tmr de we'll c how....

--

Greeted by my Scorpio daddy wif his cutesy tone.
"家里越来越少人了哟~~~"
I shot him.
"爸，可以不要用那么可爱的音调跟我讲话吗……"
He defended.
"哎呀，你还小嘛。"
My final attack.
"其实也好，因为那代表我还是可爱的。"
Yay lolx =.="

Now they're moving all the mattresses etc into the vacant dage room.
I have no idea wat they're gona put behind the door opposite mine.
I can't help but feel tt things r happening @ the speed I can't catch up.

--

Today is the last pe lesson... Played Captain's Ball wif the class.
But I didn't have any fate wif the ball. So no pt in forcing it.
All these reminds mi tt it was probably the last time for mi to;
-step into the Unity's field
-participate in an inter-class game
-wear pe shirt & pe shorts
-see our pe teacher Mr.Goh

Besties talked abt writing cards for everyone, which we did in sec 2.
I did think of tt before, but nah. I'm not in the suitable position.
I'll juz keep all the memories of everyone in my heart (: Tt'll be gd.

--

Haru & Opa took some DaiSuki pics for mi juz now =P
Xuany called mi desperate, but tt's not realli the case.
I'm not desperate in terms of lust lar pls T_T
I am juz seriously desperate in seeing DaiSuki every single day ='(

For next few hrs, my mind is gona be switched le.
No more DaiSuki till tmr!!

I should expect a very touching speech from myself.
Although I hope not.

--

Lyrics:

I lie awake and pray
That you will look my way
I have all this longing in my heart
I knew it right from the start

*M2M - Pretty Boy

-ZUANY-

2008-09-30T17:16:00.003+08:00

My dage & dasao r moving things to their new hse today (:
When I came home, I found dage slping on my bed =.="
I didn't chase him off like I used to, maybe bcos I'll be missing him T_T

Sob... Although I'm 16, my dage has nvr realli left mi.
It feels weird, but I know even erge & mi have to start our own life sometime.
zzz I'm still an adolescent; dun want to think so far yet.
Haix but I think things will be going even further.

Anyway I love dage forever =P
Best wishes to dage & dasao for a happy marriage in advance~~
I will wish them again during their wedding next yr in jan hehe.

--

Haru reminded mi of how many days left for mi to c DaiSuki.
Counting from now, there r onli TWO days left - Thursday & Friday.
It started in sec 3 & now it's ending soon ='(
Shyt...................... I'm not gona make it.

She told mi since I'm not gona c DaiSuki anymore, I will need photos of him =.="
It sounded like a bad idea, but it might be feasible.
She helped mi took one today. I duno why I'm the one being malu =X
I hope DaiSuki didn't c her hehe.
I told her tt I have the whole collection in my com le. But she said it was different.

After tt she suggested I should randomly stand beside DaiSuki,
Haru will den take a 'he zhao' =P
She warned mi not to chicken out, which I think I will (:
My mood was lifted rapidly after tt.
I knew clearly wat DaiSuki can do to my mood.

Haiyo my own blog is gona become DaiSuki blog liao.
Need to control myself abit, psps XD

--

Tuition tmr... Intended to go library to borrow storybks after tt.
Den I realised tt it is a public holiday T_T
Now I should tell myself to stop using my mind for DaiSuki,
& start using it for my studies instead.

STUDYING IS MORE BETTER DAN DAISUKI.
STUDYING IS MORE HANDSOME DAN DAISUKI.
STUDYING IS MORE KAWAII DAN DAISUKI.
I LOVE STUDYING MORE DAN DAISUKI.
YAY.
(Omg I must be kidding...)

I must do tt or not I'm realli becoming SI ROU soon.
Jiayou Zuany, u can come back to DaiSuki's arms after tt~~

Right, as if tt will happen.

--

Lyrics:

整夜难眠　谁想起谁
过去的照片留我想念
天亮以前　我逆着光回味
几分几点是谁　曾回来过身边

*棒棒堂 - 那一天

-ZUANY-

2008-09-29T21:22:00.005+08:00

I had a heartbreak today.
Stupid, it's so stupid.

Why izit so difficult? (I'm still a nuisance)

I dun think I can take it le.
Especially when I'm this crazy over DaiSuki.
Fukamidori is doing a stupid thing.
She is alr crazy, & going crazier wif each hint of DaiSuki-ness.

Bad-to. Need to shake off these thts & focus on o lvls.
Suddenly studying seemed a much better idea.
Disappointment doesn't hurt as much as a heartbreak does.

--

Tried to withdraw the Paypal payment again.
Hope it'll work this time by using bro acc. $200 is at stake.

--

Lyrics:

不明不白　不说出来
任由遗憾在回忆徘徊
试着习惯　没有你的空白
独自陪伴孤单　却发现好难挨

*棒棒堂 - 那一天

-ZUANY-

2008-09-29T17:22:00.005+08:00

A century-th post now! (:
Happy Anniversary to my blog XD

--

I overslept again this morning...
I tht my human bioclock is very gd de. So it was 7am SHARP ^^
Supposed to wake up @ 4 smth to complete my geo T_T
I've alr had sixth sense tt I'll overslp the nite before.
I told myself if I did overslp, I'll juz get a MC. Off I go.
This is wat happens when DaiSuki blinded my mind last nite.

Set off abt 2 or 3mins earlier dan usual. So I took my own sweet time.
When I reached the sch gate, there were alot of pple in front of mi.
The next thing I knew, they stopped & stood along the SCs.
Let's say I was forced to follow suit =.="

Zuany's reaction was, 'HUH???? LATE LE MEH??' A super violent one.
Cos Zuany was ultra sure tt she wasn't late @ all.
There was still a chance to run to safety, but why was everyone stopping?!
One teacher came over & screamed @ us to put our bags down.
Haiyoyo. I scolded in my heart abt wat a suai day it was T_T
Den continued a small lecture within myself tt I should have taken a MC.

My mind drifted off to Pluto, & back to Earth wif a plan.
When assembly is over, let's all walk away & pretend nothing has happened (:
It certainly worked. I didn't want to write a '2' in the late slip when I wasn't.

--

As for geo, I was lucky to gain 2 free periods to finish it up XD
& I won a bet today too~~ Bcos I paid attention to the flipping hehe =X
When disasters struck, ask Zuany how to use the easiest way to escape.
I rmbed helping Opa last time too... It's kinda fun when they all work =P
We got away scot-free! Yayness indeed.

--

Lyrics:

I lie awake at night
See things in black and white
I've only got you inside my mind
You know you have made me blind

*M2M - Pretty Boy

-ZUANY-

2008-09-27T22:30:00.003+08:00

I think I am going ahead wif attending prom le.

I apologise for the uproar.

Juz found out tt I have alot of things to prepare for prom;

Dress: Buy from shopping centres/online instocks - green dress

Shoes: Buy from shopping centres/online sprees - heels/wedges

Accessories: I shall think abt it

Contacts: Buy from optician - green color lenses

Hair: Do wif a few frends for better price

Makeup: Do wif a few frends for better price

Nails: I shall think abt it

A very brief one... I dun think I am able to rent it from some bridal shop.

--

Went shopping for prom dress @ far east juz now.
Wif RuiLin, ShiYun & Samantha (:
RuiLin bought a black dress wif sleeve de.
ShiYun bought the dress tt caught her eye a week ago but it's in black.
Samantha bought the white tube dress tt looked gd on her.
But she's returning tmr cos her mum said she got no meat or smth.
As for this picky Zuany, u knew wat happened.
These few hrs have been spent in vain.

Going on another shopping trip again next sat wif Haru.
Tt'll be the last time I'm gona try finding... So I'm working on the programme list.
Also, I might drop by jurong pt & causeway pt to take a look tmr.
I've been searching all the US shopping sites; either too ex or dun have.
Not going to look thru japan/korea/hongkong clothes.

Jiayou in my search~~ =.="

--

My frend juz gave mi another DaiSuki fact today. Can add on to my collection ^^
Showed my mum the handsome in the video last nite.
She commented tt she saw an uncle wif DaiSuki's face.
Meaning she thinks tt she saw his dad somewhere before. Right...
She told mi it's the uncle who's selling fried chicken rice. Very funny.

As for today, she poured cold water on mi T_T
She said if I'm a guy I'll nvr get to chase any girl successfully.
All bcos I dun dare to say hi to DaiSuki in front of his frends. Right...
She's not mi so she won't understand. Yep yep.

--

Today is also the day tt I realise the amt of distance away.
I duno how to take the great leap to reduce this distance.
Somewhere somehow I knew the correct thing to do is stop being so stupid.
But somewhere somehow DaiSuki has a special place in my life.

I am stupid. So wat?
I will be rejected in the end. So wat?
I know I'll be greatly hurt. So wat?
I won't be able to forget DaiSuki. So wat?

I admit I'm stupid.
I admit I'll fail.
I admit I'll be hurting myself.
I admit I can't forget.

I also know tt DaiSuki won't even give a damn.
There r somethings tt pple dun need to tell pple.
This is known as common sense.

--

Btw I fell sick ytd le. Achoo~~!
Must be thinking abt DaiSuki too much.
Must be worrying abt wat's-not too much.
Izit bcos my mum's cold water is too cold?
Or prelim results? Upcoming O's?

Haix...

-ZUANY-

2008-09-26T13:24:00.004+08:00

Dad, I dun have the jin sheng to deal wif your childish anger.
I believe both u & myself have enough problems.

--

I am utterly disappointed today.
I duno how long I can stand this... People r the same everywhere.
I dun support labelling but there isn't someone who can prove it wrong yet.
During Guides Farewell, I cried complaining on the difference.
Even now, I strongly agree on my stand @ tt time & the effects r still visible.
We r different. Tt is to say, I have nvr regretted joining Guides ^^
It gave mi more things dan I tht it would.

Besides this, I'm disappointed wif the Graduation Day.
Out of so many msgs tt were on the slideshow, onli ONE msg was dedicated to 4/7.
While other classes received their well wishes & were obliged to clap & cheer, we aren't.
Therefore, thanks alot Ms Lim! (:

It must be a sympathetic error in microsoft powerpt, tt showed Ms Lim's msg again.

See pple, even the microsoft pity us. Duno should I be grateful anot.

I didn't know tt our class is so INSIGNIFICANT.

However, I did know tt my cca is very insignificant. No complains on tt.

--

I hate copycats. I said EVERYONE.
U hear mi, it's EVERYONE.

--

Prom nite. $60. Should I go or should I not.
A $64, 000 qns; as adapted from my pervertic vampire series bk.
If DaiSuki is going, I will go. This qns is easy.
But if DaiSuki is not, I duno how to ans this.
Go, make worth of the money but suffer for 4hrs.
Dun go, waste the money but suffering can be avoided.

Right~ I think I'll juz c if I can find a suitable green prom dress.
Let's make a bet. If I can, I will go. If I can't, I will waste the $60.
I'm onli going if the color green is going wif mi.
Yep nice analogy, Zuany =P

Qns. 1) Is DaiSuki going?
> YES!! [go prom nite willingly]
>NO!! [go qns 2]
Qns. 2) Can I find a suitable green prom dress?
>YES!! [go prom nite unwillingly]
>NO!! [go home]

--

Not looking forward to O Levels, not looking forward to prom nite.
Not looking forward to the winter thing, not looking forward to next yr's bday.
Onli looking forward to DaiSuki.

Great, I juz realise he's 99.9% of my life.
Though I think I'm not even 0.000001% of his.

I know tt this is bad.
But I count on this tiny perishable strand of DaiSuki-ness alot.
Results aren't very dependable. All students know tt.

--

I'm sorri tt I'm always so moody.
I'm sorri tt I'm always so spoilsport.
I'm sorri tt I always put up such a long face.
I'm sorri tt I'm such a negative person.

Tt is mi & I can't help it. I'm sorri.

-ZUANY-

2008-09-22T23:25:00.002+08:00

Back from tuition! All is fine~~
I was expecting some scoldings but there isn't one.
Lucky Zuany (:

Haix but hor, I made some shocking discovery juz now.
There r 1 boy & 1 girl hanging out in my void deck downstairs.
Ahem since it's tt arrangement, wat do u think they r doing? =.="
Moreover, they r either same age as mi, or younger...
My mum added tt she saw them often.

From the library trip a while ago, I borrowed a Chinese novel ^^
In English it says, 'My Biggest Happiness; It's juz like this.'
It's a romance genre, but let's see how it goes. Maybe I'll return it tmr hehe.
Btw as for tt pervertic vampire series, I'm going for the next bk XD
No longer rushing though & I'll stop reading once I can't take it.

Other things to focus on... O levels.

After tt, yeah DaiSuki & my upcoming risk in winter.
Nah, these 2 r still far.

-ZUANY-

2008-09-22T18:18:00.004+08:00

I feel so sad today... Okay not sad, but perhaps sour ='(
I saw DaiSuki patting someone's shoulder today...
I also saw DaiSuki playing Beating game wif someone...
The someones r 2 different pple, but they r girls T_T

Great, I'm jealous. But maybe not jealous...
It is juz the tightness in my chest.
Not breaking of heart, but made my heart stopped beating.
Honestly, it hurts (:

Furthermore, the look (or rather glance) u gave mi today...
Was absolutely hostile & as if implying tt u hated to c mi.

Didn't c u on the way to board the mrt like I used to, either.
NOW TT'S SAD.

DaiSuki, I hope u know this but u dun.
Fukamidori's heart aches for u.
It hurts. Hurts. Hurts.
It hurts, today.

--

Tuition later... My tuition teacher will be my Shintei today.
Failed BOTH EMaths & AMaths, 48 & 38. Super nice.
Shyt man.................... SOMEONE SAVE POOR ZUANY!!
NOOOOO~~ X_X (Dun wana be killed by my Shintei teacher *sob*)

-ZUANY-

2008-09-18T15:02:00.003+08:00

Oh shyt, oh shyt, oh shyt.
I'm gona die, die, die.
I was thinking if saying more of it will help mi feel better.
But too bad it didn't.

Got back some of my results for prelims. Shall disgrace myself here.
English - C5
EMaths - FAIL
AMaths- Duno yet
Pure Geo - B4, maybe going up to B3
Combined Humans - Duno yet
Pure Chem - B4
Pure Bio - Duno yet

Tt's abt it, & the highest I've got was B4. Lolx.
Realli pathetic... No distinctions @ all.
I duno why I've lost my touch of distinction for geo. Now it feels unusually weird.
I've also lost my touch for compos, & keep writing craps. Failed paper 1.

I duno how to show my parents or tuition teacher the results.
Supposed to get distinction for EMaths, now I FAILED.
Hello, I FAILED EMaths... The lowest 10 in class. How to explain to my tuition teacher?
Both mi & her had expected DISTINCTION, or maybe B3.
She told mi tt I had the standard.
Perhaps it's bcos I lost faith in myself, or the paper juz dun like mi.

I'm dead... I duno wat's happening to mi.
I dun even have a single bit of idea where my mistakes r.
When I c thru my paper, it doesn't look so bad to mi.
But it's the numbers turned the tables around.

No one else can help mi. Late or not, I'm still gona die.
I dun wana say this, but this o lvls is screwed.
I have a real life example wif mi - my cousin in express stream going into ITE.
Right, so it could possibly happen to mi.

I duno why my English's compo goes out of pt...
I duno why I didn't score in situational writing like I should...
I duno why I did so badly for EMaths...
I duno why I stopped getting distinctions for Pure Geo...
I duno why Combined Humans source-based qns r difficult to score...
I duno why Pure Chem paper 2 had so many mistakes...
I duno why Pure Bio is always out of my reach...

I duno how I am gona pull up my grades.
I duno how I am gona survive o lvls.
I duno how how how to do any simple crap tt anyone can do.
I duno alot alot alot of things which I also duno why I duno.

I f**king hate myself for being so stupid bcos there r so many 'dunos'.
& I can't run away.
This has got to be the biggest chickenshyt business.

Anyone kind to help? Nah.
Help or no help, I'm doomed.
Onli one pathetic soul is doomed.
Watashi-wa, mi.

-ZUANY-

2008-09-15T21:07:00.008+08:00

Yoyo I'm back~
Happy Belated Mid-autumn/Lantern Festival! (:
I shall show u some pics from last Friday's celebration.
The Besties & 1 junior came to stagmont park near my hse.

@ the beginning, we started a row of candles & lanterns.
Dun mind the quality cos it's alr in nite mode.

The sparklers(as called) r sponsered by mi, & this is the best pic of 5.

Xuany started making a 'B' for Besties.
From now on, juz treat my camera as a paranormal instrument.
It's very creepy I know.

Heart shape was attempted, juz like last yr?

Den I suggested the crescent shape, now tt was interesting.

Wif crescent shape, I tht of smiley face.
Lolx call tt creative.

The clearest candles close-up pic my camera can give.

See the wax? I wanted to make a rainbow wax.
I think it wasn't successful.

Shooting this pic @ an angle, now it's even creepier.

Not falling aslp I hope, last pic is the moon.
The mid-autumn moon, but it's earlier by 2 nites.
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Enough of event reporting. Now let's go down to business.
Prelims r over, we're officially onli left wif 2weeks of sec sch days.
For those of u who need a countdown, u can refer to my msn personal msg.
It says, '21days to PRACTICAL, 34days to WRITTEN, 58days to ENDING. '
Believe it or not, the Chinese word Death, waves its flag @ mi.
Shyt. Super shyt.

I duno wat to say anymore. I'm getting jittery on every nervous gland in my body.
I'm not going to say things like 'Time flies fast' or any such stuff now.
I am gona be SI ROU alr, which means Dead Meat in Chinese.

I've told my mum abt my confidence lvl for prelims.
Juz today, I took back EMaths paper 1 & English compre.
Great, I would say. Bcos I am severely underperforming BEYOND WORDS.
When the 2 masters asked mi abt my results, I dared not spill a bean.
Bcos I can't even believe my own eyes. NOTHING I could appropriately say.
I'm guessing tt the rest won't differ much either.
EMaths paper 1: FAIL, a very nice 38
English compre: FAIL, a very nice 10

Everyone is gd in smth, although not everything.
But will there be a case where a person will be gd in NOTHING?
Lolx the blogger here is a fine example.
I believe not onli prelims, but in almost everything, tt I will EXCEL in nothing.
U know wat excel means?
It means to be OVERPERFORMING, or something tt is out-of -normal-gdness.

Rebutting tt I had geo as distinction? I sometimes work well under stress.
Tremendous stress u won't be able to comprehend. So tt's excluded.
The lucky one-&-onli chem test tt top-ed the class? Lolx tt was pure luck.
Look @ my next test - FAIL...

I have once included this problem into my meeting wif Shintei.
Now it's back to haunt mi bcos I haven't deal wif it yet.
Duno wat Shintei is? Lolx juz treat it like fate-to, another term I came up wif.

I'm betting wif u, tt I am gona fail ALL the papers. No joke.
(Btw I've told u to exclude geo)
I almost did so for MYE. Chinese saved mi.
But dun thank Chinese yet, bcos it gave mi a B3 in o lvls. Gratitude dun pays.

Oh & the bad memory abt MYE?
My dad FINALLY opens his eyes & reads my report card.
I believe he nvr even did so before once. He tht my silence = full marks for exams.
Nono, even if I say it, he would juz pull it off saying I got full marks.
C' mon pple, make some sense, now it's his prob - not mine.
Till he got a shock tt I could get a C, which to mi; is alr a miracle hybrid.

Surprisingly when I got back the papers, tears did not flow.
I'm not accustomed to crying for results.
Waves of disappointment flows within my blood, like a tsunami.
The impact didn't hit the tear gland though.
I juz tht everything I did was correct & I knew the way...
This type of pathetic emotion has been wif mi for so long.

But perhaps the custom will be broken by o lvls, when I receive my results.
Which means I'll be taking over our seniors' role in the drama next yr.
Prepare some Kleenex?

End note: Most likely flunking o lvls, the person failing 7 subjects.
Dun tell mi to stop playing/being lazy/stupid - bcos I'm neither.
I'm not the type of person to use the sky as a blanket when it drops.

DUNO DUNO DUNO. I onli know I have to figure it before o lvls.
Before the hell gates open for my entrance.

I think I'm the onli one tt's gona enter, the onli pathetic one.
I juz lack too much... of everything.

Sounds nice. Add in a word of 'SHYT' for mi.

-ZUANY-

2008-09-11T21:44:00.005+08:00

Omg,
Zuany has decoded wat Rena from Higurashi thinks.
A matter of fate tt I found the ans.

&&&
TMR IS THE LAST PAPER FOR PRELIMS!
Let's gambatte for the last round!

+++
38 DAYS TO O LVLS.
JIAYOU ALL, JUZ JIAYOU.

[Ahhhhhhhhhh~~
One thing before I slp.
I've FINALLY found the beloved date!
(I love msn msg history)

The Fukamidori&DaiSuki date!
It has been 1 yr... Time flies...
Curious abt the date?
Nah, not telling u =X]

Btw I realise I haven't do up my testimonial...
I realli duno wat to write.
Perhaps I shall juz pass tt one sentence to Mrs Ong tmr.

-ZUANY-

2008-09-10T21:20:00.004+08:00

Hihi! (:
I was studying geo halfway till I made a very shocking discovery!

SECRET:
DaiSuki does read blogs!!
I saw his tag @ his frend's blog.

Conclusion:
He might have read my blog................
(If he blog-hopped)
Further deduction:
He may have guessed tt he is DaiSuki........

I'm thinking too much, maybe he didn't even bother to click my name on the links T_T
Anyway, these few days I'm also pondering over DaiSuki.
Not huachi-ing this time, but realli thinking.

In the past when I first ahem, made the attempt, he was realli frendly (:
Natural enough to joke wif mi, but now - he finds mi a nuisance.
He is very nice by not blocking mi, & still replying my msgs...
But I know he doesn't want to talk to mi.
It's all bcos I didn't say hi? Or it's bcos I quarreled wif him once?

2 days ago, I talked to my mum abt DaiSuki.
In the past again, when I told her abt DaiSuki, she was supportive.
Now, she changed her stand - she told mi to give up.
Why? She said DaiSuki dui wo mei you yi si.
So it's meaningless to carry on. Since it's fully a one-sided thing.
Cos everytime my mum would enthusiastically go, 'Did he talk to u?' wif those eyes tt makes the 'TING' sound.
But each time she asks, I replied disappointedly wif a shaking head.

I am not giving up. It's not so simple!!
Where got like tt de, u know how I turned it from total strangers to known schmates?
Actualli still not known schmates lar, but he knew my name & I knew his.
Except tt we dun say hi when we meet & we would pretend we duno each other =.="
Again, why? Ask our horoscopes.

I still sincerely believe tt Fukamidori & DaiSuki have fate-to.
I tell u, everything tt I'm feeling now, is of total drama.
From the first scene till the latest scene - too drama, too unbelievable le.
Onli abt 1% left of possibility, but guess wat, he got it.
I SCREAMED @ THE TOP OF MY LUNGS WHEN I FOUND OUT.

Too much fate-to, too much.

-ZUANY-

2008-09-05T10:22:00.009+08:00

Nowadays I have realli sweet dreams XD
Ytd ytd I dreamt of Bio paper, late for the paper, den Mr. Arul called mi not to come.
I was teleported from places to places =.=" So Bio got zero.
Tt's was horrible enough.

Lolx guess wat I dreamt of last nite.
I dreamt of English paper this time, happily wrote finish my first compo.
After tt duno wat happened, I was outside of the classroom wif some pple I know.
I think they told mi it's difficult to go back in? Like teacher will catch us?
Prob is I dun even know how I got out of class T_T
By the time I negotiated wif the teacher to let mi in(I gave the excuse of stomache), I onli left 1 min?
In the end I tried to chiong the paper lor.
zzz My dreamland knows tt I'm scared of being late...
Now it's gona torture mi wif these nightmares.

Btw I realise my blog posts r abit plain.
So I shall put in some pics for this post ^^
Hohoho I went to dig up my hp gallery keke.
Now rdy for some funky pics~~

Heart Moon... I took it when I was on my way home from meetups.

I've showed u this before... Heart Sushi (:

Girl Guides Campfire @ Greenridge I think... I was juz surprised @ how the colors change.

Now look. It's changed from blue to pink. In 1 min.

Hahahaha... This must be the best Opa/Haru photo ever.
It was taken way back last yr, but this is their famous 'lesbian' pic keke.
Xuany took it too, but I'm showing u MY collection =P
Anyway, they're gona kiss.

Kissed, hiding behind the chem tb.

Caught, so became emo =.="
I duno why they did the actions either.
Mi & Xuany didn't do anything to force them...
We juz found their actions funny ^^

Haunted hse (:
Haha kidding, actualli this is a shelter in a mountain in Malaysia...
I was climbing the mountain, it looked pretty creepy, so took the photo.

Last yr!! :@ Every class have to make a card for the Sec 4 seniors.
Now this yr!! We r the Sec 4 seniors but we have no such thing...
Wth...

Rmb rmb?? We had the art hariraya thing?
It realli brings back memories.

I duno how, but we had so much free time tt we learnt to fold a flower O_O

Den we boliao folded stars, the gold ones I think is Xuany & Haru, silver is Opa & green u know le.

My camp!! Err first inspection in my whole life, so yah.
It was 11am or smth & the sun was very cruel.

Ahem... Jogathon... U can c 4 big butt prints.
-THIS SENTENCE HAS BEEN CENSORED-

Can u guess where this is?
This is the mindchamps workshop place (:

CoupleTees de... Got alot of probs...
Either ship in wrong color/wrong design T_T
This is 1 of the biggest change in design.
From tshirt become tank top, from wordless to words.
Anyone keen pls let mi know. I dun think pple will like tank top coupletees.

Haha gona slp le? No lar, this is last pic le...
Since Lantern Festival is around the corner, show u all last yr de...
Went wif Besties & ShiYun they all.
For once they listened to my suggestion on childhood memories of playing candles in a park XD
So I think this yr they agreed to bring back my childhood memories.
We're gona play it in the park again!

-ZUANY-

2008-09-03T21:23:00.005+08:00

Go Jing Zuan has nvr felt so INSULTED in her whole life.
Juz today,
her dignity ceased to exist.

Every thing was a comparison.
Everything she was,
was nothing.

Again she hoped to run away wif the word of Death,
but it was an unrealistic dream.

Bcos it is the way it is,
her destiny tt was set in the beginning.

The past she had to rmb,
the present she had to live,
& the future she had to accept.

--

I wanted to change the way it is,
but it will be thru unnatural means,
which could risk creating more nightmares.

I dun mind the pain,
but I mind the risks.

Being different isn't as bad as being abnormal.
Different restricts the 'u' in the lives of others,
while Abnormal restricts the 'u' in the life of yours.

However,
a small risk will be up this winter.
I should be able to survive thru it,
& get back some dignity of mine.

Do watch it,
Mr. Hairdresser & Mdm. Cleaner.
U dun know who u r hurting.

ASSHOLES.

-ZUANY-

2008-08-31T10:17:00.007+08:00

Gd morning everyone, ohaiyo-kosaimasu~
I greeted the morning by opening my blogshop mailbox, which I totally hate now.
I was thinking, if there's a defective item from the supplier - should I be held responsible?
Seriously, I dun want every piece of defective-possible item to be returned to mi.
Aka I have to pay for them which I can't wear or sell?
Tt includes my few-dollars profit inside too leh.

If the supplier is willing to give refunds, I dun mind giving up the few-dollars profit.
Since it's all for my big picture of responsible organiser(which probably has been diminished le).
It is unfair for the customer to get a defective item. But it may also be juz plain suai-ness.
As stated in t&cs tt I'm not responsible. But can my conscience realli do tt?
It IS definitely super suai for mi to get it too.
Bcos I'm stuck wif being responsible & stupid or irresponsible & not stupid(or smth better).
Not to forget the difficulties of a supplier, which have to handle a thousand orders in 1 day.
Factories would be the worst cos they need to make clothes for the WORLD.

Getting a defective item or poor quality item is very possible in online shopping.
I dun wana explain the go-abts but we all KNOW tt we r taking risks.
By taking from a particular supplier for the first time, juz be glad tt it's not a scam case.
China IS very big, wif MANY factories. Onli a minority will have ACCEPTABLE gds.
Note: Taiwan takes gds FROM China. So we refer to China.
While the rest r water gds as said. These type of things r 家茶蛋饭.
Watever I can do now, is onli to change supplier & try out other pple's gds.
Tt's the most I can do. Refunding, to mi, is way out of my clinche.
Use some sense pls. I rather, be known as irresponsible. Nothing else.

Sorri to the world tt such stuffs r sensitive to mi.
I dun wana be called stupid or lose unnecessary money.
Responsibility, a value, onli applies to Zuany in some ways.
I shall be honest here.

Tips if u want to have CONFIRMED (not juz assured) gd quality:
-BY ZUANY-

1) Buy from professional sites. Wat I meant is, WEBSITES like xxx.com, not xxx.blogspot.com. Err get wat I mean? Popular ones from US r forever21, wetseal, gojane, abercrombie&fitch, david&goliath, costing abt USD$20 per top/shorts. Some of them do get gds FROM China, but they chose the uber gd ones. BCOS they r huge companies trying to become a brand.

Besides US, u can try Korea or Japan wif BRANDS. I guarantee tt if they r realli BRANDED, the quality will be there. I have 1 M2M dress in my wardrobe now. Korea website will be Zipia, Japan de not tt sure, but there r Japan brands like Hanee. Dun buy replicas (which can be found online), buy the real ones wif TAG. Wholesale sites like CCT Fashion have real de. Their prices r steeper dan US.

Actualli xxx.livejournal.com also can, cos they usually sell the instocks they chose & bought FROM S'pore. So it's safe. But note tt their prices includes photo-taking fee & photoshop-ed fee which goes up from SGD$20+ to $30+.

2) Be prepared to pay. Wat u c won't probably be wat u get. But wat u pay is almost, I say almost, wat u get. Dun come screaming to mi tt u paid close to SGD$20 for a top & received water gds(in blogspot). Bcos, deducting them off, there r actualli a few dollars per item tt we blogshop owners earn. Usual price for tee tt I've paid is abt SGD$22 or $25 including shipping & postage. Note tt I usually buy if it cost US$15 & below or take them off the sale shelf. I've seen pple spending hundreds of dollars in 1 go. No big deal.

3) So how to get the gd quality gds @ the lowest possible price? Yes, I'm saying tt it is possible. There r 2 ways. Firstly, u can buy the items from the clearance section. If your favourite item is not under tt section, u can TRY to wait for a month maybe? & it'll be transferred there. Hey, I've tried this before. However, u run the risk of having it out of stock.

Secondly, u can also look around for blogspot sites. Some blogspot sites can be trusted. If they're there for a long time wif gd feedbacks, den go for it. Since many pple have ordered before & the business is prospering, u can confirm tt it is safe & acceptable. However, u need to have the time to go around searching like crazy for an experienced & low-priced blogshop.

4) If the above didn't work for u, u can still buy from blogspot sites. Here r the reasons;
- Cheaper price of cos. It isn't ALWAYS tt u will get a defective item. Usually it's 1 or 2 out of 20 buyers? Sometimes it's zero.
- Special designs. Yes, though water gds may be realli bad, as long as it isn't some replica of branded stuff. U've got your own 'brand' which no one has. & u've paid onli a humble price for it. Worth it if it's WEARABLE.
- Faster timing. Water gds. Know wat tt means? Means it has been RUSHED out for u & the world. If u want it fast, this is the quality.
- The benefits of online shopping. No need to elaborate le.

Final Note: Basically, watever u give is watever u get. If u pay alot & u wait for weeks, most likely u get a satisfactory item. Although there r also unforseen circumstances tt your item is oos. Expect the unexpected. The colors, most of the time for mi, always differ. Juz order wif an open mind. U know it's called ONLINE shopping. Beware of scammers & be glad if it isn't one.

=.=" Wow long guide. If u need any help pertaining to online shopping, I can help.
My mood is spoilt, but there r some heng stuff;

- CoupleTees supplier is not a scammer, & items have been shipped out; refunds also sent.
- Started re-playing Maple again in private server SakuraMS.
Kuromidori(blackish green) aiming nite lord, & coming up Fukamidori(dark deep green) aiming bow master.
Why? Reason is we lvl quite fast. But I assure u I'll stop playing in 2weeks, as usual.

-ZUANY-

2008-08-30T18:40:00.002+08:00

Went back to my pri sch wif ShiYun ytd.
Didn't manage to meet any teachers or frends though.
I think tt was the last time we're gona go in le.
From next yr onwards, we'll be visiting our sec sch.

Nothing to be missed abt... Let the past pass bah.
Since my fate wif my best frend & childhood frend have alr ended.
I guess I won't even say hi even if I c u all in some random place again.
2 yrs of complete silence. 2 million kilometres away. Unreached.

-ZUANY-

2008-08-28T22:42:00.001+08:00

I hate everything.
(Dun mind mi.)

Wee~ No exams tmr. Temporary freedom!
Yep & sian-ness too.

-ZUANY-

2008-08-27T21:11:00.003+08:00

Today is a very suai day...

1) Rained so I took 307 home instead of walking, & took the exit door seat.

2) On the second stop before I alight, a grandma boarded the bus.
She walk walk walk, den the bus driver wait wait wait.
All the pple in front except mi, sat to the inner side.
But the grandma die die wana continue walking, reach my seat le den ask mi to move in =.="
Super stupid. Stupid stupid stupid.

3) The next stop involves the mass movement of sec sch students into the bus. Nuff said.

4) After the squeeze to alight the suffocating bus, I used the bio tb as my form of umbrella.

5) Meeting pple @ 2.30, so I tried to chiong. Packed & decided to carry 4 heavy bags down.
On second tht, it is impossible to endure till there. So went up again to remove 1 bag.
Final decision - take 307 to lot 1. But this changed again.
Cos I was juz joking & cursing myself tt I can be more suai, like miss the bus?
Hoho, den I missed TWO buses. All full somemore.

- Tremendous adrenaline rush was in my blood. & it's boiling @ 100 degrees.
Luckily, I am still sane, so I took a breath & decided on a solution - take 307 to yewtee & take mrt to cck.
After all walking to yewtee is another big no-no.

- Smsed the 2 buyers & begged for their patience. Gd thing they cooperated.
When I was @ yewtee, I saw Mrs Chan & my juniors boarding the bus.
I wanted to scream for them not to do so, but I dun think it is appropriate either.
Looks like they had to go thru the suffocation tt I went thru.

- Studied chem elsewhere, not @ home, all by myself - the first time.
I love independence. Didn't work very well but it's acceptable.

Onli 5 significant suai-ness. But in the end I still completed the tasks, so tt's gd.
Share wif u the horoscope of today, which I totally forgot abt it.
Anyway, it's all abt my anger management in the end.

Capricorn,
In Love, you'll be moody and some of your negative moods will cause moments of crisis for your relationship. Good news if you are single.
At work, a small inconvenience will change your mood and will cause some really dramatic reactions. However, avoid getting annoyed with those who have nothing to do with it.

GAMBATTE FOR CHEM TMR!!
(After tt can rest for the week & gambatte for others le)

Btw I onli have less dan $1 for tmr, cos I've spent $1.20 on a curry'o to reward myself juz now.
Miss Zuany is gona become Miss Haru soon.
Finance management time. Let's bingjianzuozhan wif Haru desu!

I need to dream of DaiSuki!! =P

-ZUANY-

2008-08-26T21:50:00.001+08:00

WATASHI-WA GAMBATTE-MAS!!

(:
(:
(:

I SHALL DREAM OF DAISUKI.

JIAYOU DESU.

-ZUANY-

2008-08-25T22:01:00.002+08:00

Zuany's Targets for Prelims!

Minimum Requirement =P

English B3
E. Maths B3
A. Maths B3
Chem B4
Bio B4
Geo A1
C. Humans B3

GD LUCK & ALL THE BEST! (:

-ZUANY-

2008-08-25T14:42:00.002+08:00

ZUANY WILL NOT BE EATEN UP BY ANGER.
I WILL BREATHE IN & RELAX!!
I WILL OVERCOME THE SIN OF ANGER!!
I WILL NOT LET THIS AFFECT MY REVISION; I WILL CONCENTRATE!!
MY MENTAL STRENGTH WILL BEAT THIS STUPID ANGER!!
STUUUUUUUPID. STUPID. STUPID!!

TRY MI.
I BREATHE FOR U TO C.
ANGER MANAGEMENT TEST: 100/100

-ZUANY-

2008-08-24T10:47:00.004+08:00

Woohoo~ New blogskin!
Not as GREEN, but the best out there le bah XD
I've decided to change the emo skin to a happier one ^^
It might be a DaiSuki skin in tt sense =P
Juz wanted a simpler skin, & a change of mood for o's.

Now I shall chant to myself & say;
I HATE USING LAPTOP.
I HATE USING LAPTOP.
I HATE USING LAPTOP.

Smth random: I saw a shuaige @ yewtee bus stop -
he is half WuZun (Fahrenheit) & half WangZi (BangBangTang).
Totally mesmerising =P

-ZUANY-

2008-08-18T13:23:00.000+08:00

BLOG BLOG BLOG.
JUZ TOOK NE QUIZ.
PATHETIC SCORE OF 247OOO.
OKIE ENOUGH.
BYE BYE.
-ZUANY-

2008-08-17T23:44:00.003+08:00

ZUANY IS ANGRY AGAIN!!
ANGRY LIKE SIAO!!

ZUANY CAN NVR WORK IN A SERVICE SECTOR!!
NOW I ANNOUNCE; I HAAAAAAAAAAAAATE BEING A BLOGSHOP OWNER!!
STUPID STUPID STUPID!! I AM SO STUPID!!
I SWEAR IF I'M GONA REOPEN IT'S GONA BE @ LEAST $10 PROFIT PER ITEM.
I SWEAR MAN.

F**KING BLOGSPOT SHOPPERS.....................
STOP SUAN-ING MI CAN!!
IF U DUN APPRECIATE DEN FORGET IT K.
JUZ LET MI EARN YOUR $$ IN PEACE PEACE PEACE!!
& FOR GOODNESS SAKE, WHY CAN'T I SCOLD PPLE??
ARGHH I'M SOOOOOO ANGRY~~

I DUNO WHY RECENTLY I'M SO HEATED UP ZZZ
YEAH & TIRED @ THE SAME TIME.
MY MUM SAID TT THING IS GONA COME.
COS OPA'S WAS JUZ OVER.
SO AHEM AHEM IS GONA VISIT ZUANY.

ROAAAAAAAAAAR BEWARE THE ANGRY ZUANY!!
MOODINESS IS GONA COME SOON.
EVEN DAISUKI IS GONA GET IT FROM MI...

I AM TOTALLY GOING CRAZY & LOSING CONTROL!!
I CAN'T RELAX & I DUNO WHY I AM BEING SO JIDONG...
TAKE THE OLYMPICS FOR AN EXAMPLE!!
I THINK ALL THE NEIGHBOURS HEARD MI SCREAMING =.="

OH & 1 MORE THING, I AM SURRENDERING MY COM RIGHT NOW.

I AM ANGRY & I FEEL LIKE DYING...................
EVEN THOUGH NOW'S NOT THE TIME TO SAY.

GIVE U A WAY TO HELP MI, LET'S EXCLAIM;
"ZUANY, LOOK! IT'S DAISUKI!"

ZUANY'S EYES LIT UP.
ZUANY TURNS & SMILES.
ANGER SUBSIDES & 24HRS HAPPINESS IS OBTAINED.
RESULT - ZUANY STARTS TO HUACHI & DAYDREAM (:

2008-08-11T13:00:00.004+08:00

Have bought my mp4 le XD
In the end I didn't buy my first 2 choices; 1) Ipod Nano 2) Creative Zen Microphoto
I bought... 3) Samsung S3, the 1 I saw in WestMall's HarveyNorman =P
& to say I'm very satisfied wif it ^^
I bought it @ a price of $114 @ SimLimSquare, HarveyNorman retails @ $129.
Bought another extra charger for $10 too.

Now figuring out:
How to put lyrics
Where to download videos
Wat wallpaper to put
Where to buy cover/skin
Wat songs to download

Some pics tt r found on the net (:
I bought the green one of cos XD

Supposed to treat my parents to PizzaHut ytd, but it was full alr T_T
So I treated them to Beef Pepper Rice($5.50) instead @ the food court.
& my dad finally understands tt $5 is not enough for a student.
But it's enough for Zuany cos she's clever in financing~ Hehe self-praising =.="

Anyway, I think I am surrendering my com tmr if all goes well ^^
So here's another horoscope reading keke =P
If u all want; here's the link: http://www.cafeastrology.com/birthday/iftodayisyourbirthday.html
They came up wif the reading by the 'intersection' of the planets to yours on your birthdate.

January 4 Birthday Horoscope

With the Sun in harmonious aspect to both Saturn and Uranus in your Solar Return chart, you are able to blend progressive and traditional methods effectively this year. Work you have done in the past begins to pay off. You may be recognized or rewarded in some way for the efforts you put forth. Because you project a more responsible and credible “you”, people in authority tend to be more inclined to appreciate you and recognize your work. This is a year when you put your life in order in some significant manner. Improved concentration, a more realistic outlook, and a practical awareness of the limits of time all help you to make steady progress, particularly in your career. Your concern for your future this year is stronger than usual, and you may find that projects you start, or investments you make, this year will benefit you for years to come. The key to success this year is adopting a realistic, practical, disciplined, and orderly approach to your life.

Exciting (not jarring) changes and new interests characterize the period ahead. It’s easier than ever to express your unique individuality, and if this involves changing careers or jobs, a new love affair, or an entirely new hobby, it’s something that takes you forward into unexplored territory. You are more willing to adapt to new circumstances, ideas, and unfamiliar situations this year. It's a good time to join organizations and groups and to attend meetings or social events. You are able to find creative solutions to problems now. Flexibility is the key to success under this influence. Your personality is sparkling this year, which is sure to attract new circumstances and people into your life.

With Venus in a tense aspect to Saturn in your Solar Return, getting serious about love or money (or both) will be a theme this year. Money may be tight, or the need to buckle down with your finances may be necessary. This does not necessarily signify financial losses or hardship, but you are likely to have an increased awareness of your limits. The responsibilities of partnership are magnified this year. You are likely to be more earnest on a romantic level. An existing relationship may become more serious, or you may form a new partnership with a serious or older person. You are likely to work hard this year, and this could interfere with pleasure time. Opportunities to socialize may be reduced, and this could be the result of increased responsibilities or it could stem from your own insecurities or lack of confidence on a social level this year.

Mars opposes Pluto at the time of your birthday, adding quite a bit of intense energy to your year. You have powerful, transformative energy at your disposal this year, and much will depend on how you handle it. Channeled positively, you could move mountains when it comes to pushing your projects ahead. If mishandled, however, you could be argumentative, stressed, and hell-bent on having your way! Avoid taking extreme measures to make things happen your way, and avoid people who might be doing same. Deliberately trying to maneuver things in order to get the upper hand will be a lesson in frustration.

With Mars trine the Moon's North Node, you may be actively involved with teamwork and collaboration with others this year. This can also indicate an increased need for sexual union, as it stirs the passions and generally indicates ease in satisfying one's desires through positive connections with others. This aspect is one indication of getting engaged, married, the beginning of a significant new relationship, or the intensification of an existing romance.

You can be quite intense and driven this year. Avoiding manipulative tactics and power games is important. Recognition for your accomplishments is forthcoming, and adopting a thoughtful and disciplined approach to life works wonders for you. Hard work truly pays off this year! However, it can also cut into your social life, so try your best to make time for recreation.

2008 is a Number Six year for you. Ruled by Venus. This is a year of relative contentment. It is a time when love is the easiest to attract, and partnerships formed under this vibration have a better chance for longevity. You are able to attract others, and material things as well, this year. This is a good year for establishing harmony in the family and in the home. Advice - develop existing relationships, be positive and receptive because these kinds of energies help you to attract what you desire.

2009 will be a Number Seven year for you. Ruled by Neptune. This is a year of preparation, chance, and refinement. It is not a time of dramatic changes. Instead, it's a year when reflection on the past is helpful, and when refinements to your life path should be made. It's a good year to study and analyze. Unexpected twists to your life story and "chance" meetings are probable. Advice - take stock of your life in order to prepare for more exciting years to come, examine the past and plan for the future, get in touch with your deepest needs and uncover your personal power, don't strain yourself or actively try to expand.

Signing off,
Jazzie.

2008-08-09T23:57:00.006+08:00

U know... A few days ago, I went out of sch @ an earlier time.
Looking @ my body structure, anyone could have guessed wat it was - my back, duh.
I've been doing these since pri 4, the first backbone checkup;
running from Health Promotional Board (pri4-pri6)
running from KK Hospital (sec1-sec4)
running from National University Hospital (the rest of my life)
Basically a body checkup & xray doesn't matter much to mi.

Bcos I tht everything would still be the same - bragging to the doc abt how I went to NZ & climbed numerous mountains, became a guide & ran abt for flag days, attended swimming lessons in sch & any crap I could think of.
It did work for the frendly & always-nice Dr. Kevin from the CHILDREN KK Hospital.
& so the naive Zuany tht she could escape from the clutches of a 血光之灾.
The Associate Prof of NUH realli lived up to his name, bcos all the bragging didn't seem to inflict any dmg on him.
In fact, he did a counter attk on mi & my parents.
Literally my parents lar, especially my the-world's-cleverest-天蝎座-daddy lor.
Tt is to say, this time's checkup @ NUH, was a BIG BAD NEWS.
(Apparently I didn't realli wake up yet cos I didn't gave a violent objection for self-protection)

I'm not gona complain how UNREASONABLE & CRAZY my dad was.
Wait, maybe I am & I SHOULD.

-START-
HE ACTUALLI AGREED TO IT W/O MY CONSENT AKA THE PATIENT.
& TREAT IT AS A BIG ACCOMPLISHMENT IN HIS LIFE FOR HIS 'BRAVERY' =.="
AFTER TT HE'S GONA MAKE A BIG HOO-HAA ON HIS FINANCE ISSUES.
I NVR SAID I WANTED IT BUT HE GONA MAKE MI THE MAIN ISSUE OF THE ISSUE.
I TOLD HIM TT I WAS PERFECTLY NORMAL & FINE BUT HE HAD TO SAY TT HE WANTED A PRETTY DAUGHTER & HE WANTED TO BE A GRANDPA.
I MANAGE TO HOLD A 臭脸 THRU IT ALL BUT HE HAD TO RUIN IT. DEN MY TEARS FREAKIN FELL.
I GOT A GRADE C RM W/O AIRCON WHEN THE NEXT GRADE W/ AIRCON ONLI ADDS 1K.
HE DIE DIE ALSO DUN WANA CHANGE COS HE WANTED TO GET FINANCIAL ASSISTANCE EASIER.
HE NVR EVEN DOUBT THE DOC WHEN HE SAW 'ASSOCIATE PROF' ON THE NAMECARD.
-END-

Yep I've announced the news to my Besties. My 小姑 also knows le.
I know it's no-turning-back for mi. I have to do it regardless. Cos both ways also die.
If I leave it untreated, I'll be blowing grey clouds to my adulthood wif ALOT OF PROBS.
If I go for it, yeah anything can happen. Death, paralysed, side effects - u name it.

In the past, I cried alot abt it when I first heard of wat the doc had to say.

After doing research & encouragements from my parents, I tht it was not smth serious.

It was, after all, NOT a disease nor illness; but instead, a type of condition which everyone has.

But it's juz tt mine is a more unique case aka more serious.

@ first, I tht the checkups were onli temporary & is nothing much.

But NOW, I realise tt it has became a lifelong commitment. I had to go every yr - all the way till I die.
Seeing the ahmas wif white hair going for xrays/consultations wif the similar body structure gave my mind a knock.
Zuany is gona be doing xrays & visiting this Associate Prof for the rest of her life.
Can u believe it? I nvr realli know how it feels to be SICK.

I always tht I was a normal person; too normal to be visible in fact. To my dad, I'm not.
But I knew how this will affect mi - my work(will pple employ mi?), my marriage(will the one/his parents accept?), my children(can give birth to healthy children?) & my inner peace(psychological dmg?).
It has alr tied down my whole life, & I'm not even married! Thinking of all these, I felt so 痛苦.
Thankfully, it isn't cancer or some fatal stuff. But this is ETERNAL bcos this is INCURABLE.

I think many won't believe tt this is happening to mi, a nobody.
I couldn't believe it myself either. I tht such things will nvr happen to a normal person.
It's not overnite tt I know I was like this, but it was overnite tt I realised it joined mi in breathing.
Zuany is SPECIAL in this way, believe it.

Now for smth tt I've researched;

* affects 2-3% of the population, or an estimated 6 million people in the United States, and there is no cure.
* impacts infants, adolescents, and adults worldwide with little regard to race or socio-economic status. The primary age of onset is 10-15 years old, occurring equally among both genders. However, females are eight times more likely to progress to a curve magnitude that requires treatment.
* can impact the quality of life with limited activity, pain, reduced respiratory function, or diminished self-esteem.
* not expected to require treatment. The problem is we do not know who will get it, why they get it, which will progress, or how far they will progress.
* Despite physicians trying to treat this spinal deformity for centuries, 85% of the cases are classified as idiopathic.
* Consequently, patient's life is exacerbated by many unknowns, and treatments therefore that are often ineffective, invasive, and/or costly. Patients also have increased health risks due to frequent x-ray exposure.
* is a multifactorial disorder, which requires multidisciplinary research and treatment.You are not alone in your journey of living. There are many common issues facing every patient.

No matter how things go, Zuany will MAKE SURE tt she says wat she needs to say to DaiSuki BEFORE anything.
Tt way, even if anything does happen, Zuany will not have any regrets.
(Honestly, I dun mind anything, realli.)

Signing off,
Jazzie.

2008-08-05T00:57:00.002+08:00

Okay, I wanted to blog very long x 9999999999 ago T_T
But smth called 'Blogshop' stopped mi from doing so hehe ^^
Some time this week, I'm gona bid my farewell le.

Anyway, recently I realised smth;
The curses we made to the 3 pple all came true =X
Pig - accident occured --> The 1 who bullied mi & whom I hate last time
臭饼脸 - similar incident --> Made alot of noise, inconsiderate
WhiteWhite - tough obstacles --> A bad person wif bad attitude
(Be careful of who u curse, cos u nvr know when tt curse will come true =.=")

Yeah sure, of cos we feel pity when they had their desserts. Tt's why; always 以怨报德.
Even if u feel like slashing someone, u must know tt it's meaningless to hold a knife. 所谓，怨怨相报，何时了?
We're all humans, of the same age, in the same sch, moreover - we're in the same class.
Zuany wishes tt every one of her classmate can get gd results for o lvls~ D:

If I were to bump into any of my classmates in the future road of Life, will I be able to say a hi?
It'll feel awkward, but by tt time, I'd probably be missing the moment right now.

Face it - I am leaving the 4yrs of Secondary education in a few mth's time.

When I turned to look behind,

the class seemed so small.

With their names alr in my mind,

the no.41 - I know them all.

The noise they made,

came from lil children.

It was immature,

but why not?

I tht I'd nvr have to say this;

I'm not special or outgoing.

But the reality stays,

that I'll miss everything.

Signing off,
Jazzie.

2008-07-18T00:28:00.002+08:00

Shyt lar... I am so damn angry now!!
The person who irritates mi the most is my bro.
I dun care wat is his intention but DUN IRRIATE MI.

I do wat I want; it's my future.
Since u've alr said it's too late, den f**king stop your nonsense.
Stop your childish disturbance.
I do feel a gust of annoyance overflowing in mi when I slam the door.
U will nvr how to shut up.

TALK BCOS U WANT TO,
TALK BCOS IT MAY BE THE REALITY.
BUT U NVR THT ABT IT,
TT YOUR WORDS R USELESS & CAN ONLI HURT.

WHICH IS LIKE, MIGHT AS WELL DUN SAY.
DAMN.

-END OF COMPLAINT-

Anyway, back to my normal self.
I didn't manage to advertise blogshop today zzz
Tmr den continue to chiong!! Tonite do hw bah...
Cos 2 things cropped up - photo editting of new arrivals & ulquihime updates!

Zuany has finally contributed largely for her pairing yay!
I translated the ulquihime scene in the Bleach spoiler chapter tt is in Chinese =P
Den it was posted by my grp member in the Bleach Asylum forum!
Wow such a big step for mi~ Suddenly I'm so proud of being a 华人.
But I duno how did I score for my o lvls lar T_T

Haha emptied-dreams is gona be popular le... I dun mind contributing keke ^^
Though I feel a lil stress tt someone may find some mistakes in the translations =.="
This is my first time translating smth like this, so mistakes r inevitable de.

Shall post up the pics when I have the time.
Need to go do hw liao...

Some lame stuff;
Chances I will c DaiSuki:
1) Morning assembly (Mon, Wed, Fri, but I sit in front)
2) Recess (he doesn't eat)
3) After recess (highest possibility!)
4) After sch (sometimes, depending on lesson timing)
Tt's why it's possible tt I won't c him everyday.

Signing off,
Jazzie.

2008-07-14T22:21:00.002+08:00

Zuany is very tired... Zuany is very restless...
So lemme complain some stuffs first =P

Blogshop:
Alot but I'll juz say one.

When u wana cancel an order, u dun go, 'HI I WOULD LIKE TO CANCEL MY ORDER.'
--->I'M YOUR MAID?!
Any basic human courtesy should be smth like, 'HI I'M VERY SORRI, I NEED TO CANCEL MY ORDER DUE TO SOME EMERGENCY. REALLI VERY SORRI FOR THE INCONVENIENCE! HOPE U UNDERSTAND.'
--->OKAY, I'M A HUMAN TO U & I DESERVE SOME RESPECT.

Everytime when someone cancels an order, my heart breaks.
Not referring to love here, but referring to my own pride in my work.
It DESTROYS the pride I have. Normal pple will not be able to understand wat I mean.

Bcos when someone could ACTUALLI cancel, it simply means your service REALLI got prob.
No $$ is NOT an excuse, if I were to attract them fully, they can go to the extent to BORROW.
I'm not recommending them to do tt, I'm juz trying to show tt the things I sell r so UNATTRACTIVE.
So when someone cruelly do tt, they r tearing my heart into pieces like any break ups.

Pple, I mean those who shops online, pls THINK TWICE before u order. Try your VERY best not to cancel anything!
Now Zuany needs to find more orders for capping le. Thanks to these irresponsible peeps I should say.

-END OF COMPLAINT #1-

School: I knew it but I'm still gona say it.

Well, Opa & mi have been talking abt the DORMINANT personality tt I came up wif after some serious analysis.
I know u won't get it, but I'm not gona make my throat dry so skip tt.

Juz wana say, I've experienced wat Opa experienced tt time.
I'm thankful to them who helped mi in the afternoon. Realli.
患难见真情。

I was worried abt wat to do, they TRIED - perhaps not successfully, but effort could be seen.
Onli the DORMINANT personality didn't turn recessive, & was sucking those who were trying to help mi.
Err I guess tt action didn't quite work out.

-END OF COMPLAINT #2-

Wow I've realised tt I've got alot to blog abt... Let's start the randomness =P
Note: They're not in order. Read them to get your mind confused XD

1) Thank gdness tt my parents didn't manage to throw my wuguis away
2) I almost lost my voice to my Aka-Chan juz now
3) Recently my mum made mi into MUMMY'S GIRL & tried to 'beautify' my body
Man she's turning abit psychotic by buying mi *lingerie* & cooking smth tt helps my development(u-know-wat)
4) Got my star frying pan! But I duno how to cook wif it, it's still on MY TABLE
5) I borrowed 2 library bks & need to return; 1 was a lame story & the other was a SECOND bk of a series
6) All the qns in geo's practise paper 1 was chiong-ed by Zuany
7) Overslept today, woke up @ 6:59
8) The o lvl chinese oral invigilator went to relieve our class
9) Mr Shanmugam was standing in front of the class which makes it difficult for mi to copy geo
10) I've been sharing childhood memories wif Opa
11) Doing blogshop makes mi super hungry
12) I'm no longer taking afternoon naps, now I take nite naps; which cause mi to overslp
13) I realise the severe lack of time now
14) BLOGSHOP ORDERS NEED ALOT MORE!
15) CAN THE BUYERS BE MORE BUYER-FRIENDLY?
16) TMR IS O LVL LISTENING COMPRE! BUT I DUNO HOW I SHOULD FEEL ABT IT!
17) I DUN WISH TO OVERSLP ANYMORE!
18) Bleach: ULQUIHIME MOMENTS!

Finally, I saw DaiSuki looking @ mi today~~ D:
Haha I wished the way I c it is true hehe XD
Somehow when I THINK he looks @ mi, I gain a tinny bit of confidence!
I shall keep telling myself tt I may have a chance!
If he would juz look @ mi, I would - I realli would!

Fukamidori & DaiSuki yay yay!

Signing off,
Jazzie.

2008-07-07T16:27:00.002+08:00

I've taken an interest in slogan tees!
The onli impt thing is how the fonts will look like~

7) The truth is ... I can't stop thinking of you
10) Everytime I hear this song i think of you
11) Everytime I hear you name , it breaks my heart
24) Forgive your enemies but never forget their names

I guess these r the onli ones tt grabbed my attention~
Anyway, long time since I've been updated wif ULQUIHIME le...
But when I went to the forums, the latest spoiler was abt them!!
Yay so you yuan again, I love ULQUIHIME!

Bleach 316 ~Credit to Drake at Pantip

At Karakura Town, the spirit pressure of Aizen and all his suboridinates together is amazingly powerful, so much so that low ranked hollows within a distance of 22 kilometres are scaredly shaking and some of them even explode because of this heavy spirit pressure.

"Damn his spiriual power is like a demon as usual" Omaeda Marejiyo says while trying to hide his fear.
"You can run away if you are scared" Soi Fon replies sarcastically.

"Should we deal with the head first?" Iba Tetsusaemon asked his captain, Komamura.

"No we can't. Aizen's ability is more special than any regular ones" He replied. "If we want to concentrate on defeating him, we need to finish defeating everyone around him first."

"Among the three Espadas, who do you think is the most capable one?" Kyouraku asked his best friend (Ukitake) who is standing beside him.

"It's difficult to say..." The 13th devision captain answered "... we probably need to ask Aizen.."

"The problem is.." Hitsugaya states, "There is nothng to guarantee that while we are fighting with Espadas, Aizen won't intervine."

"...yeah that's it" Matsumoto answers him.

Despite all the comments, the general commander Yamamoto Genryuzai Shigekuni shows no reaction. He contemplates the situation for a while and then orders everyone to back off.

Suddenly, he releases his Shikai. At that moment, the flames start to build up like a wall surrounding Aizen, Tousen and Gin.

"Joukakuenjou" Yamamoto states the name of his technique. "Now, Aizen and the others will not be able to get out of there for a while. So in the meantime...."

His eyes move to the Espada's "we should finish it all."

"He makes such a quick action.... Our big commander..." Ukitake complains.

"Just by this, you can see how fit he is." Shunsui smiles with relief.

"Heww so hot." Ichimaru Gin complains even if there is no worry in his voice. "Such a great efforts for us, General Yama Ji... " He turns to ask his boss "So what should we do? Captain Aizen. Like this, we can't join them."

"We don't need to do anything" is the answr from Aizen. He smiles calmly "Because this fight will end without having us intervene at all. That's it."

The scene changes to Las Noches at the fifth tower.

Orihime is facing Ulquiorra

Through the darkness in the tower, he is walking towards her quitely. However, Orihime doesn't try to escape because she knows he can catch her anyway.

"Are you scared?" He asks.

There is no reply from her. Orihime just stays still and watches him.

"Now that you have become useless to Aizen-sama, I don't need to protect you anymore" Ulquiorra says when she doesn't reply.

No answers from her. She is only being quiet and staying still.
"This is the end" He pressures her "You will die here alone without anyone knowing."

After his speech, he comes to a stop in front of Orihime. His emotionless eyes make contact with hers in a very close distance.
"I asked" He asks her again "Are you scared?"

Orihime stands there with her eyes on his for a while before replying to him without any fear in her voice.

"Not at all" Her voice is surprisingly calm "because everyone came here to help a person like me..."

Faces of her friends such as Rukia, Renji, Ishida, Chad and Ichigo come to her mind.

"My heart now has gone to where my friends' are."

Hope Ulquiorra won't realli kill her leh...
How can she die so easily man, she's 1 of the main chars!
Like many said, if he wanted to kill her, he would have done so long time ago.
Still taunt her for wat huh =.='

But @ the same time I'm also worried tt Ulquiorra might get killed by Aizen or Ichigo T_T
Haix I know it's definitely very hard for them to be together...
But jiayous to ULQUIHIME! U have a pool of supporters so fret not!

(Man I know it's random posting such stuffs. Oh wells.)

Before I forget,
HAPPY YOUTH'S DAY!
Let's be glad tt we're no longer children; we r 年轻人 =P

Signing off,
Jazzie.

2008-06-25T09:31:00.003+08:00

Haha... I'm blogging now bcos I can blog =P

Hehe before my checkup I'm gona do my hw ^^

Managed to finish the dued essay last nite~ Yay!

But seriously, it feels kinda empty & alone when u're the onli 1 tt's not in sch T_T

Anyway I'm gona gambatte!

Have finish advertising my blogshop for the day le~

I will finish my hw!!

Shedule for everyday:

1)Come home, check & reply emails

2)Advertise on those who did so in my tagboard

3)Eat lunch

4)Do homework

5)Advertise in LJ communities

6)If tired, sleep!

7)Wake up, bathe

8)Repeat 1 & 2

9)Watch TV till 9pm

10)Repeat 1 & 2

11)Do homework

12)Revise if have time

13)Sleep!

Yeah tt would sort of be my sequence...

The main aim of this week is to power up for future challenges! D:

Duno wat to say le zzz

Oh yah! I hate sitting @ the front again, so suai man.

Post too plain, so added in a pic (:

My family pic ^^

From top to bottom:

PiaPia

Coffy

HaiGui

Puffy

Pibi-chan

TouFu

Signing off,

Jazzie.

2008-06-20T18:39:00.004+08:00

U know ah, my life has been very gd leh.
Didn't know tt business can cause so much heartbreaks.
Bcos my thinking is very narrow; & the worst thing to mi is being copied.

Juz on the day I started advertising, the clumsy Zuany juz exposed the supplier's email add.
She was emailing her supplier & copied the email add.
Accidentally, she pasted it onto an advertisement board & it's too late.
Unfortunately, being clever pple, they emailed the add, & got the supplier.
Juz not long ago after tt incident, her supplier told her happily tt another blogshop owner wanted to be their reseller.
Well, we all know wat who it is & tt this must be a matter of fate.
Zuany told herself, tt is was fate tt she should give this supplier to other pple.
On her LJ blogshop, she sold $16 tees, but on other shops, they sold $14.

It's the same incident as bikinis preorder. But perhaps a lil different.
She didn't even expose her bikinis supplier. Well, tt supplier is juz too well-known.
Being having the intermediate brain, she gave up on bikinis.
She moved on to other preorders tt seemed like miracles, each was paid wif her increasing eye degree, each was paid wif her parents' naggings, each was paid wif irregular meals, each was paid wif every effort.
But when the prices seemed fine & items seemed tasty, she smiled & called it a miracle.

Miracle it may be, but who knows wat happens when tt miracles happen to other pple as well?
U won't call it a miracle if it happens to everyone, u call it a miracle bcos it was given to u, specially, exclusively!
Thus, when tt miracle no longer stays a miracle, let's all gather our courage & motivation; nvr giving up, continue fighting even though u're a ghost, continue trying even though there's no hope, continue, continue, until...
Until there's nothing left of u.

U know again, actualli, no 1 can stay unique...
Bcos by all the copying going on, it's so difficult to tell the origin.
The worse thing is the copycats dun even know tt themselves, they juz did it.

Even mi, when I realise it too, for e.g., u typed 'abc' or use the emoticon '=)'.
If u guys go check out your msn conversation, some lines later, I might use 'abc' or '=)' unknowingly.
Wifout acknowledging tt it was u who started it, or rather, tell yourself the clear fact tt it is not u @ all.
U juz used it so naturally.
When u c smth tt was so U, u will know tt it belongs to u.
When u c smth tt's not U @ all, u should be able to find smth weird.
When I am alert enough, I can backspace it.

Anti-emo-poser ultimate supporter.

I realli do have severe confidence defiency.

Smth to perk my mood up:
Any emails!
LJ Comments!
Replies frozen for my order!
More dan 1 online user on counter!

Signing off,
Jazzie.

2008-06-18T02:48:00.006+08:00

Wow pple... This is crazy, it's almost 3am now...
It's like I'm chionging hw, but now I'm chionging blogshop =.="
Anyway it's FINALLY done & I've realised tt 1 month of time have been spent on it T_T
I hope some nice fruit of labour will come for this hehe xD

So those dudettes who have been linking my blogshop, pls change it to;
http://diamondpetal.livejournal.com
Realli thanks alot for linking Zuany's blogshop ^^
As I've said, livejournal is for preorders & blogspot is for instocks (:
It's also fine wif mi if u wana link both =P But the most impt 1 is livejournal!

I've alr uploaded the pics I wana blog abt~ So I'm gona do a real short 1.
Pls enjoy my short update of pics & I'm seriously rushing off for a big nap.
Tmr den chiong advertise abit, after tt got to go back to work again for hw!
Jiayou Zuany even though u can't realli do it hehe, juz try try try~ T_T

Anyway, this is the green star necklace & earring I've bought from US site.
Btw the item is made in China, so it means, it came from China, to US & to S'pore!
Every product has it's story bah D:

Hmm I'm also wearing the $10 green vintage checkered top tt I've juz bought too~
With... Unity shorts, hehe my home attire ^^
Btw u should know tt it's not my room (:

Now drag in PiaPia keke xD

Now for the green pouch I've bought, I made PiaPia carried it ^^

Anyway, here's a clearer 1. It costs $6, I can put both $ & hp in~

A random pic, which happened a week ago, whereby my bro randomly gave mi an ice-cream!
Yumyum, I know fridge got 2 more strawberry, but it must be a couple ice-cream so nvr touch (:

Finally... Presenting my first made dish in my entire life!! Haiya noob again zzz
Not exaggerating but this is 1 dish tt's sort of created by mi & 99.9% made by mi.
For the first time, the lazy Zuany was damn desperate for cheese =P

Forgot to tell u wat it is... Actualli also dun have name de, but can call it Cheese Noodles!! D:
I've added maggiemian, sausages, scrambled eggs, melted cheese & tomato sauce ^^
Meaning it has your typical maggiemian, wif the super milky taste of eggs & cheese, plus a lil pasta-like sour taste!
Do not copy! Pls state 'Zuany's Inspired Noodles' hehe (:

Yep, the last pic of myself for the day.

Lolx it was intended to be a short update, oh well, ahem =.="
Juz rmb to support my reopened blogshop!
I have alot of notifications to give out tmr...
Pls support Zuany!! Zuany, Zuany, gogogo!! D:

Signing off,
Jazzie.

2008-06-14T14:43:00.005+08:00

1. Do you have someone whom you currently appreciate his/her presence for?
Yah, my family, definitely. Wifout them, I'm nothing, realli nothing.

2. Do you ever turn off your cellphone?
Yep it's off now le... I onli use my hp when I go out.

3. What happened at 10am today?
Hehe still slping (:

4. When did you last cry?
Should be the Hong Gil Dong kdrama, bcos of Prince Chang Hwi ='(

5. Who are you talking to currently?
Opa on MSN, regarding the flipflops.

6. What do you want in your life now?
Alot leh... Basically for all my shopping stuff to arrive soon lor =P
Den the suppliers quickly reply email so tt I can open blogshop!! *going insane*

7. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains or just put up your hood?
Carry umbrella, I dun wear hoodies de.

8. What's the favourite thing to have on your bed?
Pibi-chan & PiaPia D:

9. What bottoms are you wearing?
Hmm the shorts, I bought it wif RuiLin for $10 hehe xD

10. Describe the person who tagged you to do this quiz?
Huh, describe ah =.=" She's my bestie, Xuany lor ^^

11. Do you tend to make relationships complicated?
I dun realli have any relationships, & I dun realli care either.

12. Are you wearing anything that you borrowed from someone?
Huh?? For?

13. What was the last movie you went to see?
Err The Legend bah, or if u realli wana say, should be Nana The Movie on mysoju.

14. What are you proud of?
Yep here comes a confidence quiz. Hmm so ans is nothing (:

15. What does the oldest message in your inbox says?
Lolx I found the emails I've kept. Deleted all the useless ones. Anyway, if u're interested! xD

From: Stephanie Tan (steff_tan@yahoo.com)

Sent: Tuesday, June 07, 2005 10:27:53 AM

To: Jing Zuan (scentliee_lurvezz_jz@hotmail.com)

Dearest Jing Zuan,

Hi gal...how are you?It's been some time since I last heard from you...how are you?Busy with school life? Or,busy dating?

By the way,how are your parents?Hope that they are fine...do say hi to them and send my warmest regards to them...what about Han Song n Suang Yin?Still a good cop n still a job-hunter?I hope that the job-hunter has already stopped hunting....

Over here,I'm okay...my working life is still ok lah...typical working life...nothing very interesting to tell...anyway,it's fun sometimes cos I'm dealing with outstation as well as overseas customers...it's just that at times,it's a bit tough to really make up what they said...cos there's the accent...ermm...

Do update me regarding your recent life...send my love and warmest regards to all at home...

Take care...all the best in all things you do...

Love,

Stephanie

16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
Konna ni mou tooku e, futari wa kitte shimatte... Yume no Tsubasa, typical.

17. Do you have any nicknames? What are they?
My family calls mi MEI~
My best frends from pri sch call mi Jina Zui.
My besties call mi Zuany.
My close ones in sec sch call mi JZ.
I call myself Jazzie as English name.
I call myself Fukamidori as Japanese name.
Online usernames used: xcupidangelx, fate4destiny, emptied-dreams, starrygreen, fukamidori
So u can call mi according to wat u r hehe D:

18. What does the last received text msg says?
From my bro, Han Song's hp;
Can help to chk my game pls? Restart if needed. Thk.
-----> Msg read too late, so too bad.

19. What time did you go to bed last night?
1am smth... Damn tired. Guess wat I was doing - shopping! =P

20.Are you currently happy?
Nope, nvr.

21. Who gives you the best advice?
My parents or mi myself? Depending @ times, seriously.

22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
Err why so eager to eat?

23. Who did you talk on the phone last night?
My bro, Han Song again. Abt his granado espada whether got die anot.

24. Is something bugging you right now?
Yes!! Everything, so stop asking. Hurting my self esteem ='(

25. What/Who was the last thing that make you laugh?
Hmm when the miracle happened; someone opened cutesygirl spree!!
Definitely unbelievable!! D:

26. Do you wear toe socks?
Err for wat? U wana have stinky feet izit? O_O

27. Who was the last person you missed a call from?
Err Dad Hp. Forgot why le, anyway I nvr managed to pick up his calls de.

28. Have you ever have your heart broken?
Doesn't have to be for love u know, anyways - countless.

30. Do you have a crush on someone?
Right now? Of cos, dun u know there is someone whom I call DaiSuki? D:

31. Have you ever done cocaine?
Huh??

32. What is the colour of your room?
Light pink? My hse is either light blue or light pink. Of cos I wished it's green.

33. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollar?
No, unless I'm a trained assassin or from some secret organisation, wow.
Bcos I would be digging my own grave if I'm not professional enough.
I'm not gona be some stupid scapegoat, ty.

34. Do you believed in the saying " talk in cheap" ?
Haiyo, I duno wat lai de.

35. Who was the last person to lay on your bed?
Hmm mi currently. I won't say abt it a few hrs later.

36. Who was the last person who hug you?
Sorri, is I hug my dear Pibi-chan (:

37. Did anyone see the last person you kissed?
Huh??

38. Do you have a life?
Yep u got it right, a ghost is doing this quiz.

40. What is the reason behind your profile song?
Niji - Aqua Timez from jdrama Gokusen 3. Juz found it encouraging.

41. Who was the last person you saw in your dream?
Dun realli rmb... Got nightmare juz now abt a big spider monster outside my hse.
Hehe I was carrying a gun & have to kill it before it comes in or smth.
But it's like game lor, can restart de leh, cos I dreamt tt it ate my mum T_T
So I selected 'restart' & finally succeeded in killing it in second attempt~
Though, I did rmb having an acquaintance wif mi, but forgot who.
Dumb nightmare again.

42. Last time you smiled?
Juz now when my miracle happened.

43. Have you changed this year?
Everyone is growing each sec & everything is changing each sec too. Okay crap.

44. What are you listening to right now?
Nothing I guess. My dad is singing again =.="

45. Are you talking to someone when you do this?
No?

46. Do you walk with your eyes open or closed?
Huh? Walk wif eyes close will knock onto wall leh.

47. Is there a quote you live by?
Yep, pls check out my quotes section (:

48. Do you want someone you can't have?
Duh! Who dun have? Anyway check out my hottest anime guys list.

49. What was the worst idea you've had in this week?
Huh??

50. Have you ever played an instrument?
No musical background. Typical ones tt were taught r recorder, anklung, guitar.

51. Are you happy with your love life right now?
................... Unless DaiSuki is here wif mi.

52. What song describe your love life?
Pls check out my DaiSuki song. Haix!

53. Does the person know that you like him/her?
I dun think so, anyway I think he blocked mi!! =.="
In the end also won't have any ending de bah... No hope...

54. Who always make you laugh?
No 1 in mind...

55. Do you speak other language other than English?
Chinese, abit of Japanese, but not enough.

56. Are you blonde?
Nope, I'm a Chinese & my hair is black. Hope to have green highlights though.

57. What is your middle name?
Ahem, this must be an angmoh quiz. Anyways, u know my name.

58. What are you doing tomorrow?
First thing tuition, sobs.

59. What do you think you are like?
The color green! ^^ Lolx I duno lar.

60. Who will you choose to die with?
Waa die wif ah? I think no need bah. Can go alone de, dun need to be so cruel (:

61. Where have you been today?
Sorri, too lazy to go out.

62. What game do you play often?
Not realli interested in games, short attention span.

63. Who are you missing right now?
Dun miss anyone, pls dun assume =.="

64. Who will you treasure the most?
Probably my family.

65. What are you doing now?
Wei, I'm here mah. Answering your qns 65.

66. Which primary school are you from?
Kranji Primary School, near my hse.

67. Name 3 colours that you like?
All greens, starrygreen, mint (:

68. What emotion you like to show?
=.="

69. What is life to you?
Earn $$ & eat so tt won't die.

70. If you have something troubling you, what will you do?
Solve it wif my brain, if cannot den juz share wif mum.

71. Who did you last chat in msn today?
Opa, Opa.

72. Who do you admire the most?
No.1 should be my dad as always. & no.1 idol is Hero Jaejoong ^^

73. Which month are you born in?
January, hate it.

74. How are feeling right now?
Sianx...

75. What is the time now?
3.48pm

76. Where are you now?
In my room, duh.

77. What colour did you use to dye your hair?
No, nvr dye, u pple all got dye hair de izit?

78. Why are you doing this quiz?
Xuany tagged mi (:

79. What do you do when you're moody?
Think abt things?

80. At which age you wish to get marry?
Err not very sure, more impt is WHO u r gona marry.
Of cos every woman wish to marry before 30, or socially acceptable.

81. Who is more important to you? Boyfriend or friends?
Err I dun have bf, so I guess onli frends r left?

82. Do you think you have enough confidence?
Nvr nvr nvr!!

83. Who is the person you trust the most?
Answered before le. Mi, myself, I.

84. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain?
Yes, go dig up some meteorology or weather bks, dude.

85.If you can have a dream come true, what would it be?
Basically to live in a dream which I want. Nvr reality.

86. What is your goal for this year?
Very hard to attain. Anyways it's to get into an acceptable JC & the course I want.

87. Do you believe in eternity love?
@ our age, probably not. Perhaps a lil older? Maybe (:

88. What feeling do you love most?
Most wanted should be being surprised! ^^

89.Do you really think it's global warming now?
Err since we've invented those complicated chemicals?
Anyway the world will definitely end de, I couldn't care less anymore.
Juz tt it most likely won't happen in our generation, no use helping, juz give up.

90. What feeling do you hate the most?
Being lost & duno wat to do, basically ignorant.

91. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
Depends?

92. Do you believe in god?
Very sensitive leh! Anyway, I'm still young so won't be involved wif this yet.

93. Who cares for you the most?
My family! No doubt.

94. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
Didn't everyone say happiness?

95. What'll you bring when you fight?
Wow, fight wat? Will the weapons be supplied?
Bow & arrow, katana will be cool, or those throwing stars~

96. What have you regretted in your whole life?
Alot, again, countless. Wat's the use of pondering over it?
The onli thing u can do is to stop more regrets from happening.

97. What would you feel that no one no longer cares for you?
Haha felt it before... The down-est period of the yr...

98. Do you love going out?
Sometimes, depending on where & do wat.

99. What you hated most?
Actualli can de, ben lai ke yi de. This type of crap.

100. What do you think a perfect good friend should be like?
Perhaps constantly keeping in touch till our hair r white?
& definitely putting effort to help each other in need (:

Completed! I quite like doing these type of stuff~ But I guess also quite boliao lar.
Haix anyway shall blog up some pics I have next time!
Have to complete these main things by these week, I dun care man;
-Open blogshop (by tonite!!)
-Complete all hw (by tmr nite!!)
-Finish reading storybk (by tonite!!)
-I'll think of it as I go... ^^

Signing off,
Jazzie.

2008-06-10T21:48:00.008+08:00

Oh man... I have to admit, I am STILL living in memories of the drama ='(
I cannot get over Prince Lee Chang Hwi's sadness...
Of cos I know it's juz a drama, a made-up story... Damn it.
But still my heart hurts for him, the grief & sorrow tt he had.
Omg seriously my heart earnestly yearn & demand him to have a gd ending!
Sigh but I'm not the scriptwriter =.="

Maybe somethings r juz out of our control, & yes my heart is now too.
I cannot stop it from hurting... My sympathy for him is too strong.
& once again I knew it's juz smth tt's not true, but how can it touched my heart so much?

I fell in love wif is Lee Chang Hwi from the drama, not the actor Jang Geun Suk.
The personality & character belongs to Chang Hwi, not Geun Suk.
To ease the mourning inside, I'm gona make a tribute for him.
Living in the memories of the drama Hong Gil Dong, I'll attempt to make a music video.
After this, hopefully, the pain can subside & fade; as well as Chang Hwi's.
(I made a foolish wish; tt I may become Ryu Yi Nok in the story to stay by Chang Hwi's side.)

Chang Hwi, u'll nvr be alone, there'll definitely be someone by your side.
May it be Chi Su, Madam Noh, or even 1 of your fans; juz like mi.
(I feel like jumping into the drama to embrace u when u cry.)

Some MVs if u wana know more abt him;
For a very detailed introduction - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P2TZYG3qabw
For the summary throughout drama - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oraSyLRuHLs
For the MV tt best described him - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iuDIDmBU8tg
For the most melancholic truth - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2lSc5HJQuyU
For the best MV made wif dialogues - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U244N0_SJiQ&feature=related

Anyway, Zuany wants to stop this feeling she's having & go back to reality soon.
I know Chang Hwi nvr existed, but the feeling I felt turned out to be true.
Announce to the world;
I REALLI LOVE CHANG HWI! ='(
I sincerely BEG for your happy ending.
Pls be happy.

*Random note: Hope I have bread for breakfast tmr (:

Signing off,
Jazzie.

2008-06-03T21:29:00.002+08:00

Hihi! Today is Opa's bday so let's wish her! (:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO OPA ON 03.06.08 FOR 16TH!

Celebrated it @ Sakae Sushi juz now. For the noob Zuany it's first time.
Hehe so let's not brood further ^^

Okay, today is a special day for another person too haha xD
I've juz found out de =P But first, let's play a game~
Not exactly a game, but I'm sure u'll be stunned de!

Now, all of u know who my No.1 Hottest Anime Guy is right?
1) YES! Of cos! D:
2) Err no... *checks the anime list* =.="
(Backstage got pia-ed by PiaPia)

Anyway, this is Senri Shiki from Vampire Knight, the all-time famous pic of his xD
He's a part-time model in the story. Okay, we'll leave it as this first.
Now juz rmb his perfect face... & look @ the ones below.

Hoho, drum rolls ^^
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ROLLING!
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ROLLING!
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ROLLING!
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STILL ROLLING!
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PLS C CAREFULLY!
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ENJOY!
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Dun u think this is a replica of Senri Shiki?
U can stay unconvinced, but my eyes can't be wrong hehe (:
Thus, this guy shall be stalked by Zuany! xD
He shall be announced as my No.1 Hottest Anime Guy aka Senri Shiki's real-life form!
Congrats hehehe~

Coincidentally, his bday is today! Hehe so much fate lolx =P
HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY TO MIURA SHOHEI,
THE SECOND SENRI SHIKI!
Lolx I'm very lihai hor, now this guy is gona be next to Hero Jaejoong in my heart~
Of cos it's in tt IDOLISM section, not DAISUKI section =.="

Now for the stalking research! Lolx.
He's the onli 1 who caught my attention in Gokusen 3 bcos of his Senri-Shiki-ness, hehe.
He onli acted in 1 show! Tt is Gokusen 3, small role too (:
Btw seriously, I dun realli care abt his height, weight, shoe size etc k zzz
Stalker & huachi-er BUT not a pervert T_T All these r collected by fans~

Name: Miura Shohei (三浦翔平) (みうら　しょうへい)
Birthday: June 3, 1988
Birthplace: Tokyo, Japan
Height: 180cm
Weight: 62kg
Shoe Size: 28cm
Star sign: Gemini
Talent agency: Burning Productions
Hobbies: Surfing, Touring and Sports
Special skill: Basketball
Trivia: He joined the 20th JUNON Super Boy Contest where he won the Photogenic Award.
Drama's starred in: Gokusen 3 (2008) as Kamiya Shunsuke.

Have changed to Gokusen 3's ending song! Cos I feel tt it's realli very encouraging.
Btw, for those who wana c the whole class full of boys, u can watch Gokusen hehe...
Though I onli have eyes for my Senri Shiki =P
I've watched Sky of Love, the main guy char who acted as Hiro, is in the show too!
He's 1 of the main chars in Gokusen 3. He has similar name wif my Senri Shiki (:

Yep before I end my idolising rantings, let's juz have 1 more xD
Taken from forum, if u agree wif it too, do share it wif your parents ^^

During one of our seminars, a woman asked a common question.
She said, "How do I know if I married the right person?"
I noticed that there was a large man sitting next to her so I said, "It
depends. Is that your husband?"
In all seriousness, she answered "How do you know?"
Let me answer this question because the chances are good that it's weighing
on your mind.

Here's the answer. EVERY relationship has a cycle.
In the beginning, you fell in love with your spouse.
You anticipated their call, wanted their touch, and liked their
idiosyncrasies.

Falling in love with your spouse wasn't hard.
In fact, it was a completely natural and spontaneous experience.
You didn't have to DO anything. That's why it's called "falling" in
love...
Because it's happening TO YOU.

People in love sometimes say, "I was swept of my feet."
Think about the imagery of that __expression.
It implies that you were just standing there; doing nothing, and then
something came along and happened TO YOU.

Falling is love is easy. It's a passive and spontaneous experience.
But after a few years of marriage, the euphoria of love fades.
It's the natural cycle of EVERY relationship.
Slowly but surely, phone calls become a bother (if they come at all), touch
is not always welcome (when it happens), and your spouse's idiosyncrasies,
instead of being cute, drive you nuts.

The symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship, but if you think
about your marriage,
you will notice a dramatic difference between the initial stage when you
were in love and a much duller or even angry subsequent stage.

At this point, you and/or your spouse might start asking, "Did I marry the
right person?"
And as you and your spouse reflect on the euphoria of the love you once
had, you may begin to desire that experience with someone else.
This is when marriages break down.
People blame their spouse for their unhappiness and look outside their
marriage for fulfillment.

Extramarital fulfillment comes in all shapes and sizes.
Infidelity is the most obvious.
But sometimes people turn to work,a hobby, a friendship, excessive TV, or
abusive substances.

But the answer to this dilemma does NOT lie outside your marriage. It lies
within it.
I'm not saying that you couldn't fall in love with someone else. You
could.
And TEMPORARILY you'd feel better.
But you'd be in the same situation a few years later.
Because (listen carefully to this):

THE KEY TO SUCCEEDING IN MARRIAGE IS NOT FINDING THE RIGHT PERSON; IT'S LEARNING TO LOVE THE PERSON YOU FOUND.

SUSTAINING love is not a passive or spontaneous experience. It'll NEVER
just happen to you.
You can't "find" LASTING love. You have to "make" it day in and day
out.
That's why we have the __expression "the labor of love."

Because it takes time, effort, and energy.
And most importantly, it takes WISDOM.
You have to know WHAT TO DO to make your marriage work.

Make no mistake about it. Love is NOT a mystery.
There are specific things you can do to succeed with your marriage.

Marriage is definitely not smth easy to sustain. Do treasure your family! D:
Wish everyone happy family & the last day for hols lessons~

Signing off,
Jazzie.

2008-05-29T20:29:00.007+08:00

Start wif my shopping updates first (:
Show u guys wat I am gona order for the upcoming taiwan sprees.
Sianx must wait 3 months. My first batch in march haven't even arrived yet.
Still, Zuany loves to shop! Hehe D:
As u can c again, this is all green.

If u're looking for taiwan sprees aka yahoo auctions de cheap spree organiser, feel free to pm mi for the link.

Yes... Green ribbon shirt, abit like bf shirt also.

Decided to get a green ribbon belt for my bf shirt or tunics.

My eye has been on this for so long. @ least the big spellings r correct.

Blogshop will be opened by this week! Promise!!
Blogspot will be used as instocks' site & advertisement tagboard.
Livejournal will be used as preorders' site & main updates' site.
Will give ya guys the link when I reopen! Still updating.
Onli left ladies' tees de preorder not done. Do look forward & support DP +~

Anyway, spam wif personality quiz results again.

Your Type is ISFJ
Introverted
Sensing
Feeling
Judging
Strength of the preferences %
67
1
12
1

ISFJs are characterized above all by their desire to serve others, their "need to be needed." In extreme cases, this need is so strong that standard give-and-take relationships are deeply unsatisfying to them; however, most ISFJs find more than enough with which to occupy themselves within the framework of a normal life. (Since ISFJs, like all SJs, are very much bound by the prevailing social conventions, their form of "service" is likely to exclude any elements of moral or political controversy; they specialize in the local, the personal, and the practical.)
ISFJs are often unappreciated, at work, home, and play. Ironically, because they prove over and over that they can be relied on for their loyalty and unstinting, high-quality work, those around them often take them for granted--even take advantage of them. Admittedly, the problem is sometimes aggravated by the ISFJs themselves; for instance, they are notoriously bad at delegating ("If you want it done right, do it yourself"). And although they're hurt by being treated like doormats, they are often unwilling to toot their own horns about their accomplishments because they feel that although they deserve more credit than they're getting, it's somehow wrong to want any sort of reward for doing work (which is supposed to be a virtue in itself). (And as
low-profile Is, their actions don't call attention to themselves as with charismatic Es.) Because of all of this, ISFJs are often overworked, and as a result may suffer from psychosomatic illnesses.
In the workplace, ISFJs are methodical and accurate workers, often with very good memories and unexpected analytic abilities; they are also good with people in small-group or one-on-one situations because of their patient and genuinely sympathetic approach to dealing with others. ISFJs make pleasant and reliable co-workers and exemplary employees, but tend to be harried and uncomfortable in supervisory roles. They are capable of forming strong loyalties, but these are personal rather than institutional loyalties; if someone they've bonded with in this way leaves the company, the ISFJ will leave with them, if given the option. Traditional careers for an ISFJ include: teaching, social work, most religious work, nursing, medicine (general practice only), clerical and and secretarial work of any kind, and some kinds of administrative careers.
While their work ethic is high on the ISFJ priority list, their families are the centers of their lives. ISFJs are extremely warm and demonstrative within the family circle--and often possessive of their loved ones, as well. When these include Es who want to socialize with the rest of the world, or self-contained ITs, the ISFJ must learn to adjust to these behaviors and not interpret them as rejection. Being SJs, they place a strong emphasis on conventional behavior (although, unlike STJs, they are usually as concerned with being "nice" as with strict propriety); if any of their nearest and dearest depart from the straight-and-narrow, it causes the ISFJ major embarrassment: the closer the relationship and the more public the act, the more intense the embarrassment (a fact which many of their teenage children take gleeful advantage of). Over time, however, ISFJs usually mellow, and learn to regard the culprits as harmless eccentrics :-). Needless to say, ISFJs take infinite trouble over meals, gifts, celebrations, etc., for their loved ones--although strong Js may tend to focus more on what the recipient should want rather than what they do want.
Like most Is, ISFJs have a few, close friends. They are extremely loyal to these, and are ready to provide emotional and practical support at a moment's notice. (However, like most Fs they hate confrontation; if you get into a fight, don't expect them to jump in after you. You can count on them, however, run and get the nearest authority figure.) Unlike with EPs, the older the friendship is, the more an ISFJ will value it. One ISFJ trait that is easily misunderstood by those who haven't known them long is that they are often unable to either hide or articulate any distress they may be feeling. For instance, an ISFJ child may be reproved for "sulking," the actual cause of which is a combination of physical illness plus misguided "good manners." An adult ISFJ may drive a (later ashamed) friend or SO into a fit of temper over the ISFJ's unexplained moodiness, only afterwards to explain about a death in the family they "didn't want to burden anyone with." Those close to ISFJs should learn to watch for the warning signs in these situations and take the initiative themselves to uncover the problem.

U cannot comfort mi lor... Bcos this is o lvls mah...
I'm feeling like as if I'm sealing my future leh.
I feel so damn insecure, bcos I can onli score well in SOME tries.
If I were onli given 1 try, I can tell u it's 99.9% gona fail de.

I'm still thinking lor, no 1 can help mi, not even my family...
It is not like as if game over le still can quit game & select new game.
Game over means game over.

I duno lor... I am super lazy, the exact opposite of Capricorn.
I also duno when this laziness grew onto mi, it's juz accumulating!
From the very first time I got my edusave award, I guess it started accumulating.
So results continued to drop & drop.

Haix as usual Zuany is always so depressed & negative.
She hates everyone around her bcos she onli sees the bad pts.
But wat to do? It's tt her eyes give each bad pts a big shadow.
She hates everything she do too; watever she do is wrong.
Hence she's always living in the world of hatred.
Pple say tt u'll live a hard life if u do so, tt's why Zuany wanted to end hers.
U know she's got this hatred illness wif her.

Note to all;
She hates everyone & everything. No exceptions. Not even the innocent 1 who is reading this. Out of all, most of them r copycats.
(Perhaps, there may be a lil exception. Call him DaiSuki. Or any of the names listed in the anime list.)

P.S The onli things in Zuany's life now r; BLOGSHOP, SHOPPING, GREEN. Did u realise tt anime is no longer is the list? Time goes by~ Toki no nagare wa. Time goes by~ Toki ga sugitemo.

Signing off,
Jazzie.

2008-05-24T17:07:00.003+08:00

Back from PTC... Very horrible...
Can't rmb very clearly, but it's smth like this:

Mrs Ong: I think the main probs r amaths & bio cos she failed lar. Overall she needs to pull up hmm, every subject bcos all getting c5 or c6. Her english also quite weak.
Dad: But for amaths I have tuition for her. She should be improving...
Mrs Ong: I think amaths need to practise more. She didn't practice enough.
Dad: Her chinese... & geo quite gd.
Mrs Ong: Geo, combined humans or bio all content-based. So need to read more.
Dad: These results can go JC? --------------> ULTIMATE SHOCKING QNS!!
Mrs Ong: Err of cos not. She has 28 pts.
Dad: How about going poly?
Mrs Ong: For poly wif this type of results I also think quite hard. Bcos those popular courses needs 14 pts & below. She can manage to get a place in a course, but it will be those unpopular ones.
Dad: So wat can I do now?
Mrs Ong: I think mostly will depend on her. We'll be finishing the syllabus soon when sch reopens. She'll have to learn to be an independent learner. So this 1 month hols cannot play, cannot chat etc. Have to work realli hard for all her subjects & put 100% of energy on her work.
Dad: Hmm okay thank u.

Thru the whole process I didn't say anything lar, I juz smile. 5mins onli.
Mr Arul didn't even say anything, all Mrs Ong said was overall everything needs improvement.
Cannot go JC, go poly de courses also almost cannot.
I was juz utterly shocked when my dad asked if I still can go JC =.="
Bcos of cos he didn't know go JC need to be below 20 pts.
He won't even count how many pts I've got, he juz care whether if I can go uni & become doc.

When I asked him abt wat's so special abt mi from my bros,
his reply would be 'oh, your 学业 will have 奇迹！'.
I was so damn disappointed. Bcos he didn't understand @ all lor.
Out of the other of my gd pts why do u onli say gd results?
BCOS, tt is not even my gd pt lor! I immediately gave up on his ans.
I tht he's gona say I can analyse, or I am very understanding or I have unique thinking or smth!

Den on the way home hor, he started nagging abt his disappointment & got real emo.
Of cos out of rage he said smth very insulting,
'我不知道我的女儿将来会是做扫地的.'
‘看来我的女儿会是比两个哥哥还残的，要进ITE的。’
‘还是我做德士司机最好hor.'
‘回去跟亲戚讲我的女儿进ITE。。。’

Anyway a peek @ the pathetic results:
Eng C5
Chi B3
AM E8
EM C6
Bio E8
Chem C6
CH C6
Geo A2

%: 55.0
Class Position: 29/41
Level Position: 130/235
L1R4: 22
L1R5: 28
Remarks: Jing Zuan tries her best in her studies. There is still room for improvement.
---------------> Tt's all u could say abt mi?

I also know I'm your last hope, but if cannot do it means cannot do it lor.
It's not I purposely dun want do it.
It's bcos my passion is not in studies okay, I dun like studying.
& it is u who has been thinking tt I'm getting straight As.
Keep saying I could do it juz bcos during primary 1 or 2 can get 99 or 100 mah.
Damn stupid can, keep saying when I'm young tt time get 100marks.
I've alr told u tt I'm failing & cannot do it lor, LONG TIME AGO, since the start of the yr.
U ownself want to naively believe de lor. Dun say I disappoint u k.

I DID NOT.

(I didn't even say I could do it)

Signing off,
Jazzie.

2008-05-24T14:22:00.004+08:00

Wah lao lor... Juz now knock on door den it opened.
The first few words r, '你的妹妹的人体和amaths FAIL leh.'
HELLO, I was abt to go in hao mah? Can let mi hear more nicer words?
Btw, I told her the day before lor. Why nvr say juz now must wait for mi to go in den say?
I must say u're an ASSHOLE when u did this lor.
U intend to make my dad flare up before mi right. How unpleasant.
Den he replied, '读书读到这样还要买东西。。。' & carried on nagging.
Of cos I left & went to my room to lock the door before I manage to hear it all.

Excuse mi? Buying things doesn't require any rights hao mah.
I tht u were going to say tt I shouldn't use com or wat lor.
Crazy...............................................................
Sometimes I hate my mum alot when she anyhow splat nonsense.
Sometimes I hate my dad alot when he anyhow assume he understands.
I love them all & they're very nice pple but sometimes they make mi hate them.

I haven't went to PTC yet, it's 4pm later.
But I duno how am I gona survive this time round, I've nvr scored so badly before.
From position 60 to position 130. Very nice right.
I haven't let my parents know my results yet...
I onli told my mum I've failed 2 subjects, of cos she treated it like a big thing.
To mi it isn't lar, but to them they're gona treat it as wrong investment in tuition.

I've alr told my mum ytd tt juz put the blame on mi, not tuition teacher lor.
It's all bcos I nvr practice enough mah. Not any of her fault!
I also duno how to face my tuition teacher hao mah.
Failed amaths leh! I'm supposed to be aiming distinction de.
Even worse juz pass emaths onli. Still fail bio somemore.

Of cos I knew I could do it bcos I've done it before.
I also duno why I couldn't do it now.
Perhaps it's bcos of my diet - skipping breakfast, or maybe it's bcos the defiency in confidence.
Kana sai lor.........................................................
I'm not the worst case, I could have easily scored even worse.
I didn't even cry abt it @ all mah. Bcos I deserved it wat.
I also know OF COS it's no use crying lor.
Dun nag mi wif your stupid crap.
Or u can say I can't be bothered wif my results.

Long & time ago I've told u I've given up on everything.
Be it studies, frends, love, watever I do - It's my WHOLE LIFE. I alr CRAVED smth.
Why r u all treating like as if it's very bad?
I was intending to break it to my dad later by casually saying, '爸, 这次我考到很差喔...'
Den maybe he might say it like last yr, '我相信我的女儿没有那么差的!'
Now den u break it to him in such an auntie way, he's not gona have this tone for the day!

Those who read this sooner or later they're gona blah abt how SAD or 悲惨 they r & I'm not.
I'm talking to the air around mi.
I blog bcos I wana say how I feel, pls dun brag abt the 悲惨ness in u.
Bcos EVERYONE is the same, each have their own 悲惨ness.
But like I've said, some r destined to bully pple, some r destined to be bullied.
Alot of types more, but too many to name. I'm juz naming the ones around mi.

Btw ytd I've realised smth... Smth to say to all my acquaintances out there:
"I think we r the childish ones who r freaking over simple things like results."
& I've finally concluded tt I am not yet mature. Bcos my onli prob in life, is probably studies.
I am juz probably worrying abt smth tt isn't even there.
If u were to stop & look around, your eyes would open the windows of their souls.
I'm not exaggerating, but tt's wat I c everytime.

The 'ZUANY IS VERY DEPRESSED 到透底!' doesn't change.
(& I tht it would)
Lesson to always rmb in heart FOREVER: "The world is full of copycats. Everywhere. No way to avoid, juz let them copy & give up on everything. For u can nvr beat the world anyway. So juz die, human. Oh, but u can't, tt's too bad. Stay living by being dead den."

Signing off,
Jazzie.

2008-05-21T20:23:00.006+08:00

Hohoho new post! D:
Spam spam wif hairstyles xD

Nice right? These r wat I've been wanting! *dreams*
Very long side bangs, @ the back very short, attention is brought to the fringes!
Other dan tt, 1 side can be very long dan the other side.
This is similar to Asa Shigure from Shuffle! (:
P.S I've bought a green ribbon too hehe ^^

Too bad my hair dun allow it of cos T_T
Haiya I'm not allowed any hairstyles till I rebond my hair ='(
Some more pics! =P

My 爱心早餐 by my mother D:
Egg, Cheese, Potato, Toufu, Sausage.
She took my suggestion of adding cheese xD
Yay I will eat everyday le lolx.

Lastly to congratulate my 表哥的新婚!
He's a 中国的远亲!
Quite far from my generation (:
His dad's grandpa is my dad's grandma's bro.
Which means his grandgrandpa is my grandgrandma is a family~ =.="
Which also means tt his grandpa & my grandpa r cousins!
My dad & his dad will be second generation of cousins!
Finally mi & him will be the third generation hehe =P

A picture of my uncle's whole family (:
All married le, wish them Happy Family lolx ^^
My Chinese teacher is from 福建的厦门省, whereas my 表哥 is from 福建的云霄省.
Heard from him tt they're beside each other onli xD

Btw Chinese O's is onli a few days away...
Tmr is practically almost the last Chinese lesson ever T_T
Now I suddenly change my aim le; I am aiming A1 or @ least get A2.

Teacher talked abt 知足 today, I shall take this chance to reflect!
Wat I have: A 非常美满的家庭: 有疼我的父亲，有关心我的妈妈，有两位很照顾小妹的哥哥，也有另外两位可能是我嫂嫂的女生. I also have my own room, own bed; wif my dear PiBi-chan & PiaPia D: I'm also very lucky to be a Singaporean, wif no natural disasters & such. Most of all, I dun face any financial difficulties - I can still buy new clothes from time to time.
But if I were to look @ wat I dun have...
Of cos tt'll be alot, too much to even list them out.
Tt's why, I've given up on ---- itself.

Haix have been very depressed.
Juz today I alr feel so suai le.
I'm a walking zombie from last yr anyway...
Breathing but dead.

Blogshop is gona reopen reaaaaaaaal soon!
I'll promise, not onli wif words but also actions!
As long as suppliers' side is done, I'll be done =.="
I realli dun wish to drag to Chinese O's den open leh.
2 Blogshop Surprises from last nite:
1) Someone wanted to purchase everything from my shop!
2) Someone knew my new bloglink thru google! (I didn't advertise)

Signing off,
Jazzie.

2008-05-08T21:29:00.006+08:00

Yoohoo~ Surprise! New post xD
Cos I wana share a pic mah (:
But u have to promise mi smth,
that u won't laugh @ mi.

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Reminder: Don't laugh!
I'll use my PiaPia to Pia your face till u fly to Pluto & 'ding' okay! T_T
Anyway the pic below de is photoshop editted by mi de.
I fell in lurve wif this top, or rather bf shirt haix.
But I think I'd look weird wearing it, so I tried to photoshop den c how hehe.
Lolx do let mi know how I look in it (: I'm still considering whether to buy or not~
Onli left 1 piece & it's in green! Wow so you yuan... But not totally...

Haha another pic to share... Opa intro mi de game (: Second try.

Exams r over~~ But I think I did very badly. Haix nvr mind, shopping first! =P

Signing off,

Jazzie.

2008-05-03T20:10:00.007+08:00

Yoyo I'm back wif a new blogpost hehe ^^
I shall announce a gd news - I will be reopening my blogshop after exams! D:
So duo duo support for those who wana support mi (:
Alright I shall start off wif my chinese name analysis spams xD
For those of u who're interested, here's the link: http://www.fatemaster.tw/name.php

吴景钻的內在想法
*思想細密，想得多又遠，而且很有耐心
(I do think far but I'm not patient T_T)
*很會分析、摸索他人的心態，且說出自己中肯的看法
(Haha true!)
*不喜歡被別人猜中心事，一旦被猜對行為後就會立即作改變
(OMG... Most true, seriously!!)
*非常有同情心，看到可憐的人會想要幫助他
(Yeah most of the time =P)
*是個感性的女生，容易多愁善感
(Lolx my parents used tt 4-word phrase on mi before)

吴景钻的外在行為
*不拘小節，所以個性非常阿莎力
(I think it means independent, or onli think of myself xD)
*缺乏圓融性，在與他人溝通、協調上較不易互相配合而堅持己見
(Of cos)
*有利益必爭到底，不會跟自己的金錢過不去
(Ahem... I duno)
*有時唯利是圖過頭了，會讓人覺得像個勢利鬼
(Sometimes bah)
*懂得為自己節儉，不會隨便浪費
(Okay okay lar)

吴景钻的感情分析
*未來是個賢內助，對於另一半非常照顧呵護
(Heard it before... Those who's loved by mi will be very xing fu)
*嚮往家庭生活，有老公的疼愛及可愛的小孩是最大的心願
(Of cos)
*對感情很心軟、容忍度很高，除非對方劈腿、太過份，否則不會輕易分手
(Yep I think so)
*性愛上很配合另一半的需求，懂得討對方歡心
(No comment)
*天生的感情變化雖然較少，但若有波折就非常痛心
(Lolx yeah faithful Zuany)

吴景钻的財運分析
*天生財庫★★★★★
*財庫袋破了個讓人看不見的大洞，只有在交到壞朋友時才會大破財
(So all bad frends should back away)
*賺錢速度很快，天生很會賺錢，很會用錢滾錢的方式來增加財富
(I believe in this)
*花錢速度慢慢的，甚至是個鐵公雞，不過也有可能受到煽動而亂投資破財
(Totally agree)
*偏財運★★★☆☆　天生偏財運還算平平，偶爾尾牙時能抽到不錯的獎項
(Same)

Time to do the quiz requested by Xuany ^^

1. Do you think you can score well in MYE?
- NO. Flunked all. Hehe I still dare to say nia. Anyway I volunteer bring rope & hang myself on the fan liao.

2. What you want the most now?
- The most ah? Gd results for MYE! Hehe fat hope lolx. Yeah following tt will be the replies from my suppliers & the weather to be cooler~

3. Who is the person you trust most?
- Mi myself I & my parents. Typical ans from mi.

4. Do you think you have enough confidence?
- NO. Hey, I'ma Capricorn. & most importantly, I'm Zuany.

5. If you had a dream to come true, what would it be?
- Be wif DaiSuki =P Didn't u said dream? O lvls de is goal.

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
- Diao. U go read those weather bks or do research online lor. I'm too lazy to explain le lolx. But seriously, tt's an encouragement lor.

7. What is your goal for this year?
- Yep now the qns is here. Of cos hit the targets for o lvls & get into the JC subject combi tt I want.

8. Do you believe in eternity love?
- Of cos. If not why am I so fantasised wif animes? Fukamidori & DaiSuki D:

9. Have you broken someone's heart that he/she tried to commit suicide?
- No comment. But I would have been the 1 who tried to commit suicide. Not bcos of a broken heart, but bcos of everything.

10. When do you feel most disappointed?
- Err when I look forward to smth very much & everything is like 99.9% confirmed, den the plan somehow fell?

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
- Wow haha alot leh. Cos it's other half mah. Okay listen up hor. Since this is wish, I shall wish hehe (: Hmm a guy, who is preferably a Chinese, preferably a free thinker, must not be fat, must be taller dan mi, as long as looks shuai to mi jiu hao & of cos must love mi like I love him lor. Easy right? Onli 1 external requirement - must have the emo hairstyle tt I like! D: As long as I love him & he does the same alr happy ending liao.

12. What feeling do you hate most? (From ShiYun)
- Regret bah. I hate it when I lose the chance I've had. ‘本来可以有。’ Wth lor.
12. What feeling do you love most? (From Xuany)
- Haha of cos is love. Or being credited for smth (:

13. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours? (From Xuany)
- Cherish ah? Maybe not to tt extent. Perhaps appreciate.
13. What is your impression of real love? (Changed by mi)
- To go crazy unconsciously & enjoying it @ the same time. Addicted to this insanity. When all lyrics in love songs start to make sense, when all the romance icons start to make sense, when everything tt everyone said abt love start to make sense. Once tt person appears, u'll have a rush of overwhelming happiness tt is indescribable. The onli thing tt keeps u living & an indicator of a living being - is love.

14. Have you done silly stuffs for anyone?
- I think so. Everyone had bah, be it for their family, frends or him. But maybe cannot rmb le ^^ 1 stupid thing is perhaps making a bottle of stars for an unrequitted love; a jerk. Well, I was young. Can't be blamed.

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
- My life? Hmm my bed, my laptop, my dreams & my Dai-Suki-ness for DaiSuki.

16. Who do you hope to be always there for you?
- Always be there for mi? Nah, will nvr ever happen. No 1 will be there de lor, excuse mi. Err maybe I'll always be there for myself, nvr giving up. Or the most my family might know & be able to do smth abt smth? Or even better some miraculous miracle happened & DaiSuki 'ding', appeared as a knight in shiny armor for Fukamidori.

17. Who's your best friends?
- By ranking ah? Haix no bah. This is by err, the time I know u! (: My childhood frend, PeiYen, Geraldine (JiaMin), ShiYun, Samantha, Geraldine (ShiEn), Haru, Jollie, RuiLin, ShiTing, Xuany, Opa. Should be no more le.

18. Who cares for you the most?
- My family! Who else? The most leh.

19. Favourite colours?
- Do u need to ask? GREEN.

20. Why are you doing this?
- Do u need to ask too? Okay anyway this is for Xuany & for fun. Lame qns =.="

Instructions: Remove 1 question frm above, and add in ur personal question. Then tag 6 people in your links, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their tagboard that he/she has been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have a blessing frm all.

Sorri sorri sorri, Zuany is very very lazy.
Zuany dun have 6 many frends, so no 1 need to be blessed.

Juz to share a pic xD
This is a laptop skin de pic wor, I'll be opening this preorder when exams r over (:
Haha as u can c it's all green, I like this pic alot ^^
Ahem, imagine mi & DaiSuki in the fields wif dandelions & flowers wow~~
Romantic scene! Hehe I might juz order this =X

Signing off,
Jazzie.

2008-04-19T16:33:00.004+08:00

Lolx, suddenly feeling so depressed T_T
Overheard my bros talking abt bringing their gfs to movies...
Den I was reminded of Opa's family movie...
Hehe now I feel lonelier dan ever.

Anyway I knew this is gona happen sooner or later mah.
My bros r gona marry their gfs & most probably move out to start a new family.
My parents, ahem, r gona get real old eventually.
Lolx I realli feel like crying, it's like I'm alr missing them now.
I'll be alone sooner or later; seriously realli soon.

My bro juz knocked on my door to ask mi for assistance on his granado...
We joked @ my room's door.
Within a few mins his gf called for him - he left straight away & I closed my door.
Haiya I'm not the cute lil meimei anymore mah.
Obviously I cannot expect anything from my bro wat.
After all it's,

RANKING OF MOST IMPT WOMEN IN MY BROS' LIFE
1) GF
2) MUMMY
3) MI (Hmm @ least lar huh)

From very long time ago, my whole family has been paired up.
>>Mum+Dad
>>DaGe+GF
>>ErGe+GF
>>Mi+??? (No 1 except tt mixture of air)

I'll most likely be huachi-ing my anime guys or dreaming abt DaiSuki.
But the fact stays tt I'm physically by myself.
Haix but I also know tt my parents will stay wif mi no matter wat de lar.

Yep they've juz came back from outside giving mi my all-time favourite rotiprata =P
They also gave mi a bday-like present, my office tray ^^
Anyway to share ytd's horoscope, which was damn true again.
Things happened tt way before I read it (:

Ytd's
Now You See it ....
Yesterday, you were absolutely certain you'd found the right path, the perfect partner and the designer whose style finally allowed you to express yourself as you really are. Today, all that's changed -- drastically. Are you upset about it? Hardly. Who has time to be upset? You're out experimenting. [I'm out; in sch. I had a shock & died. A ghost is blogging right now.]
Love
Don't waste time pouting if someone suddenly reneges on a promise or disappoints you. You're all grown-up now -- remember? That means getting used to others who aren't. [Okay yah, grown-up. Thanks.]

Today's
Just Deal
Yes, you've once again trusted someone, and yes, you may once again have been let down. But you won't know if that's the case unless you take a chance. You need to be equal parts brave, realistic and intuitive. Your reward will be priceless -- for better or worse.
Love
Making peace between who you love and what you want may be a bit of a battle, but you won't mind it. In fact, you may actually find it invigorating.

Cya guys. Rmb to check out the new Besties blog.
I've spent quite some time on the blog background & fanarts.
Yup tt's smth I'm proud of. Haix saddening, aren't it?

Signing off,
Jazzie.

2008-04-18T15:29:00.002+08:00

#1 Preferred Occupation: Sociologist

What is this occupation about?
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What do you need to enter this occupation?
To be a professional sociologist, you need an advanced degree in Sociology from NUS or a recognised university. For admission requirements, please refer to the prospectus of the various institutions.

What are the personal qualities needed?
- Strong motivation to understand social phenomena;
- Analytical; oral and written communication skills; interpersonal skills;
- Keen sense of observation.

What kind of income or benefits can you expect?
Monthly income (approximate): $2,500 (undergraduate degree) $5,000 (doctoral degree).

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What do you need to enter this occupation?
To be a Psychologist, you need at least an Honours or a 4-year degree majoring in Psychology and undergo a 2-year period of supervision.
Other equivalent degrees recognised by the Singapore Psychological Society are also acceptable.

To apply for admission to the Bachelor of Arts degree course majoring in Psychology, which takes between 2 and 6 years, you must:
(1) satisfy the General Admission requirements of NUS:
(2) satisfy the special subject requirements pertaining to the subject to be read, i.e. Psychology:
must have a pass in Mathematics at GCE 'O' level examination.

To apply for admission to the Bachelor of Arts in Psychology (Hons) is a four-year programme. Students majoring in Psychology will be admitted directly into the Psychology programme. In addition to the general admission requirements set by NTU, students need at least a pass in H1 Mathematics or GCE O-level pass in Additional Mathematics or equivalent.

The National Institute of Education offers a part-time, postgraduate to prepare Educational Psychologists. To apply for admission to the MA (Applied Psychology) degree programme which takes 2 to 3 years, you need:
- a good degree from either NTU or NUS, or any overseas university approved by NIE, preferably in Psychology, Education, Social Work or Guidance and Counselling.
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Monthly salary : $2,160 (Civil Service)

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- Ministry of Health
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Related jobs:
Social Worker
Special Education Teacher
Counsellor
Personnel related or research work

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What do you need to enter this occupation?
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- Degree in Veterinary Medicine or Veterinary Science [Not available locally] which is recognised by the Royal College of Veterinary Surgeons (RCVS), United Kingdom, or from US veterinary universities which are fully accredited by the American Veterinary Medical Association (AVMA), USA.
[Though these degrees are not available locally, scholarships can be obtained from the government and the Agri-food & Veterinary Authority (AVA) for veterinary studies abroad. For more information on AVA’sVeterinary Science Scholarship, please contact Mdm Wan Izzah Bte Wan Hussin at Tel. No.: 63257615 or through email : wan_izzah_wan_hussin@ava.gov.sg ]

What are the personal qualities needed?
- interest in medical and life sciences
- comfortable with handling and working with animals
- natural liking or love for animals

What kind of income or benefits can you expect?
Monthly income: $2,480

Who are your likely employers?
- Agri-food & Veterinary Authority
- Institute of Molecular and Cell Biology and Institute of Agrobiology (NUS)
- Equine establishments (Singapore Turf Club, Singapore Polo Club, other riding establishment)
- Wildlife Reserve Singapore (Singapore Zoological Gardens, Night Safari and Jurong Bird Park)
- Underwater World
- Uniformed Forces Dog Units (SAF and Police)
- Animal related industries (Farm consultancies or feedmills)
- Animal Pharmaceutical companies
- Animal Holding Unit (NUS)
- Private veterinary clinics

What are the job opportunities?
Related jobs:
Zoologist
Curator
Research Scientist

Match well with your interests
Highly Related Occupations
(2 occupation(s) listed)
Child Care Assistant
Teacher, Art

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(9 occupation(s) listed)
Artist (Fine Arts)
Artist, Commercial
Author
Designer, Graphic
Executive, Health Promotion
Manager, Gallery / Museum
Playwright
Teacher, Music
Visual Merchandiser/Artist, Display

Your Top 5 Abilities are:
Sensitivity
Organising
Clerical
Spatial
Investigative

Match well with your abilities
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(47 occupation(s) listed)
Accountant
Architect, Naval
Archivist
Buyer
Cabin Crew
Clerk, Accounts
Combat Medic, Naval Underwater
Computer Operator
Computer Programmer
Controller, Air Traffic
Counsellor
Customer Service Representative (Bank)
Designer, Editorial
Doctor
Draftsperson, Civil/Structural
Economist
Engineer, Aerospace
Hairstylist
Journalist, Broadcast
Lawyer
Librarian
Loss Adjuster
Manager, Personnel/Human Resource/ Human Capital
Mechanic, Tool Making
Officer , Administrative
Officer, Bank
Officer, Cash Processing (CISCO)
Officer, Court
Officer, Customs/Higher Customs
Officer, Environmental Health
Officer, Environmental Health (Senior)
Officer, Executive
Officer, Police (Corporal/Sergeant)
Officer, Ticketing
Officer, Welfare
Optician, Precision
Planner, Town
Representative, Sales
Secretary
Securities Dealer
Sociologist
Surveyor, Quantity
Technician, Accounting
Technician, Electronics
Technician, Taxation
Underwriter
Writer

Juz a report on the OSCAR profiling (:
I redid it, but this time it's different O_O
Now to share the list of types of psychologists ^^

Clinical psychologists
To become a clinical psychologist, one usually has to have a first degree and to then take a postgraduate degree which includes professional training. Clinical psychologists usually have a minimum of 6 years of university training, which includes a formal professional training component. Two years of supervised practice are usually expected before the training is fully recognised. Clinical psychologists usually work in a hospital or community setting with people with psychological health problems or with severe difficulties in behaviour and in coping with life. They are active in the mental health field, practising a wide variety of techniques. For example they might train people to manage severe stress or to deal with an intense fear or compulsion. Clinical psychologists assess and treat mental, emotional and behavioural disorders. In Singapore, Clinical psychologists can be found in government organisations, general hospitals and private practice offices.

Counselling psychologists
Counselling psychologists aim to help people to improve in their sense of well being, alleviate their distress, resolve their crises and increase their ability to solve problems and make decisions for themselves. Counselling psychologists usually have an accredited first degree with further qualifications in counselling, usually a Masters degree, together with a period of supervised practice. There is an increasing number of counselling psychologists in Singapore.

Educational psychologists (called school psychologists in USA and sometimes developmental psychologists in other places)
There are different routes to this qualification but to become a registered Chartered Educational Psychologist in the U.K. one needs a minimum of 6 years at a university. An accredited first degree in psychology is required, followed by a teaching certificate and a Masters degree in educational psychology from a recognised professional training course. Subsequently, a minimum of 2 years of supervision is also required. Educational psychologists tackle problems encountered by young people in education, which may involve learning difficulties and social or emotional problems. Their work normally takes place in schools, colleges, nurseries and special schools or units. Their work involves working closely with schools and families. In Singapore there are a growing number of educational and school psychologists. The Ministry of Education employs a number of Chartered Educational Psychologists, and some educational psychologists work in various voluntary welfare organization! s (e.g., 'Teach Me' and Students Care Service). Some also work in private expatriate schools and in private practice. It should be noted that USA qualified educational psychologists are usually primarily academic psychologists and may not have the professional training that is required to work in clinical practice. When you are hoping to engage an educational psychologist to assist in assessing students, you need to ensure that they have undergone a professional training experience and that they have received supervision from qualified practitioners.

Neuropsychologists
Neuropsychologists usually work within hospital settings together with medical experts, exploring the relationships between brain systems and behaviour. Neuropsychologists also assess and treat people with brain injuries or dysfunctions.

Occupational psychologists (sometimes known as industrial-organizational psychologists)
Occupational psychologists are concerned with the world of work and training. They are often involved with such issues as selection and training of staff, psychometric tests, corporate communication, the working environment and management. Major changes brought about by technology, privatisation and recession have led to an increasing demand for their services. They usually work in large business companies. There are quite a few of such psychologists in Singapore. At present many occupational psychologists simply require an accredited first degree and supervised practice for 2 years to be internationally recognised, but there are more and more Masters degree holders working in this specialised area.

Social psychologists
Social psychologists study how a person's mental life and behaviour is shaped by interactions with other people in a social environment. Social Psychologists are found in a variety of settings from academic institutions to advertising and government agencies.

Signing off,
Jazzie.

2008-03-27T18:55:00.006+08:00

"The sky is retreating... Darkness begin to roam the streets.
A girl dangerously chose the alley route, lil did she know tt she might not be able to get home... "
Haix okay I'm not writing some dark stories hehe xD
zzz I'm cursing myself ah.

Tuition is @ 8.30 today...
Obviously blogger cancelled my words again.
So I shall juz say it blatantly.
Tt tuition the last time was horrible.
Was going to say tt I waited for 25mins for my bus.
No lights @ the bus stop, middle-aged pple cycled pass mi & I bu shu fu.
Until 1 teenager guy joined the wait. But he onli came 15mins later, meaning he waited onli 10mins.
Another guy who joined later was the luckiest. He didn't have to wait.
~~The bus loved him.~~ The bus finally chose to show itself.

So I hope, I can dun miss my bus when I go down @ 8pm later. & pray tt the lights r on.
Oh yeah, on my way back hor, must be like tt time =P
~~Bcos I saw an emo guy & he's not wif his lady.~~
Actualli tt time de also as bad lar, have to wait reaaaaaali long for my dear 307 T_T
Haix I'm damn worried tt I'm the onli person on the bus leh ='(
I'm coming back @ 10 smth later, hopefully by 11 I'll reach home...
Heng tmr no need to hand in any hw xD
I will go right to bed after I'm back =P

Haiya juz conclude bah - it's realli bad to go home late.
So peeps, dun go home late.
Besides tt unjustice long wait for your bus, the darkness & silence tt's hanging around is unbearable.
Anyway cannot be lazy lar. Have to go tuition de, I missed alot recently.
Great another text which got eaten by blogger.
Wah lao, after I took another look, the sky went darker again.
Very u-n-c-o-m-f-o-r-t-a-b-l-e ='(

Dark, dark, dark, dark! Waaaaaaaaaaa~
Sometimes I realli hate to have replaced tuition on weekdays leh.
Anyone can help mi wif this dark-dark-dark-dark-ness?
Haix. Gtg prepare liao, cya all in sch for jogathon tmr bah. Haix, haix, haix!!

Since we r students, here is an ULQUIHIME kawaii pic of them as students xD Study study!
Another kawaii ULQUIHIME pic ^^ 1 angel, 1 devil. Haiya make mi think of darkness T_T

Signing off,
Jazzie.

2008-03-26T23:52:00.003+08:00

I found this during my random word-key-in in dictionary.com hehe =P
So here's the Girl Guides tribute! (:
~~I know I'm very boliao but this is quite fun also mah xD~~

Definitions tt were provided:
1)
girl guide
–noun
(sometimes initial capital letters) a member of a British organization of girls (Girl Guides) founded in England by Lord Robert S. S. Baden-Powell and his sister Lady Agnes as a sister organization of the Girl Scouts.
[Origin: 1905–10]

2)
Girl Guide (gûrl) Pronunciation Key n. A member of the Girl Guides, a British organization of young women and girls founded in 1910.

3)
Girl Guide — also Guide
(also no capitals) a member of an organization for girls which is aimed at developing character etc

Arabic: مُرشِدة الفَتَيات
Chinese (Simplified): 女童子军
Chinese (Traditional): 女童子軍
Czech: skautka
Danish: pigespejder
Dutch: padvindster
Estonian: gaid
Finnish: partiotyttö
French: guide
German: die Pfadfinderin
Greek: προσκοπίνα
Hungarian: (leány)cserkész
Icelandic: kvenskáti
Indonesian: pramuka putri
Italian: guida; giovane esploratrice*
Japanese: ガールスカウト
Latvian: gaida
Lithuanian: skautė
Norwegian: speiderpike
Polish: harcerka
Portuguese (Brazil): bandeirante
Portuguese (Portugal): escuteira
Romanian: ghid
Russian: девочка-скаут
Slovak: skautka
Slovenian: skavtinja
Spanish: exploradora
Swedish: flickscout
Turkish: kız izci

EMaths test tmr... Maybe if in the morning I can c DaiSuki, I might score better =P
Hehe kidding lar... @ most fail somemore onli (:
Which is of cos bad, but I can't help it. Maybe I'll emo tmr too after it xD

Signing off,
Jazzie.

2008-03-22T07:48:00.005+08:00

Hmm I slept @ 10 smth last nite...
Was too tired alr so juz lie on my bed.
Hence I woke up this morning @ such a time.
Gd timing to take in fresh air =D
(Maybe I should do my hmwk now ><)

Meanwhile here's some accurate horoscopes for this week =P
Yeah there was some realli stupid quarrels this week. Everyone seems to be PMS-ing.
As for Wed & Thu, I do agree tt I could focus on work a lil more.
Hehehe as for Fri & Sat it's super true, bcos I'm energetic, but ytd, I didn't even do any hmwk T_T
~~I was on Crunchyroll reading spoilers, browsing sprees sites & reading other pple's blogs. Basically wasting my time hehe.~~
The most accurate, is Sun! It's so true bcos Haru's bday celebration was pushed to Sun!
The love plan thingy, we can realli do it tmr hehe ^^
Now this is an actual example of how accurate horoscope can be.

CAPRICORN
December 22-January 19
There is really no reason to be bickering on Monday and Tuesday, but bickering you are -- with coworkers? with roommates? -- over the most trivial stuff. How weird! Why can't everyone just calm down? Wednesday and Thursday you make some headway in one of your own projects, which is excellent because it distracts you from the interpersonal brouhaha at hand. Friday and Saturday you have tons of energy but it ends up wasted on this and that. On Sunday, you sit down with some friends and come up with concrete plans, including a plan related to your love life.

I think I should follow this ^^
Serious abt work? Yeah okay, maybe abit =X
But I do agree on Wed & Thu =)
The last 1! *drum rolls* Hehehe I will follow this.
~~Hmm omg how did they know tt I am gona take this step of mine? O_O~~
I will get a very warm response & the step is definitely going in the right direction.
Hell yeah! Gambatte desu!

CAPRICORN
December 22-January 19
You're serious about work, especially during the first few days of this week. Still, if you don't carve out time for your love life, it's bound to suffer. Make at least a little effort now, and you'll be all set to follow up around Wednesday and Thursday, when the stars help propel you along. Your steadiness isn't boring -- it's rock-solid, not to mention seriously sexy. And from Friday through the weekend, a certain move you make is likely to get a very warm response, and a certain step you take is definitely in the right direction.

Time to stop thinking abt normal humans & juz give up on them.
Juz say, 'They're trash.', obviously adapted from Ulquiorra =D

Signing off,
Jazzie.

2008-03-21T16:52:00.009+08:00

Hehe it seems after my complaint 2 days ago, compensation was given xD
The upcoming chapter 315 is gona make ULQUIHIME real again =D
U can read the spoilers of it @ my Crunchyroll grp:
http://www.crunchyroll.com/group/Ulquihime

Juz to share an analysis done by a ULQUIHIME FC member @ Bleach Asylum Forum:

Speaking of ambiguity, I've been analyzing Ulquiorra's different stares. LOL. You can totally tell what he thinks of a person by the way he stares at them it seems. When he looks at Aizen he is not frowning, he looks young and reverent and almost innocent (poor guy, he's so duped). When he looked at Nnoitra he was completely deadpan, as if Nnoi didn't even merit an opinion. When he looks at Grimmjow it's with utter contempt and dislike. With Ichigo, it's with arrogance but a certain grudging respect. With Hime, it's like with Aizen. There's no arrogance and his expression is unusually soft, not the hard contempt we see when he deals with the other espada. He looks very different when he's looking at her, doesn't he?

^ Totally agree! For Ulquiorra, u can onli analyse his stares & expressions.

Look @ ULQUIHIME scenes, they're all panels of stares =P

Different ones somemore.

U guys should realli read the ship_manifesto essay for ULQUIHIME.

Ulquiorra is back!! Yay ^^& here's the much beloved ULQUIHIME scene:

The ever gd-looking Ulquiorra!
& the all-time famous ULQUIHIME stare =D

Hehe I'm very bad hor... Always nvr reply pple's tags de xD

So I shall reply here. Sumimasen, hontoo ni gomenasai desu ^^

yinsuen - Yeah I rmb u from pltc =) Green lovers unite =P Thanks for the tag!

chantel - Yo senior! Yes of cos I rmb u xD Must visit us den u know mah ^^ How's JC life? =D

marianpoja - Yep it's all green =P But I duno who u r =.="

caroline - Hihi! I still rmb maplestory hehe xD Glad tt u like my songs ^^ Realli long time no c le ><

Abigail - Yeah sorri for the late reply. Sch's alr open T_T Next up will be cya on mon =) Thanks for tagging!

- ♥ xüãи! - Nice & cool blogskin huh? Hehe thanks ^^

Opa :]] - Hehe the #1 blog spammer... Sorri ah always nvr reply your tags. Cos we always chat in msn mah so no need hor xD

Btw I'm gona spend alot of $$ on shopping again.

Besides tt $40+ on taiwan sprees & $20+ on forever21 tee, it's gona be another $17 on my green emo tee & $18 on my olive green skinny >>> These r confirmed =)

I'm still aiming to buy my $10 beige long cardigan (for my dress), $10 green stripe knee-socks & $20 grey three-quarters >>> These can wait =)

So all in total, it's 4 tops, 4 bottoms, 1 cardigan & 1 socks if I'm gona get them all.

Omg obviously, I need to control myself. I am not going to continue buying any more things.

My mother is gona kill mi. Even though all the $$ I've spent r wat I've been saving.

I shall do so my limiting myself tt I can onli buy when I have the $$ on hand.

I will not be so ridiculous to touch my bank. My angbao $$ is gona be used up liao, shall start to save up soon! =D

Man, it's time for some serious reflections on my finance management:

TO MYSELF:

I AM REALLI SORRI FOR SPENDING SO MUCH MONEY ='(

PLS FORGIVE MI. I WILL STOP NOW, RIIIIGHT NOW.

(Perhaps it's realli time to resume my blogshop business)

Signing off,

Jazzie.

2008-03-20T00:28:00.003+08:00

Smth to yell abt: BLEACH IS LICENSEDDDDDD! OHMYTIANS!
Okay, so tt means Crunchyroll is almost of no more significance to mi; & to many.
Dun they have an entrepreneur brain tt tells them they can't remove those popular animes?
Alot of fans or serious otakus will be in cloud zero once u guys do this.
(Oh yeah, I admitted sometime ago tt I'm an otaku too)
~~Need more condensation here, someone is on cloud zero =)~~

Actualli, anime hosting sites lose a crucial part of their tourism once they start to license stuff.
Yeah, it's either to go against the law, or the, well, mountain of otakus.
Anyway, as for mi, I think I'll have to compromise & go to youtube or veoh now O_O
Bleach is officially the onli anime I am catching on now. It is precious to mi okay!

Going further, it's abt the new manga chapter, 314. The most disappointing chapter ever.
Why? Bcos Mr.Tite Kubo sir had juz managed to make 1 of his main chars totally useless.
Cool huh, Orihime-san has enough haters alr, now u juz made it multiple times more.
Right, I duno wat u have in mind, juz dun torture Orihime anymore okay?
Being my pairing's environmentalist, I can c tt u juz tried to threaten the existence of my ULQUIHIME.
Ulquiorra aka Emospada, supposedly to be trapped onli for a few hrs, is not back yet even after 1 human year.
Now tt Orihime is allowed to go back to Earth, she will most likely be separated from Ulquiorra. Will they ever meet again?
~~Maybe I have to close down my ULQUIHIME fangrp as well as my passion.~~
Watever I say, the story is still in tt Mr's hands. I juz hope he has more surprises & not shocks up his sleeve.
Juz dun separate ULQUIHIME, I beg u ='(

Okay, now back to my objective of post - to share some interesting facts ^^

Anybody else noticed how the Espada and the people they fight have similar
characteristics?
Szayel vs. Mayuri- Both Scientists
Zomari vs. Byakuya- Both calm and meditative
Nnoitra vs. Kenpachi- Both crazy, love fighting, and wear eyepatches
Grimmjow vs. Ichigo- Both have a score to settle
Aaroniiro vs. Rukia- Both have a "part" of Shiba Kaien

So I think the rest of the battles will go something like this:
Yami vs. Chad- Both rely on brute force
Halibel vs. Yoruichi- Both are known to wear extremely small amounts of
clothing
Stark vs. Kyouraku- Both have female subordinates and are lazy
Old Guy vs. Yamamoto- Both old
Ulquiorra vs. Ichigo- Both are emo

Another thing to share will be my love horoscopes for ytd, today & tmr! Hehe random =P

Capricorn 22 Dec - 19 Jan
TODAY
Emotional intensity appeals to you now. Relationships deepen and grow, and penetrate to a very personal level. This process is sometimes initiated by you and sometimes initiated by the other person, but in either case it leads to a much deeper understanding and bond between you.
Tomorrow
This is a very good time to let people know you care about them: send a card, email a note of appreciation or even a love letter! You are very congenial and cooperative now and more interested in the similarities than in the differences between yourself and those special others in your life.
(Yesterday) You feel inclined to speak to others about your innermost feelings, your past, and other personal subjects, which builds closeness and trust in your relationships. You are also a sympathetic listener, drawing out others' feelings and personal experiences.

Finally, today is 20 Mar 2008. Do u know wat date tt is?
Yes today is... HARU'S 16TH BIRTHDAY!
I shall use this post to wish her,
~*HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MISS HARU DESU!*
~*MAY ALL YOUR WISHES COME TRUE! *
~*MISS HOTPINK & MISS BUDGET FOREVER!*
(P.S On behalf of dear Puffy, Coffy & PiaPia as well =D)
We'll celebrate wif ya this fri since u're not free tmr =)

Signing off,
Jazzie.

2008-03-15T21:05:00.002+08:00

Yoyo! I'm back from camp ^^
This shall be a long post dedicated to the last camp of my sec sch life:

COMBINED GIRL GUIDES & SCOUTS CAMP
SCOUTS SARIMBUN CAMPSITE, JALAN BAHTERA
14-15MAR 2008 FRI-SAT 2DAYS1NIGHT

*14MAR 2008 MORNING
Do I have to say smth abt the start?
Hmm to comment, the bag was indeed carrying abit too much things for a 2D1N camp.
On the bus, I was 'smuggling' to listen to mp3 wif our M'am being damn close O_O
My camp grp was Grp no.ONE; a total of 7 members.
(I am the onli Sec 4 inside T_T)
~~Grp 1 is always the worst!~~
Looking @ the clear situation of cos, I knew tt I still have to make use of wat I have, since I dun have a choice.
~~Even though I knew tt this grp is a @!#$%^&* combination.~~
(Oh yeah, I still rmb the APL laughing @ mi)

[Firestarters]
Patrol Leader: -OF COS IS MI AGAIN-
Assistant Patrol Leader: Very gd, I dun even know his name. Sec 2 Dunearn Scout I think.
Members: Angela (USS Guide), Jaspreet (USS Guide), AnnPeng (USS Girl Scout), ChenLu (USS Scout), Dexter (Dunearn Scout)

Taking a quick look @ our bunks, I guess it was pretty alright.
It is a double-decker loooooooong stretch of bunks wif operating fans.
Flagbreak was horrible wif insects crawling all over my unsheltered legs.
~~Totally inevitable but I have learnt to repel insects =)~~

*14MAR 2008 AFTERNOON
Hmm outdoor cooking... Taken up too much time.
~~Hehe tt was when I realised tt I forgot to take out my KNIFE & survival MATCHSTICKS.~~
Basically wat happened was tt we tried reaaaaaaaaaalli hard to start the fire =)
Everyone went to pick up dried leaves, twits, hay, coconut husk & firewood etc.
Camp Chief, 2 or 3 sirs, Camp Committee Members, all of them came to help.
(Blame the stubborn fire, pple)
~~The reason which we called ourselves Firestarters bcos we wana start the fire!~~
Our fire did start, but apparently our fire caught unwanted attention.
1 of my grp members went,
"Waa, we all 'bond' very fast hor."
(I was like '???', apparently I dun c any 'bonding')
He explained to mi tt when we were having life-threatening difficulties, not a single kind soul helped.
However on the other hand, when we were enjoying the luxury of fire, all came to our pit like strong ionic bonds - need alot of energy to break.
~~Chase also cannot chase away de.~~
Anyway, our 2 dishes managed to color themselves black.
No need for mi to say, first grp to present of cos.
(Pls dun ask mi how did the judges react, ty)
Shortly after outdoor cooking, the sky went crying.
A few activities were cancelled. Huge lectures were carried out for our slow movement.
'Pass the msg' short game was played for each patrol. Pass msg using actions onli.
Being the patrol leader, u should know where I stand.
(Need mi to tell u ah?)
My dear frends & anyone who knows mi - Atashi-wa is an anti-socialist desu, a communication baka desu.
~~Yep so u know wat happened & how I was pathetically showing 2 fingers, finger-writing a 'B' & pointing to a scout, which was an utter baka example.~~
Answer: Boy Scout.
Rope games were next. Being intelligent Scouts & Guides, obviously we took the shorter route.
~~It is all bcos of these cheatings tt we dun fully enjoy these games.~~
A demonstration of frog slaughter & fish has been presented by 2 of the sirs.
I totally went into some serious psychological trauma as I watch some life in front of mi being taken away.
(& it's still struggling to live)
~~Jaspreet had to make sure tt her PL's mind is still working right.~~
Overall, it juz kept raining & creating more mud; my shoes were in tip bottom condition in no time =)

*14 MAR 2008 NIGHT
Woo, campfire time!
(No nitewalk @ all for the first time)
Okay, u still duno abt my grp right?
Juz treat them as the opposite of our dear motto will do - dun want to be prepared.
Anyway as for the campfire item, it was brainstormed by Jaspreet & mi.
A fantasy tv channel skit whereby Death Note & Life Note r involved.
It's supposed to show tt our Firestarters channel can bring miracles, as compared to others.
~~In the end our skit is termed as 'no theme', how nice.~~
(Hey, we r the onli grp tt did skit! Claps pls)
The campfire cheer, u can say, proudly to be 100% Jazzies* creations ^^

[Firestarters Cheer]
Created by Fukamidori.
8 little groups that I once knew,
Juniors, Seniors, 4 by 4.
But the 1 little group,
With fire in its name,
It ruled the others with a 'Bang, bang, bang'.

We were the first grp to present, but the sirs & m'am were realli great; they're very supportive towards every grp.
They cheered us on & clapped loudly to show appreciation no matter how the performance turns out.
(Tt is called true sportsmanship)
MCs were Khaizuran & Joel, which I can realli c their efforts in making a successful campfire. Thumbs up ^^
~~The presence of a spoiler band; u can nvr overlook this.~~
After supper we had the PIC thing, which was another new procedure.
We're supposed to collect feedbacks for today's reflection.
The onli interesting thing is tt as a PL & a person who bathes slooooowly, I had to bathe @ 11 smth after the discussion; without the knowledge tt my guider is actualli waiting onli for mi & switch off the lights!
Apparently I took my own sweet time to bathe until ShiTing came running to mi & exclaimed,
"JingZuan, quick! Ms Soh is waiting for u to switch off the lights!"
~~Waa? I duno! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! Off I go, flying my way wif wet hair into the dorms.~~
While everyone else is slping (maybe not ShiYun), I was busy spending 15mins to untie my earpieces in the dark.
Following tt would be my dear mp3s & smses to Opa =)
@ abt 3am the Scouts had a fire drill which indirectly woke up all Guides.
11.45~12 Untie earpieces
12~1.15 Listen mp3s & smsing Opa
1.15~1.30 Attempt to slp
1.30~3 Slping
3~3.15 Woken by nearby fire drill
3.15~5 Continue slping
5~5.15 Woken by nearby noises made by nocturnal peeps outside
@ 5.15 I have totally stopped slping. 3hrs of slp ^^
(Btw there's an earthquake occuring constantly in our dorms hehe)

*15 MAR 2008 MORNING
-To be continued-

*15 MAR 2008 AFTERNOON
-To be continued-

*Comment on whole camp
-matured sec3s
-keep calling PLs
-bloody milo
-meals
-great leaders
-being a last camp

Signing off,
Jazzie.

2008-03-13T23:26:00.003+08:00

Tasks owed:
~ Clear newspapers, Blogshop Clearance, HOMEWORK

Yep I've owed some tasks T_T
Too caught up on Lunia & slacking...
I dun have much time left!
I am gona be IN TROUBLE.
(I need to chiong homework again.)

Look @ the time now, I'm still packing my camp stuffs.
My weird mother has forced mi to have my dinner & u know how she did tt?
A bowl was served.
"Juz eat, I will wash the plate!"
I persistently shaked my head & repeated nonono.
Result: I am eating now.

In the midst of mass-downloading Gundam Seed de songs xD
I juz hope I won't overslp tmr.
~~Sam is giving mi wake-up call.~~

The last camp of my sec sch life.
HERE I COMEEEEEEEEEEEE~!

I hope I will have more fate tmr. Onegai-shimas!

Signing off,
Jazzie.

2008-03-09T11:30:00.007+08:00

No tuitionnnnnnnnnnnn!
Woots!

Alright, I have to cancel my tuition bcos my tutor is sick again. Oh wells.
Anyway, thinking of wat I should do now, I should plan out my March Holis ^^

~Clothes
Buy online! - 2 or 3 skinnies, green Cutesy flats, Forever21 colorblind tee
Confirmed! - 1 green 2-piece, 1 green smiley tee, 1 green mini skirt & 1 lightgrey/black tights [using up $50]

~Homework
English[2h]: TYS 2005 compre
Chinese[2h]: Newspaper report
Maths[4h30mins]: EMaths P2, AMaths Ex13A&B&C
Biology[12h]: 4qns ws, Revision
Chemistry[8h30mins]: 9pages ws, Revision
Geography[12h]: 2qns wb, Revision
History[3h]: Revision

Today: Relevant ULQUIHIME anime epis, Blog makeover, Blogshop Clearance, Clear newspapers

Monday: BIG SHOPPING (Hmm Bugis, Plaza Singapura, Junction 8, Tampines), History
Things to get - My bday present (green pia-pia), green shimmer marker, 2 or 3 tees, beige cardigan, three-quarters [bringing $60, $10 for my bday present]

Tuesday: Geography, Chinese

Wednesday: Another shopping, Chemistry, English

Thursday: Biology, Prepare camp essentials

Friday: Camp Day 1

Saturday: Camp Day 2, Maths

Sunday: Tuition, Watever leftovers

Lastly I wish everyone including myself a happy & fufilling March holis lolx =D

Signing off,
Jazzie.

2008-03-07T01:15:00.006+08:00

To Mr. EMaths & AMaths:
It's not tt I dun care.
It's I dun know.
Dun blame mi for not having the ability to defeat u.
Detention scares mi but wat can I do?
(Oh yeah, copy.)

In the process of losing all confidence.
Wat can u say when I can onli list the negative qualities I have?

Some things pple duno abt mi:
^I have always, wif all my heart, wished to die
^I have always, wif all my brains, thinking of best ways for suicide
^I have always, wif all my jealousy, hating everyone around mi
^I have always, wif all my might, trying to be extraordinary & superior
^I have always, wif all my understanding, interpreting pple's next action
^I have always, wif all my dreams, wished for the impossible craziness
^I have always, wif all my realisation, got off the day fine
"Dear Fairy Godmother, the onli thing I wished for is a death tt has the least impact in the world."

Signing off,
Jazzie.

2008-03-05T01:05:00.002+08:00

Juz to blog before I slp =D
Showcasing some of my dream dresses =P
Of cos I can't afford them, but I'm looking for similar ones tt is within budget ^^
Anyway, I'm currently looking for alot of skinnies & tees =)

This looks so sweet & kawaii! If onli it's in green & more cheaper O_O
This was exactly wat I was looking for during CNY.

A big ribbon in front. It should have a bubble bottom & in green color.

I like the folds, the ribbon belt & corsets tt r behind.
The second Qupid shoes tt I've had my eyes on. It's on sale & I'm getting it!
Stars of the world unite! A random pic for star necklaces.

Okay, sorri for the boring post. Wat matters is tt the pics r interesting right? =X Btw, I've juz changed my MSN & windows theme into green. I'm gooood~

I am still feeling tt there's nothing to look forward for mi; for my life. Well, I guess vanilla milkshakes can be an exception.

Signing off,

Jazzie.

2008-03-03T20:24:00.005+08:00

Yoyo! Now for the DaiSuki reporting time!

Last Friday:
~ During morning assembly, he was sitting directly beside mi. For no particular reason, the class tt was beside did not want to fill in the gap. Hence he was 'beside' mi.
~ On the bus home, we were on the same bus. Apparently he doesn't take bus. I didn't know if he saw mi alight, but I think I could bet on it.

Today:
~ Onli thing tt happened. When I was waiting outside the sch gate, he & his frends juz walked by - but I still saw him anyway.

Btw, I think I need more luck from my DaGe next time too...
Cos this time I managed to get A1 for my geo test.
His luck works wonders huh?

No mood for big discussion today, so short post again xD
Sharing some pics for my recent obsession - kawaii dolls.
They dun look like humans, but they look like they're alive & have their own feelings.

Lastly for my Crunchyroll ULQUIHIME grp =D
UlquiorraxOrihime from Anime Bleach.
Sharing a fandom tt I've found =P
Ulquiorra is kissing Orihime as she hugs their baby & fell aslp *fangirl squeal*
Haha I think the baby is half-arrancar-half-human ^^
ULQUIHIME forever-des =) So sweeeet~

P.S My 'Relevant Anime Epis' left 2 epis onli! I will complete it asap!
After tt I shall continue to random-invite pple again.

Signing off,

Jazzie.

2008-02-22T23:21:00.002+08:00

Sigh, I shall blog now, since there's 3hrs30mins to the completion of download for Lunia T_T

5 things wif DaiSuki:
~1) I wished for same row. He was the beside beside of mi. Smiled during the whole process.
~2) Saw & recognised his backview after sch. Was surprised tt I can recognise.
~3) Ate @ same place; I could have easily eaten @ a different time & place.
~4) Saw him on the way up the stairs.
~5) Met again when on my way to bus stop @ YewTee, he was in front of mi, heading MRT.
~Fate is accumulated. But I doubt he saw mi.

All of these were realli unexpected, the first 1 was juz another lil prayer of mine.
Yet, it still came true. So I've met him 5 times today. This day must be DaiSuki day.

22 February 2008, Girl Guides' World Thinking Day & Scouts' Founders' Day.

2008-02-21T22:24:00.002+08:00

I cannot expect anything from normal humans.
So I assume tt they're all the same.

I do not have superpowers to change anything.
I shall take it the negative way.

I do not have the ability to win.

I am prepared for the worst from them.

Being negative always makes life easier for mi.
One hope juz scatters a thousand disappointments;
juz like 'one happiness scatters a thousand sorrows'.

So dun worry, normal humans can be the worst they can now.

From:	Stephanie Tan (steff_tan@yahoo.com)

Sent:	Tuesday, June 07, 2005 10:27:53 AM
To:	Jing Zuan (scentliee_lurvezz_jz@hotmail.com)